Sunshine (2021)
07

“you always ask me to understand you, you don't know me, you know nothing, I'm tired of giniin keep, you know, I'm tired of giniini,,.if you love me, I will be your priority. But it's like I'm nothing to you”.

“what do you mean?”

“I know you're cheating, I know you always call him even video call and he's the same,, he's the one you're priority not me. Meningan now you are honest with me, what is the reason you are busy always because of him?.”

I know he cheated on my friend, I saw my friend's post on his social media, containing a photo of them both with deniel's name tag, I couldn't have seen it wrong,, I couldn't have,, I know his face because he also often sends me pictures.

My friend also often put a story in whatsapp containing screenshoot chat, call, and video call with deniel.

But maybe my friend didn't know that Deniel was my girlfriend, because our relationship was never published.

Deniel said “ngapain anyway publish, the important thing is that I love you, I am also in my school known by teacher teachers, I do not want my teacher to know I am dating,,, I do not want my teacher,, I will be seen gini gini aja, the important thing is I love you, you love me,, you love me,, later if it's time I promise I'll tell everyone that you're my girlfriend”.

That's who he is, and I have to understand him.

I also often see my friend put up a gram snap that contains a photo of a deniel with her, only I don't have the opportunity to tell her to deniel because deniel doesn't have time for me, I also look forward to his honesty.

“sorry me, I don't mean to cheat on you, he likes me, I have to appreciate his feelings. Again I apologize I yaa”.

“haha.. without my name alone you already know who I mean, like he did you cheated on me behind my back, it's enough yes I'm tired”.

“okee, now you calm your heart first, later if it's better I call again yaa”.

Deniel turned off the phone. I threw my phone in the bed.

That's how Deniel is, he never persuaded me, if I was angry he would scold me back or most often he would prefer to leave me alone, I'm really tired,,I'm tired of being with her.

I want to end it but I can't.why doesn't he end it?.Don't he find a woman who can be with him there?.

And tonight I sleep with the anger that is in my heart.

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This morning I was very excited to go to school, I wanted to quickly see him.he who last night just sent me a message, he who last night was able to make me forget the temporary world. She was the one who was able to make me smile endlessly until the end of her boyfriend called.

“what am I coming speed huh?”.

Like this morning I came too soon because I was too excited to see him.

I was alone in class. My friend's friend no one has come.

I sit in my chair, I reopen my phone, I reread his message last night and the most I like is “tok we meet yaa, dikanti near class XII MIPA 3”. I don't know what made him want to see me.

Oh, yes, there are five canteens in our school.

The main canteen is near the ladies' toilet next to class X MIPA, its name is HEALTHY CANTEEN.

The second canteen is on the second floor of the XI MIPA and XI IPS classes

The third canteen is next to the XII class of IPS.

The fourth canteen is near the XII class of MIPA

And the last canteen is next to the school library.