Sunshine (2021)
29

After hearing the complaints, I understood why they broke up. Denis is like that, I'm reading it because human nature will be difficult for us to change.

I said to “ but you love him, sure want to break up”.

Then she replied “this is what I love about myself, na. How can I love him when he is very close to the opposite sex”.

Hearing that I'm sure Maca must have blamed herself for what happened. He must have thought “what's wrong with me”, “what's lacking in me so denis not enough if only with me.”.

But in reality it is not like that, Maca does not know his full denis. The shortcomings are not in him, the fault also does not lie in him. He just didn't know that before Denis was like that. Denis hasn't changed, he's still like that from the start. If you know him more deeply, he can definitely predict what his future looks like, whether he can or not.

Yet it has all passed, it has all become a past that cannot be fiddled with or in foxes. Now all you can do is move on, improve yourself and see that there is happiness after the pain has passed.

I firmly believe that happiness in the present is the reward of pain in the past, likewise, the pain that is currently in can be rewarded later in the future. Therefore, when happy do not spend too much energy to laugh and smile. Save it if you get hurt one day. Because sometimes even when we are hurt we need to show our loved ones that we are okay.

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Today was tired enough for me. A hot day at school, yelling and screaming for cash that is reluctant to be paid by the students. Especially when going home from school there is a meeting between class administrators who are among his homeroom, class president, chairman, secretary and treasurer.

Sometimes I feel tired of being in the treasurer position, but sometimes I am also proud. Of the many students in the class, I am the one who is trusted to manage finances.

The clock was pointing at 6 when I got home. I quickly cleaned myself up and continued to rest for a while before doing the task and copying some of the notes left behind.

Ever since my grades went down back then, I've become even more diligent now, there's not a single task or record that I didn't work on. I also participated more in classes as the teaching hours progressed. And with that I'm sure my grades this semester will increase.

Having done my duty to the Most Exalted Lord. I took out all the notes I borrowed from Aca, after which I started to do my job.

‘tok tok’

“ mother can enter?”. Ask your mother from outside

“by bun”. Mother came in and sat on the bed.

“do you eat?. Want mom ready?”.

“didah bun, had already eaten at school”. Mother stood up, approached me, smiled and stroked my shoulder.

After the mother came out of the room I heard my phone ring, I immediately took it and saw the name listed and then I answered her.

“halo”

“yuna.....” .over there calling while crying.

“why babe”. Just be gentle because I'm sure she needs it.

“aku in broken up.. ga ga ga, I am not cut off but I am mutusin”. She came back crying.

“alah do not cry, the same story I let you calm down ntar we find a solution together”.

After a bit of calm ayra told me everything. The conclusion I can take from the story is, he was a little rash in making a decision, he should have thought first until mature then just broke up which is better.

She said that she found out that Rezky liked aca, she also said that they chatted frequently. Ayra also showed me her chat, screenshot and chat between rezky and aca who sent her through whatsapp.

I don't think there's anything weird in there, they're not making out in the chat. All it looks like is chat like, “aca, denis ga had ngabarin you, he went with his parents. He told me to make ngabarin”. Or, “aca, borrow your book for a while, we repeat tomorrow”. It's just that and I don't think it's wrong.

Not from my conclusion did the question arise. Why should I borrow it from aca, why not from ayra who is clearly her boyfriend?.

His answer is because ayra is very lazy to make notes, even during a replay or exam only he only briefly read the notes of other friends. Therefore, I think here rezky and aca are not guilty.

Look at that, I who was always in class was still borrowing the notes. Because it is the Aca serajin.

But behind the ayra mistake I can also understand his feelings. Her name is also female, more complicated than the more mythical philosophy of Sufism. A woman is about her which means no, not which means yes. It does not mean no, nor does it mean yes. Sometimes not and sometimes not. That's as complicated as a woman. I'm the only woman who doesn't understand.

if the problem of jealousy, siti just jealous of the Prophet Adam who was late to go home, but at that time only women one of her on earth.

I told Ayra to apologize first, because everything she was afraid of wasn't necessarily true. It is better to keep it first because parting is not necessarily relieved.

“huh, just yesterday afternoon aca, uh her night even in the same connection ayy”.