Forbidden Love On A Full Night
Second Chance

I thought* witty as Ram's lips shut mine. Ram's arms are tightly coiled around my waist, making my heart beat faster. My blood flow seemed to slow down and coagulate in the pulse as Ram cupped the back of my head, clenching his hands tightly in strands of my hair to deepen his kiss.

I was out of breath when Ram pulled away. His chest was blooming as he stared fixedly at my two eyes. "Finally...."

"What?"

Ram's hand moved up and down on my back, sending out small vibrations that tickled my skin. "Can we try again?"

"Oh...?"

"Does that mean yes?"

"Ram.. I...."

"Don't go, Purna. Don't leave me again. Don't go...."

I should have been happy then, and I knew I was indeed happy at her request. But I'm confused too.

"Purn?"

I took a deep breath. Breathing out....

"Ram, I love you, and you know exactly how I feel about you. But I...."

He pulled my waist closer to her, stomping me into his arms. "Why?" tanyakanya. "What are you...? You've decided to...?"

I shook my head strongly. "No," I said restlessly. "No. Not that, Ram. There is no marriage or any obligation. Even I have my freedom to leave or stay. But I'm too cowardly to be hurt again when you decide."

"Not again after this. I will fight for you, Purna. I'll be with you forever. Always."

The deg!

"I swear. I'm not letting you go again this time. I will fight for you. Please give me a chance, please...?"

I'd better be honest now. Maybe this is a good time. Ram has the right to make his choice once he knows all about me. If he chooses to withdraw, I can leave here. And there will be no more wedge.

"Finally...."

"I'm a widow."

"What?" Ram was surprised, his eyes instantly wide.

"I've been married before" I said. "Three times."

Ram's embrace loosened from me then slipped away. He turned his face in disappointment, then turned his back on me.

And I started crying....

"My three husbands died when we were newlyweds. That's why I purposely came here to look for you," my voice trembled. "You swear I'll never find a soulmate other than you when we're apart, you remember that?"

He turned around slowly to face me, finding tears welling my face.

"Eight years, I can never forget you. But I also don't want to live alone. Therefore, I accepted the proposal of the man my father liked, and was forced to marry. True the intention of my arrival is not the same as what I do here, I came for peace. I want to ask for your sincerity. But I went back to the past. To the love that is still stored in my heart. I'm sorry, Ram. I'm sorry if all this makes you disappointed. Sorry...."

Somehow the shame seemed to cover me, the status of the widow I did not want made me feel so despicable. Butwhy? Is it my fault that I feel dirty and unworthy to be in front of Ram? It's not my wish and it's not my fault that I'm a widow. But I still feel ashamed. And I ran. almost fell down the steps if only the man's hand was not able to hold my waist so as not to fall. I was drawn into the arms....

Behind me, Ram buried his face at the nape of my neck, with both hands hugging my body, so tightly, and he cried on my shoulders.

I've never seen this tough guy cry. Not for one time.

"I'm sorry, Purna. I should never have said anything bad to you."

I'm shaking. "I never took revenge on you, Ram. I never blamed you for everything that happened to me. Never at all. Don't blame yourself."

"So then can we try again?"

"Ram...?"

"Say yes, Purna. I beg...."

"While I'm a widow?"

"You remain the most beautiful full light of my life. Return, Purna. Back to me."

I didn't say yes, but I nodded in tears.

"Does that mean yes?"

Once again I nodded. "Yes." Yeah."

"Thank you." He turned my body to face her, then kissed my forehead. "I'm not letting you go again. Forever."

Thank you, Lord. Thank you very much....

"Hey, listen. That song is perfect for us. Want to dance again?"

I nodded immediately, moved into Ram's arms once more and we danced under the moonlight. So amazing, my mind, the atmosphere tonight, the music, Ram's arm holding me so tightly, and he sings only to me, in my arms....

"There goes my heart beating. Cause you are the reason. I'm losing my sleep. Please come back now...."

"There goes my mind racing. And you are the reason. That I'm still breathing. I'm hopeless now...."

"I'd climb every mountain. Swim every ocean. Just to be with you. And fix what I've broken...."

"Oh, 'cause I need you to see. That you are the reason...."

"There goes my hands shaking. And you are the reason...."

"My heart keeps bleeding. I need you now. If I could turn back the clock. I'd make sure the light respected the dark...."

"I'd spend every hour, of every day. Keeping you safe...."

"I'd climb every mountain. Swim every ocean. Just to be with you. And fix what I've broken...."

"Oh, 'cause I need you to see. That you are the reason. You are the reason...."

"I'd climb every mountain. Swim every ocean. Just to be with you. And fix what I've broken...."

"Oh, 'cause I need you to see. That you are the reason...."

"You're the reason why I'm still alone, Purna. You are the reason. And I'll love you for a thousand more. Don't go again...."

I smiled, looking in his eyes. "Would never be. I'm yours for the rest of my life."

The night continued with a peaceful feeling....

"Can we ride tomorrow morning?" I asked as we walked back to the cottage.

"can't. I'm going to Pangandaran. My uncle's gonna put on a show."

"You're going?" my question, can't hide the disappointment in my tone. "How long will you be gone?"

"Maybe a day or two. I don't want to go, but I promised my uncle to come."

I can only nod....

"Would you come with me?"

"Can I?"

"Of course."

I nodded with passion. Gone was the disappointment in my heart, changing the happy smile that split my face. "I want. What time are we leaving?"

"Half eight."

"Morning?"

"Yep." We're arriving at my cabin now. Ram pulled me into his arms and kissed the top of my nose. "Am and a half eight in the morning. Get prepared. Don't forget to bring a change of clothes, who knows we decided to stay."

I nodded, pleasure. But, as I wanted to step into my cottage, something was troubling my mind. I stopped and turned around.

"What's wrong? Hm? Tomorrow we'll meet again. Now go in, and shut the door."

I nodded, then looked up. "I hope nothing will change after sunrise."

"Not going to."

"You can think about everything again."

"Darling...."

"Get me if you don't change your mind. If not...."

"I'll come get you. Nothing's gonna change. Now go in, get ready for tomorrow, and get some sleep. Don't forget the door lock. Okay, Purna Darling?"

With one kiss Ram left my cabin.

I hope tomorrow is as good as tonight....