Sunshine (2021)
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"We go first".
"Yes be careful Na".I drove my motorbike at high speed to immediately disappear from his presence.
"he's weird May, bosen is the same as he has nothing to discuss". I said after slowing down my motor speed.
"grogynous times she na".
"I don't know ah, I'm sorry about him". Then we don't talk anymore.
I kept raising my bike again until I was at my house. Don't forget there's Ryan driving us, because he used to drive us, we've been feeling so ordinary it feels like we're going home alone without Ryan.
I read a message coming in from him.
"have you arrived Na?, I want a phone call".
"already.
call in from her.
"Hello".
"yes, hello". answered her across the street.
"i can't say anything for long if I want to say something directly".
"This is the last time I ask you. I don't know if you'll accept it or not but for sure if you refuse I'll never do this again.you you want us to date?".
I was silent for a moment, I thought about all the advice of my mother and Maya's words, Maya said "I'd rather regret having received her than regret having not tried to accept her. Maybe God wants you to be happy and God doesn't want you to keep hoping for Fathan".
true said Maya, it is not wrong that I try. Mother's advice is also that accepting her who loves us is better than pursuing the one we love.
"all you have to know is that I haven't been able to escape Fathan and the terms I mean I want you to appreciate my hobby as a fangirl. I don't want you to deny I like Korean and, if you want to accept my circumstances and terms we can date". deliberately I said firmly so that later there were no problems related to Fathan and Kpop.
"Na I know you love Fathan I also know you can not escape him now It's not a problem na, forgetting is not an easy thing, I'll help you forget him. about your terms I will also accept, you are not afraid I forbid you like your Korean oppa ".
"Okay then, yes first".
"we're dating, right?".
"See I'll see you tomorrow. I don't know if this is the right decision.
on January 21, 2021, we are officially dating
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Today I also leave with Inara, because yesterday I picked her up so today she picked me up.
"i'm with Andra". I said I started the conversation.
"at least your love story is Happy Ending na, not like me". Inara had long harbored her feelings for Asyril, I had advised her to reveal it to Asyril but her word "she did not like me, she did not like me, I don't want him to feel sorry for me because I like him and I don't because he's afraid to hurt me he's accepting me". because of his answer that I have no right to force it although it is better to express because there is clarity later.
"It's too early if you say my story ends happily". Inara drove her motorbike no more conversations along the way to school.
Once in class I immediately put my bag on the chair and then started to open the book, reading while waiting for the teacher to enter the class. Nothing special today we went to school as usual.
Andra came exactly 5 minutes before the teacher came in, there was no conversation between us like her she was ashamed to talk to me and I was the same, considering this is our first day of school in a relationship status of dating there is certainly a different feeling.from the beginning of entry to school she did not greet me at all, she said, I only occasionally catch him who gets caught staring at me.
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