DIARY ZARA
18. It's not all the same anymore

This morning as usual I drove Jarel to school. On the street there is Mamah Salwa, his friend Jarel passing by.

"Jarel come along, afraid of bad luck." Take Mamah Salwa who delivered her husband in the car.

"A wanna come?" ask Zara to Jarel.

"Now. " Answer Jarel.

"Yes let's go up, behind ya, sorry the car's a bit messy, a lot of the same stuffed pillows haven't been machined. " Mamah Salwa who sat in front said.

"It's nothing" replied Zara.

Really more now, Alhamdulilah. Good people are always there for me and Jarel. Almost all of Jarel's friends who are in the same house, always go home or go together.

When I forget to pick up because the teacher's mother is meeting, while I don't open whats app. Mama Syisil immediately nganterin Jarel returned home. Alhamdulillah.

Thank you so much everyone. Zara will never forget your kindness.

"There is no recompense for good but good - Ar Rahman verse 60."

Continue to do good to everyone, for so many people are dear to Zara now.

"If you do good (meaning) you do good for yourself, and if you do evil, then (the loss of evil) is for yourself - Al Isra verse 7."

No more Zara being looked down upon, no more Zara being bullied. Everyone respects Zara, loves Zara, there are no more people who want to, people who make emotions soul.all automatically disappear and away from Zara's life. Change with the person who loves Zara dear to Jarel. Although Zara lives alone, everyone loves Zara now. Zara was very grateful to God. Despite the one that Zara always hoped for, the one that Zara always wanted, the one that Zara always looked forward to.

LEANINGS

Not money, not popularity, not recognition from many. All Zara wants is one thing that never changes, when everything has changed, but the one thing Zara always wants is Rangga.

Zara must always learn to be sincere, and accept the difficult reality. Rangga is not for me, Rangga is not my destiny, Rangga is not my soul mate.

That's what I say every day in Zara's heart. So that Zara can accept the fact that everything is no longer the same as before. Rangga had gone far away. Zara you must be aware.

There are many people who love and care about you. Why do you always expect people who even talk to you to not want to.

"God willing to go home." Rangga's words were always ringing in Zara's head.

As much as I can, I am at peace with that hope. Hopefully in the end I can really accept everything.

"Tea, often fill the balance. " Ask aa suvervisor minimarket subscription Zara fill balance.

"Yes. You see the balance is a little, which buy a lot. His money is a muter-muter " replied Zara.

"Wiihh handsome is also this guy, sweet. " Zara said in her heart.

"Zara, let you learn hijrah now, bow your gaze, so it is not easy baper ok. "Dear Zara said that.

"Incoming in saldonya. " Task this aa suvervisor.

There are two supervisors in this minimarket who stole Zara's attention. One aa good, one aa playboy. Zara must have liked her to a playboy.

"No Zara how do you not continue to hurt, people type you rich man so-so. " Zara spoke inwardly while waiting for my balance receipt to come out.

Funny thing is that a suvervisor playboy is often seduced by girls who shop. But if Zara comes and says she wants to fill the balance. He was immediately silent and misbehaved until he forgot the receipt, forgot the change. There is a behavior that makes Zara smile herself if she sees it.

If the aa suvervisor is good, he's more mature, more tidy, more polite talking. It's hilarious. You have to meet a lot of new men Zara now so it's easy to forget about Rangga.

Thank God no one dares to tease or belittle Zara now. They're all good.

"It's okay to come here often yes, if the salad is often abis, may the blessing be his business tea." This aa suvervisor keeps going while smiling shyly.

"He. he's.. " It's funny to see the original. Zara ga baper dong now. Be safe...

"Oh yes. Ask for the phone number yes let us enter the group. Udah become a member also, later if you want to shop send whats app aja, let us deliver to home directly. " The playboy's aa suvervisor offers a shopping delivery.

"Oh yes, register a group. At most also fill the balance, Shopping is not too often anyway. " Answer Zara.

"Fill the delivery balance so yes. "that's a laugh.

"You can really want Zara. Let's not walk here. " Answer Zara.

"He. he. " laughed at him.

Coming home from the minimarket I stopped by the house ka Maria first.

"De tomorrow mom controls to the RS, anther yes. Jarel went to school. " Say ka Maria to Zara.

"Where is mom now? "Ask Zara.

"Ke Puskesmas first, make Referral. " Answer Sister Maria.

"Yes, I'm going home from Jarel school tomorrow, I'm going straight to my mom's house. I haven't been to my mother's house anymore either. Males must have been asked that again, that again. " Answer Zara.

"When to marry? Ditto transfer ga? " Ka Maria knows my mother's question. "

"Yes, Males. "Zara Jawab.

"Zara is sure, no one wants to marry Zara. But the question is there anyone who can? It must be rich. " Zara is confident. he..

Because according to Zara personally, independent, financially independent women are cool.

But sometimes there are many men who cannot accept, because the income of the woman is greater than the income of the man.

The problem is that anyway.

It was simple for Zara. As long as there is a man who is able to accept Zara as she is, willing to fight together, willing to accept my son, responsibility, the most important is a man who fears.

Because if a man understands religion, he must know how to treat a woman.

The next day I drove mom to the hospital for routine control again. When I got to the hospital, I was a little scared. There is a slight sense of trauma possible when looking at the IGD and ICU.

It is clear that my shadow used to go back and forth to take care of the mother who was being treated here. Coming home from the midnight parking lot, bring the car alone, do not hold the money, ask for help Rangga not in response at all.

Astagfirullah, Allahuakbar

How hard and painful I felt at that time. Until I can't imagine it anymore.

Everything has changed, even the rooms in this hospital have changed.

It turned out that the schedule for the doctor's re-list was changed, which originally had no control queue no 16, due to system changes. Who came first to register with the RS, he was the one who got the first doctor queue.

Because Zara and mom came by at 12 p.m. So I got a new doctor queue, no 51.

Resign, definitely go home tonight. The doctor started his practice at 3.

"Shalat dzuhur used to be yuk bu, still this long time." invite Zara to mother.

"Yes already. " Answer mother.

When Zara and her mother prayed, Jarel suddenly cried.

"Mom. mama.. " Jarel pulled me over.

"Aa dyed pup. " Jarel was crying and pulling my face.

"Oh my God, why don't you say, let's go to the toilet." I'll take Jarel to the toilet. Even though before he had peed, then I wudhu, whether in the wind or how, this child was-there was.

The pants are dirty, don't bring copy too. Because it never happened like this. It's big too. If you want a pup, you will say.

Zara washed her pants and told her to make some more.

"You want to wear Jarel's wet pants gini-rich until you get home, Kasian. The wind later. " Ask mom.

Jarel is still crying.

"Well, I didn't bring copy either. "

Jarel's pants are really soaking wet.

"Yes, I've bought pants, but there's a deket shop here. " Zara decided to buy clothes and pants for Jarel because he might not wear wet pants nyampe later malem si RS.

Zara walked on foot and continued to walk far away, apparently there was no children's clothing store near here. Zara finally decided to take the angkot. Soon I found a children's clothing store.

Zara's back at the RS.

Mom and Jarel were sunbathing sitting in front of the hospital quite hot as well here. My son shivered in the cold because his pants were soaked wet.

I want to cry Zara.

"Jarel is-there are you yes, drama pup dicelana all. Rich first time to RS aja you. " Zara Nyerocos continues while changing Jarel's pants and shirt.

Sure enough, the mother's control jam at 10 malems.

Zara tried to order a taxi online.

"Awas ya Rangga, if I can not order a taxi online, you have to pick me up now here. " Zara spoke in her own heart, while my hand held the phone to order a taxi online.

Because Zara remembered Rangga's words.

"Easy if the mother controls to the RS, pesen taxi online aja. ga do not worry. "

Alhmadulilah, it turns out there are online taxis that want, because if it is 10 o'clock mallem no public transportation through Zara's house. Because Zara's house is in the village.

"Zara, deliver the goods tomorrow. " There is a whats app message from the om, just opened Zara.

"Yes, it's nothing. Zara is also still in the hospital, just coming home. " Answer Zara.

On the road pass Zara, Zara saw the car is still parked outside, the SR Light is still on and the door is still open.

"Hour 10, overtime their times. " Zara spoke inwardly as my eyes watched the wholesale SR from inside the online taxi.