DIARY ZARA
58. The end means beginning

"Jarel Ranking 1." Zara sent a picture of Jarel holding her rap book to Ditto.

"White pinter, askin want what gift? " Answer Ditto.

"School recreation Plan departs wednesday, 15 February

Choice 1.Safari park 370rb/person

Park and zoo and Lembang wonderland 270rb/pax." Zara sends a screenshot of Whats app messages from Jarel's school to Ditto.

"February is a trip from school. His uniform cost 120 thousand. " Zara send photos of uniform t-shirt design for lembang tourism.

"It's just the two of you. " Answer Ditto.

"Yes means the model of his T-shirt is rich so. if ga to the Safari park means to Lembang." Zara clear.

"Wuhh yesterday in the pinjem no wey, help ingetin The father who took the car anyway. Let me get you to the bank. Ntar I transfer 500 thousand. " Answer Ditto.

"Astagfirullah the Ditto really yes, the time to make the fare to lembang just have to use a loan to the bank, the money his salary where, abis in pake courtship time yes. Still driving the car." Think Zara.

"Udah was asked to his father, not yet bales. If there continues to be giving, there is nothing just information from Zara." Answer Zara.

"Where's the Jarel? God exists." Ask Ditto.

Zara sent me a picture of Jarel, Zara and Jarel just wanted to go to the hospital to pick up mom back from control.

"You're going to the hospital" asked Ditto.

"Fetch grandma. " Answer Jarel with a Voice note.

"Oh yes Be careful. " Ditto retaliated.

Zara and Jarel left for the hospital this afternoon, picking up the mother back from control. Mother left this morning alone. Calling her home last night, so I picked up her mother just go home can order a taxi online.

"Yes, I want to eat a laper. " Jarel asked to eat before he got to the hospital.

"Yes, we'll go to grandma first. " Answer Zara.

"OKs. " Jarel also answered.

Zara and Jarel reached the hospital lobby directly to the 4th floor where the mother controls the specialist Cardiac.

"You've been called yet? " Zara approached the mother who was sitting in the waiting chair with the other patients, waiting for the doctor's call.

"Not yet, it's still long. The doctor came late from his usual practice hours." Obviously Mother.

"Oh that. " Answer Zara.

"Mood eat. " Jarel asked for more food.

" Yes have eaten first, still long queue doctor as well. " Obviously mom to Zara.

"Yes Zara went downstairs first, Mom, get some food. " Answer Zara.

"Yes. " Mom answered.

"What would you eat? " Task Zara to Jarel.

"Nasi padang's. " Answer Jarel.

"OKs. " Lately Zara just know if Zara turns out to like eating rice paddocks when in the past Zara did not really like the name Nasi padang. I don't know, maybe because things changed, favorite foods are changing now.

Zara headed for the famous good pasture restaurant in front of the hospital. Maybe because yesterday fitting mother hospitalized this Zara eating her rice field, uh so her entanglement likes until now.

Jarel sent a selfie to Ditto while eating.

"Where to eat? " answered Ditto.

"Nasi padang sebrang hospital" replied Zara.

"Oh yes. " Answer Ditto.

Sure enough Beres control his doctor turned out at 9 p.m. Zara direct book a taxi online directly to the house. It's always been like that, but it's good now. Zara doesn't have to be a driver anymore. Pesen has just sat down sweet, down and pay. No need to think Car installments, car taxes, car service. Not to mention the unexpected costs that must be incurred when driving always have to hold money. Moreover, the danger of accidents on the road, as long as Zara drove her own car Zara never thought of such a thing. Now Alhamdulilah calmer even though his car disappeared, so it belongs to someone else now.

"Ribet is Car business. " The next day Ditto sent me a message.

"Why emang." especially Zara males also actually reply to Ditto's message.

"The car's still not paid off, I'm still on the leasing call." Answer Ditto.

"Yes, I don't have to pick up the phone." Answer Zara.

"How to lift? Later I send a KTP to the house, make a power of attorney using the stamp. Let the father take her home. Ribet, he was in leasing but the others didn't have me. I'll give you a power of attorney KTP. You take care of it. " Obviously Ditto.

"I called his father, he said he was talking to you. " Obviously Zara.

"And I'm not in Sukabumi now, so use a power of attorney. " Obviously Ditto.

"Move Em?" Ask Zara.

"Move, don't have any money. " Answer Ditto.

"Moving just doesn't have money what it's all about, instead he's got a paycheck." Think Zara.

"Oh. " Answer Zara briefly.

"Bikininin' power of attorney." Ditto's Order.

"Wouldn't take BPKB, right? " Task Zara.

"Yes, I'll send the ID to the house." Answer Ditto.

" Yes for repayment, there must be an original KTP. " Obviously Ditto.

Because the car loan was in the name of Ditto, so the ID card needed was Ditto, and now Ditto moved to work, so his ID card must be sent a package.

"Where are you now? " Task Zara.

"In Bogor. " Answer Ditto.

"Why in Bogor too? " Task Zara.

No other city what yes, Rangga to Bogor and Ditto also to Bogor.

"Ga anything. " Answer Zara.

I never thought Ditto would move out of her workplace. Looking at his already high position, big salary. Why move somewhere else. I don't know what was the reason he quit his workplace first, Zara thought Ditto was still in Sukabumi turned out to move to Bogor.

So did Rangga, never thought he would leave SR, even though Rangga was a confidant of A Fadli, a brother as well. His job responsibilities seem to be a lot. I don't know what made him decide to leave SR after Zara felt SR is better now, more neat also the arrangement of the goods. I don't know what the reason he got out of SR Zara doesn't know.

"Everything here, somewhere else has to use money. " Answer Ditto.

Ditto aja there is work experience in large companies difficult to get new work especially Rangga who paklaringnya maybe from Wholesale.

"Oh ok. " Answer zara.

"You go to the bank and you can't, so you move. " Answer Ditto.

"Don't he come out with severance pay? " Task Zara.

"Yes make pinjol. " Answer Ditto.

"Oh that. Been paid off? " Task Zara.

"Dizziness, so move. " Answer Ditto.

"What is so dizzy, yes, big salary spending just for yourself. Where's he giving pocket money to Jarel, but still dizzy, strange." Think Zara.

"Ga will be dizzy times." Answer Zara.

"What house is that? " Task Ditto.

"Dibaya use that jajan jarel money? " Task Zara.

"Yes car money herein, same DP installment. " Answer Ditto.

Hahaha.he could usually ask for money DP same installment car back. Who told him to cheat, if he didn't cheat on my future and Ditto wouldn't fall apart like this. His mischievous behavior outside if Ditto doesn't claim Zara's divorce, this household won't be destroyed like this, all happening outside of plan. If he's naughty even if he goes back to Zara's house, he won't know what he's doing outside. But maybe God is good to Zara, so it is better for this household to be destroyed than for this husband and wife to hurt each other, it should be the best way is to separate.

"The money of the car is over credit there are 12 million, I have used food from June to December only Jarel already 6 million. " Obviously Zara.

"30 million dollars of cars. " Answer Ditto.

"the 30 million. The car doesn't exist either." Think Zara.

"That's 30 million. Now the ripple is on me. Still asking for some straw."

30 Million pa, Zara people over car loans in June it got 20 million money. It was also over his credit in June. Try it over credit in February, Zara won't get a refund. Because the installment money that has not been 3 years is still larger nominal than the installment money that has been in leasing for 2 years.

The 20 million was cut from my mother and aunt's 8 million, who helped me rent a car during February, March, April, May.

Because I asked Rangga for help, but Rangga could not help, as much as Zara could survive alone in helping the family. But the result is what Rangga Zonk.

Zara's car came out too. June Zara got the net money from the car loan over 12 million, the money was to connect Zara and Jarel's lives. Because it turns out we can not expect help from humans, which is only a sense of disappointment and humiliation. As much as Zara could prove to everyone, Zara could rise on her own with the help of Allah SWT.

"Ga asked, only the child's living is still the obligation of his father even though he was divorced. If you consider Zara begging, it's nothing Zara just reminds you of your obligations. " Answer Zara.

"600 thousand x 2 years is still more, later the house is sold. " Answer Ditto.

"How much life has Jarel been? Is a child's living just material? What about his education, his health, the affection and the care of a father, what all of that is quite replaced with money. How much can you afford to spend on all the rights that jarel should get that are now just gone. Can't do that. "Obviously Zara.

"Now we are both starting from zero. What is broken cannot be repaired. It's not like we're going to end up like this. There was no intention of me from the beginning to take the car and the household would fall apart like this. That's why all this time Zara worked hard to help let you nyicil my car that takes care of the kitchen needs. But the reality is like this now. How you gonna do it again? If later There is a sustenance Zara married again, goods this time the house was bought with the new Husband Zara, we will never know. Wait and see." Zara clear.

"Yes, don't take Jarel's living. I owe here and there the salary is also minus. " replied Ditto.

"Huh.huh.. " Zara just laughed.

"I really did Jarel's production, not anything to be clear later. Yes definitely abis money, people go on a walk. Culinary, Nginep in villas and hotels. It's all on your tube Lidya. Not that all of them use money. " Answer Zara.

"Puguh streets. The money abis. " Answer Ditto.

"Yes good, abis because in use. " Answer Zara.

" 600 thousand x 12 can be 14 millions. There's still a lot left for Jarel to go to school. Later if the house is sold I continued Nafakahin Jarel. "

"House in his son's place wants to be sold. What the hell is the money. Handoko's father is rich and needs that kind of money. Zara doesn't understand Ditto's thoughts. " I don't think about Zara.

"Ga will sell his house. Jarel's life is long. If you don't change your mind during Jarel's life, we don't know. Moreover, we have lived each of us, there is a guarantee that you can be responsible forever or not. The proof so far you only give Jarel a living 3 months early only when Zara is still in the 500 thousand month period while the initial agreement is 600 thousand per month, the incoming money is only 1.5 million while the jarel is now exhausted 6 million, Zara's mut costs were 10 million promises paid in late December no word at all. It's late December, how are you. Anyway let's not get dizzy. Now our salary is how much spending per month. It can be enough or not, that's all. Zara has often said that from a long time ago, until Zara has a record of monthly and daily expenses on the cellphone for what, let it be clear. Our money is spent for whatever. But you never cared and never wanted to hear what I said. Now, set it up yourself. Thank God Zara is free. Tomorrow we are still alive and we never know. So do not worry think money money and money that will never be endless to discuss. " Obviously Zara.

"Yes pretentious to buy his house, the same father told him to sell. I want to get the money. I don't have any money for him " replied Ditto.

"Later taken care of again, the certificate is only in the Bank. " Answer Zara.

Maybe Handoko's father does not have money, but what is true is that rice fields and hectares of land are also abis. Dipake what? Handoko's father is a rich man, his cattle are not many from the farm as well. Tell me who I worked with yesterday not want to work with.

"Jarel if you want to live with me is also not anything I can afford. " Answer Ditto.

"Kalo his son would like to please. But you have to take care of it with your own hands. Don't help others, take work, bring courtship. As much as you can handle it with your own hands. Like I take care of Jarel now with my own hands. No. I'm staying at work. I'm there every day for Jarel. Are you willing. " Task Zara.

Ditto did not reply to this Whats appa Zara message.

As long as everyone knows, it's not easy for me to be a single mom for Jarel. Must be able to educate, care for and care for my son alone and even provide for him as well. But Zara was sure that God would not have chosen Zara to live this life if there was no good in her.

May Zara always be strong to live out the destiny of the decree that God gave to Zara. Because whatever ends there will be a beautiful start there for Zara and Jarel one day.

Trust and trust that God will give his best to Zara. And may Allah always protect Zara and Jarel.