Sunshine (2021)
14

My phone ringtone read a sign that someone was calling me. I saw a number written unknown people on my phone screen.

“hallo, assalamualaikum”.

“waalaikum salam”. Answer someone across there.

“ini who?”.

“ini me dear. Deniel “

“where have you been for a few months?. You have absolutely no idea about me, you know. I don't feel like I have a girlfriend anymore”.

“sayang don't do it dong. In the past my phone was lost, I have tried hard to make a tube so I can buy a new phone again so I can ngabarin you, you do not think that engga”.

“how try I want to believe in you, whereas before her you ever cheated me”.

Isn't it hard for us to trust someone who has deceived us?.

“when if you try, you can definitely ngabarin me for a while, whether it's borrow your friend or your parents. But this, you don't have the slightest intention to scratch me. This problem is not just a month of deniel, but months. If you were me, you could I do it?”. I really can't stand it anymore.

“do you want something good?. You never understood me. You know, I'm here to work. My life is not just about you doang”.

Haha he yelled at me, I should be here angry at him.

“deniel,, you never knew me. I also know that your life is not just about me, okay I understand. But you do not be selfish dong, if you are not able to tell him once a day, at least once a week. That's enough. I'm not asking what else is with you, if you are mending we don't have to date if we are not dating you can be free to want ngabarin or ga”.

“ what do you mean?. You want to break up with me?”.

“i don't mean that, I just give you the best advice for me and kamu”.

“already we broke up aj”.

“deniel, are you sure you want to break up with me?. I love you, I'm just asking for a little time you”.

“I can't promise to give you the time I made you, it's like it's better we break up aja”.

“deniel”.

I'm sad but I admit I'm bored with it but the boredom will disappear over time and my feelings on it too like it can disappear the boredom. I was just asking her for a little time was that too much?.I didn't ask her to tell me every hour of her. Where the hell was my fault?. I cried all night until the end of her sleep.

Next day.

“na, your eyes why?”. Ask rosa

“hmm gapapa kok”.

“story dong sama kita”. Added aca.

After thinking for a moment then I just told the reason I cried at Aca and Rosa.

“yawah yok lupain. Mending now we go to cantin”. I'm nodding.

then we went to the cafeteria. As soon as I got to the cafeteria I saw fathan with a woman. White, pretty, full-nosed and straight-haired. They looked very familiar, but as I saw the girl was not from our school, it was seen from the uniform that we were wearing differently.

“ him the ex of his fathan”. Clearly rosa.

It turns out that the pretty girl was an ex-fathan, they fit together, the handsome fathan and the girl was pretty, very much different to me. But even though they are very suitable, I still hurt to see it because before this me and fathan were very close even we were like people dating.

“we go to another canteen just yok”. Take me.

Too hot I saw the two of them, wanted to feel like I changed positions with the woman.

“jealous see both of them?”. Temptation aca.

“ga kok, besides he is not who I am, I do not have the right to be jealous”.

My words are indeed relaxed but all you need to know is my feeling is not relaxed at this time. As loud as I was, there was still sadness in my heart. But the sadness I can't point at, I'm too ashamed to point at it.

One thing is for sure, if I already love her then the thing I want is just to be happy with her even if not with me.

we were asked to get to know each other instead of settling down.