DIARY ZARA
20. Reunions

Today Zara attended a parenting event at Jarel school to discuss child psychology, how to know the development of children's emotional, in this golden age. The role of parents is very important to determine the future of the child later.

Zara was gathered with the other parents. Zara does not get together very often with the mothers of Kindergarten, unless there is an important event like this Zara took the time to follow her, other things if her event gathers at the house of mother A, a, tomorrow mother B, so-so Zara never come, because there is busy in the store as well.

Second parenting after Jarel attended this kind of kindergarten. Parenting used to be done when Zara was down at that time. Zara asked.

"Mom will the condition of Zara now who separated from her husband affect the development of Jarel's psychology? " Zara was very worried about that.

"Happy for her mother, God willing, there will be no adverse effects on her child, as long as her mother can be strong, happy, and steadfast. " The teacher replied to Zara at the time.

It was a very difficult task for Zara. Actually the one who needs healers, psychologists, ustadz and ustadzah is Zara not Jarel my son.

Alhamdulilah Jarel can prove that he is fine, as evidenced by all the achievements he achieved when Zara struggled alone. This kid is amazingly great.

Zara is trying to be a mother and father for him. Don't let my son have internal child wounds and past traumas like his mother. Enough for Zara.

Zara sought enlightenment from all things, Asking God for guidance, seeking guidance in the Qur'an, listening to tausiah ustadz and ustadzah on youtube even now Zara still do is consult with a healer and psychologist via youtube.

Everything Zara did so that Zara could heal from all the wounds of the past, lest I give it to my son Jarel.

My mother was hard on Zara because she received such treatment from her father, Zara's grandfather, Grandpa Zara was harsh on her mother because of the care of her father who was a veteran soldier at that time in the colonial era.

Parenting, bullying, KDRT are all done like a pattern that will continue to repeat if the chain is not broken. People who have had a hard upbringing in childhood, consciously or unconsciously he will grow up to be selfish and stubborn, people who have experienced bullying in childhood, and, as an adult he tends to be bullied even more severely, a man whose childhood does not get the affection of his parents, who, as an adult he tends to commit acts of domestic violence.

Therefore, Zara understood now. Before Zara meets the next couple. God gave Zara time to repair herself, to heal her own wounds. Because no one can change that person but himself.

Zara's affection and care is entirely for my son, for indeed my Son is in dire need of her for now.

10 dreams of Zara's istikharah, one by one become real.

When Zara dreamed of being given a road guide by a man at the supermarket mushola that time. A very bright man, Zara was unable to see his face.

Is it possible that the figure of an angel whom God sent to guide the best way for Zara. After all the do'a and repentance Zara did.

Wallahu a'lam, only God is all-knowing.

Surely Zara rose up and was happy together with Jarel for all the help that God had given so far. This is clear evidence that God's help is very close.

When the Apostle and the believer asked Allah.

"When will the help of God come? " Behold, Allah's help is near - Al Baqarah verse 214.

The real evidence after Zara went through all the hard things in life, God led Zara to come out and now Zara is fine, Alhamdulilah.

"The problem will not be hard if we live it close to God - Rangga. "

Finished Parenting I went straight to Sukabumi City to buy ATK.

"May eat first yes, Aa Laper. "jarel whine because parenting is finished at 11 noon, soon lunch time.

Zara and Jarel had lunch at KFC at Jarel's previous request.

On the road jammed once because there is a road repair as well as an accident. It was angkot his muter through the residential street.

Returning from Sukabumi Zara down at Frozen food store, it turns out the store is closed.

"Well, close a shop." Zara was a little disappointed.

"Ke si om aja yuk mah, cigarettes kan abis. " Take Jarel because this Frozen food store is not far from SR Wholesale.

"Yakin Zara are you willing to set foot on SR again? " Zara spoke inwardly.

"Where to see Rangga again. Are you willing. " Task Zara in your heart.

"Bismillah try it, Zara wants to shop not want to meet A Rangga. Ok!!" Zara gathers all the strength to get into SR Wholesale.

"Come a, leave." I held Jarel's hand towards the Wholesale SR Parkiran.

At the entrance Zara saw a different atmosphere of SR Wholesale from 3 months ago.

"Oh Allah is a dream or a reality. Why is the atmosphere exactly the same as in my dreams. SR Wholesale turned completely real." Zara said inwardly as she stepped foot into the Wholesale SR.

Like the atmosphere in my fifth dream. Only the difference is that the real wholesale SR is still 1 floor, but the arrangement of goods and shelves is the same.

"Yes Zara. " Answer Zara.

"It's really Zara, right? Where aja? Ask Syifa smiling tea.

"There's tea at the store. He. he.." Answer Zara.

"Busy in the store? " Tanya Syifa Tea.

"Yes." Yeah." Answer Zara.

Zara saw Rangga sitting at the cashier table. Wearing Orange color t-shirt, Hair pigtailed disheveled. She smiles.

Zara returned a smile to Rangga, and passed inside to just go around looking at the new Yang shop.

"Eh Zara yes. Healthy? " Tanya a Eko who is tidying up the display goods.

"Alhamdulilah. New atmosphere in the shop? Nice a. "Jawab Zara on a Eko. .

"Yes, it's still in order. " Answer A Eko.

Really like minimarket now atmosphere in SR.

"Good job in Rangga. " Zara said inwardly.

"Well this bad feeling. " Vishnu said as he passed me.

"Eh, Zara." Sapa vishnu.

"Hey." Zara greeted vishnu again.

As in that dream Zara met Vishnu also in exactly the same area.

Zara returned to the cashier's desk a Rangga, because Zara only bought cigarettes.

Zara waited in line for one of the fathers in front of Zara.

"A Rangga you're tired yeah, very skinny. Your eyes too, must be sleep deprived huh? " Tanya Zara in her heart who stood in front of Rangga continued to pay attention to Rangga.

"Sok, sayin? " A Rangga Finally spoke to me.

"Smoking only. " Zara tried to mention Zara's groceries to a Rangga.

"What else? " Rangy asked.

"Udah that way. " Answer Zara smile.

"470 grand, is that it? " Rangga smiles because maybe Zara is shopping a little.

"Yes is Aja. " Answer Zara.

The same atmosphere as in my dreams. Rangga sat in front of me because he was sitting in front of the cashier's computer. I stood next to him because to see the nominal my purchase listed in front of the computer that a Rangga was holding.

By looking at your face alone, Zara knows you are tired once a Rangga, the spirit continues yes. Although disheveled so. The handsome is not really in Zara's eyes. Zara spoke inwardly.

"A Rangga kangen.. kangen really.. "that's what Zara really wants to tell you but can't. Zara could only speak inwardly while looking at the smile on her face a sweet Rangga.

Zara moves to an Eko table to bring a cigarette.

A Rangga stood up from his seat and spoke to the salesman who had just arrived.

Zara passed SR out to return back to the store.

Outside Zara saw the car om parked, but the om is not there.

There are similarities with my fifth dream. Whether the next dream will turn out to be real, I don't know only God knows and let time answer.