DIARY ZARA
47. Message to my son

"Aa what else? " She asked Jarel.

After school Jarel stayed in the room, playing alone, his hobby of drawing, could color on paper or draw on his small blackboard.

"For the picture, mamah do not see first, later if it is done, aa pointed. " Answer Jarel.

"OKs. " Answer Zara.

"Tadaaaa..... Look at mama."Jarel showed a picture of his work on the board.

"Hahhhhhhhhhhhh....A Rangga and Jarel?" Ask Zara.

"Ah mamah, should his mamah laugh, kana aa this picture let mamah his laugh. " Answer Jarel.

"Why A Rangga, the picture. Why not picture dad? "Ask Zara to Jarel.

"Aa want her picture A Rangga, because aa likes A Rangga. " Answer Jarel.

"Ha. hha. " Answer Zara.

There's-There's you Jarel.

"Oh yes mamah, kemaren pas aa maen in the house of grandma, nanyain A Rangga again?" Jarel.

"Yes, how is it? " ask Zara.

"A Rangga is still in SR ga? Naw. " Answer Jarel.

"Yes A Rangga is not there now aa, has already said." Answer Zara.

"Ga anything, later also a Rangga her here, to the house. Now A Rangga is still clumping, mamah patient yes, later also a Rangga nya dateng. " Answer Jarel.

"Ha. ha.. Aa know where? " Task Zara.

"Tau aja's. "Jawab Jarel's.

"Any new father Ustadz will you? " Task Zara.

"No." Answer Jarel.

"About habib? " Task Zara.

"Ga will, will be mediocre" replied Jarel.

"Huh. huh.. Yes, yes, yes, Allah will hear do'a aa." Zara clear.

"OKs. A Rangga's... A Rangga's... " Jarel teases Zara with Rangga's facial expression.

"A Ranges.... " Jarel can imitate the style of Rangga.

Zara can't laugh. Seeing Jarel's funny behavior.

It's okay if the original Rangga does not exist. Zara still has her little Rangga from Jarel, who is with Zara every day.

Thank you so much, my son, you are a great encouragement.

Mom is so lucky to have a boy like you.

Jarel Arsenio Ariwibowo,

Sorry mamah yes, can not be a good mother for you, so far mamah may sometimes be bad for you, forgive mamah if mamah ever make you a place to vent your disappointment mama, mama, madness, fatigue. I'm sorry son, you're innocent, you have every right to live happily.

Jarel, hopefully one day when you grow up, mama hope you can read this mamah story, mamah hope you can accept the situation that we have both passed this is not easy. But mamah believes you must be strong, because mamah also tries to be a strong mother for you, for your future.

Jarel, this situation is not a mama's wish, mamah never imagined you to experience this incomplete family life at your early age. But mamah sure even though you are still 6 years old, mamah sure you must have understood. You are the most dear mamah child, you become a child who matures prematurely.

Forgive me, force you to experience something like this, but promise. Mom will try her hardest, to always make your life happy. Mom won't treat you, like grandma treated you first, because of the pain. Mamah does not want you to experience the same thing as the mamah natural thing before.

Jarel, your job is to learn. Study diligently, mamah will also try to teach as much as possible, as well as able to mamah, so that later in the future you become a great man, a man who is full of responsibility, so that in the future you will become a great man, men who are good men, men who always respect women, wise men who always hold firm to the Qur'an in living every life.

Because the task of a good man is not easy, the man should be able to be the backbone for his small family later, not for mama. Because mommy will try himself to support himself.

You must be able to respect the person you love, you must be able to prioritize the woman you love. You should be able to become a priest and role model for your children later. Mamah will prepare yourself from childhood, to be ready to face the challenges of life that are not easy when you grow up.

Mamah will do his best to give you the provision of life, because that is what you can give, not give you abundant supplies of wealth, but mamah teaches you how to find sustenance in the way of Allah, but mamah teaches you how to find sustenance in the way of Allah, how to be grateful for all the blessings God has given to our lives, instilling full trust in God early on, in the Heart. Jarel has to understand that.

Maybe you can not be free like other children who can play wild here and there, because mamah always teaches you about time discipline, when to school, when to play, when to watch TV, when to watch TV, when to play mobile phones, when to teach, and when to understand the contents of the Qur'an. solely because mamah is very dear to you, mamah wants to give the best for you, everything will mamah.

Your focus is on your future. May mamah be able to give everything that is best, although mamah itself is important Jarel is always happy, mamah must be happy.

Perhaps the mama time is not much for you, as long as mama is still in this world, the mama task is always to provide provisions, as long as mama is still in this world, provision of how to face life by sticking firmly to the teachings of God which are all contained in the Qur'an. Supply how to demand general knowledge, and knowledge how to bring halal sustenance.

If only God would call you in time. Mama will be able to leave you quietly, because mamah has taught you many things in life.be a useful child for everyone.

And when you grow up, be a man who can be a priest, always be a good husband for your wife, also a role model for your children later. Mamah mamah will be proud of you, and mamah does not want anything from you, mamah happy if later you can make your own little family happy.

Hopefully someday you can understand the message of this mama, hopefully someday you will become a successful man. Do'a mama is always the best for you, son,

Mama always loved Jarel.

Jarel is a precious gift from God to mamah.