Sunshine (2021)
34

“You think that you are silent gini is good?, ga an. You punish me with your attitude, you demand me to be sensitive to your attitude, even though you know humans have limits in terms of understanding. At least it is clear which part is wrong, which part you do not like”.

“I reciprocate della”. His words are like lightning during the day. Hearing those words coming out of her mouth my chest was tight, my heart was broken and my heart was beating unruffled. It's a taste I never wanted to feel and never wanted to feel.

I took a forced breath and took it off quickly. I looked up so that this clear water would not fall and make her feel sorry for me.

After a bit of calm, I smiled and looked at him. He took his eyes off, not wanting to meet me.

“you can promise me?”. I took his hand, I held it with both hands. I looked down making his hands not spaced with my forehead. And that's where my defenses were destroyed, my hard-earned tears held its end unstoppable.

“if your heart is fixed for him, I want you never let go of him. I want you to be happy. I want you to promise me you won't come back to me. I want us rich people who never knew each other”.

I lifted my head, sat down as before and cleaned my tears and straightened my hair. I got up from my seat about to leave her, however,,

“you don't just blame me, look at yourself”. Don't want me to answer, I just walked away.

I never blamed her for what happened, hurt or pleased her I was because of her, I accepted her with airy chest. I wish he was happy and never came back to me. It's better that I'm all-out sick to see her happy.

Sometimes the most beautiful is not created to have, just to be looked at from afar and then grateful that he is there to be admired.

You knew? The most beautiful kind of love is when you love someone and you know that he is not your destiny but you still love him and want him to always be happy.

I want to feel that beautiful love.

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Now I live my days habitually without it. It's hard but how else, I can't turn things around.

I've heard them say that the cure for longing is meeting. But what about me who always meet but no longer greet each other?,

I could not pour out my heartbreak to them, to aca, rosa, ayra and others. Because when they laugh at me, reminding me of choosing her out loud I say hurt is my risk.

Who knows it turns out that his pain is this sick, I can't even hold it.

The semester exam is only a few days away, as usual the teachers will not enter the class because the teachers are busy with their duties in preparing for the semester exam.

“nonton jiats”. Aca who came out of nowhere to me. He's with rosa.

“if again sad that story is not his watch Run BTS”. Continue again.

“hehe... her seneng here doang”. I smiled without taking my eyes off.

“udahhhh, put her hp”. aca snatch my phone.

“here's a story to me let's be relieved”.

“aku shy ca”.

“ngapain shy anyway, I tell you. Don't normally save your own problems”. Keep rosa.

“so gini.”.

“na!, come with me”. Whether it came from where this one creature came from, he suddenly pulled my hand without excuse.

“what the heck an. Pain tau!”. He doesn't mind me. He kept pulling me.