DIARY ZARA
22. Introspect and be grateful

8 Months ago Zara became a single parent. It's not easy. Zara herself did not expect Zara to get through all this, and now Zara is fine. It was as if Zara had forgotten all the pain that Zara had gone through there was no trace at all. Every day Zara is always happy now, surrounded by people who love Zara so much, from my son, my parents, even my neighbors also say.

"Zara you're great. "

Thank God Zara thanked Zara for being this strong and beautiful woman.

Everything Zara would never have gotten if Zara had not experienced the pain first.

Thank you so much Ditto my ex-husband, you have given Zara 3 talak so easily. So as to free Zara from the shackles of the household for the 7 years that we have been through. Thank you so much Zara always said, Zara never regretted and Zara was very happy with this separation even though she was filled with tears.

Thank you my Handoko Father-in-law, and I'm sorry that for 7 years Zara has not been a good daughter-in-law to you, thank you for all the advice you always give to Zara, although sometimes Dad's words hurt Zara but Zara knew, it was all for Zara's good. Thank you for the 2 books you gave me.

"The great reading and memorization of the Qur'an - Ust. Joseph mansur."

"Whoever reads al-Waqiah's letter every night, every Ashar time, every after dawn prayer. He will not suffer poverty forever. Zara has proven it. And Allah granted Zara sustenance from wherever it goes, there is always. Alhamdulillah."

"7 Wonders of Sustenance - Ippo Right Santosa. "

"Yes, your Lord extends the sustenance of whomever he wills and limits (to whomever he wills) indeed, he is all-knowing, all-seeing of his servants - Al Isra verse 30."

These books will make Zara provision to lead to success. So that later Zara can be a successful and humble person like Handoko's father.

Thank you very much Rangga my hijrah guidance teacher, because you did not marry me, after that iddah period. Thank you very much you did not help me to continue my car installment. Until finally Zara released Zara's car and restarted Zara's business from scratch.

It proves that, Zara does love you for who you are, Zara loves Rangga sincerely without any sense of capitalization at all, Never. It's just that my love was never reciprocated. It's okay, so Zara is grateful, so Zara realized and decided to emigrate. Because that love should be given only to Allah, the Messenger of Allah, and the Qur'an who is the Imam, a guide to every step of what Zara should do.

Improving yourself for the better, like Rangga's invitation at that time, will not be in vain for Zara. Although his marriage did not become with Rangga at that time. Because the soul is a reflection of self. Women are good for men, men are good for women. Zara is convinced that any man who marries Zara will. She must be the luckiest person Zara could be. And Zara must have been very lucky to have been able to be a wife for her.

Zara sat in front of the mirror of Zara's dressing table. Because sometimes reflecting in real terms is necessary.

"Zara you're beautiful. " Zara spoke to Zara's self-reflection seen in the mirror.

"Look!! your face, your eyes, your long unraveling hair, everything is perfect. Nothing less." Zara smiled in front of the mirror.

"Why did you decide to wear the niqab? " Task Zara.

"In addition it will get the Sunnah reward. Zara does not want Zara's face to be seen by Ajnabi men, especially with the status of single parent Zara now. Which is so very vulnerable to slander among the people around Zara. "

Shaykh Muhammad bin Qassim Al Ghazali said :

"The whole body of a woman other than the face and palms is aurat, It is aurat in prayer. Outside the prayer of the woman is the whole body. "

"How can you get a soul mate if you wear a veil like that. Who can see your face?" Mother's first words to Zara.

Zara just smiled.

Zara never worried a bit. Because God guarantees everything. Zara believes everything Zara did was right. How Zara kept her honor as a widow was not easy.

For what looks beautiful face, but not beautiful heart, ahlak and do not have faith.

All humans have a path they choose. And this is the way of life that Zara chose.

How-to?

Use both of our hands, to close both our ears, Step away and never care about the negative words of humans.

We know ourselves, only ourselves.

"Allah is your protector, and he is your best helper - Ali Imran verse 150.

Zara believes that one day God will allow Zara to remarry. God would have given someone the best for Zara. After Zara was busy establishing herself, Zara was sure that God would give her gift to Zara something special.

Zara believed and believed in God.

Because now Zara has had the provision of experience that Alhamdulilah very useful to determine what Zara's future will be like.

Zara never regretted ever living with Ditto, Zara never regretted ever meeting Rangga. Because everything provides valuable life lessons for Zara.

Sometimes God teaches us to be met with someone who hurts us. It is precisely to make our hearts stronger, mentally stronger, we are getting stronger. Our faith then grows to draw near to God.

God has placed on us the pain of hope. God does not want us to hope for anyone.

Sometimes God meets us with someone who when we love him very much, desperately wants him to be our partner. But the wrong way.

God then reminds us of the way he hurt us and betrayed our love.

Do not bother, Make every cry you just repent to Allah, is that not the way?

Not begging his creatures, but begging those who have creatures. The Allah of Swt.

"If you reveal what is in your heart or you hide it, Allah will take it into account for you. He forgives whom he wills and punishes whom he wills. Allah is almighty over all things - Al Baqarah verse 284."

God knows very well that Zara loves Rangga. God also knew very well whether Rangga was good or not, for Zara.

Where would the soul mate go.

Something that has been set by Allah will be ours. No matter what, the path will remain ours.

Something that God does not set ours. No matter how easy it is, it will never be ours.

God knows what we need.

How we ask God.

In a polite way, in a gentle way to then get closer to Allah Swt.

It is easy for God to fix everything.

"Kun Fayakun."