Sunshine (2021)
20

“emmm, na, can I not hold your hand?”. Kenza moved her hand, I quickly moved my hand.

“ehh... sorry ya ken, I'm not used to being held by cow”.

This statement is not a mere reason, it is true that someone who is dating me has never touched me.

“emmm, david. I'm sorry yaa” too.

I'm nodding. I shifted my seat a little to be at a distance with her.

for half an hour we sat here. We just keep quiet. Kenza and I have made things awkward. Rosa and the others did not speak.

As we returned to class I saw the picture ayra sent via WhatsApp, my photo with fathan.

Photos that are so romantic as if this is a photo that was deliberately in fact we both never know when this photo was taken.

this is the only picture I can ever make of memories, which I can't forget.

after thinking we never had a photo together, this was the first photo we both had of fathan's unknown. This photo is just a prank photo taken by ayra, I really thank her she understands me the most.

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A week has passed the class assessment has been done but unfortunately our class is ranked 3rd from the back. We tried our best but it turned out to be just the appearance of our class was very simple.

Tonight I chose to express my feelings to fathan. I have been holding it for almost a year, I don't know where the courage came from to me tonight and I don't know which belief convinced me that he also liked me but the most important thing is the support of my friend's friend maybe that makes me feel a little confident.

“hallo an?”.

“iya hello na, where are you again?”. Ask her across there.

And so on we are in stale. As usual, he was always talking about random things that made me laugh.

“I love you an”. I said seriously.

He stopped laughing. Long enough he silenced me before the end he said

“please love you before I”. His words are not clear, he always never said the meaning of his words.

“keep in mind that I love myself, can I love you too?”.

“ga, keep loving yourself. We just need to be friends”.

I didn't expect an answer like this. Like her this is a subtle rejection of her.

“thinking you like me is a misunderstanding that keeps me right”.he's a real object but feels mirage

“maafin me”.

“ga need to apologize, I was wrong. My feelings are wrong. I'm sorry I'd rather go, because a word I'm waiting for won't come either, I'll only hurt myself if it stays here while you are. Thanks for everything an ”.

I turned off his phone unilaterally without saying goodbye to him.

It turned out to be the end of our introduction.I can't believe we ended before we had a hug, before we had a photo together, before we had time to eat our favorite food that we often discussed .

I had hoped for our fate to be happy but it turned out that this was all so painful, now and then I could only assume that we had only met without any relationship.

Now which other destiny do I hope would be wonderful if not with her?.