Illusions
CHAPTER 22 (Part 3)

"Seneng. It is better not to leave a trail than the cave must let you go alone. How come you never hear a cave talk?" my question, annoyance.

"Ckk" grumbled the little Greysie.

"Gua denger nying" I said, annoyed.

"Raa, but I just want to help you let everything finish" Greysie said, softening.

"Why do you want to buy cepets? Are you bored again? Want to eat a cepet? The cave says that all this will take a long time. If you can't, don't follow the cave. Just go" I explained, angry.

"Lo asked for the law, Ra? Cave does not like if you get angry gini" said Greysie, staring ordinary.

"Ah? Emm, no, no.. Hehehe, I'm kidding Grey. Hahahaha" I said, laughing awkwardly.

When I wanted to stand up, Greysie grabbed my hand with a sly smile.

"Don't go, or cave the law now. Sit down!" greysie's orders, dominate.

As Alpha Female Greysie often leads and dominates power over me and my plans. While I as Sigma Female always let her, although sometimes in one situation I will not follow her will for certain reasons or do not want to be controlled by her.

I had to sit down to obey his will. Right now I'm not in the mood to argue with him.

"Isn't the cave sahabatan the same lo?" I was slow, almost inaudible.

"The cave can be horrified" whispered Greysie in my ear.

"Why are you, Ra? Why jump into the pool until you're unconscious?" ask Greysie.

"Emm.." I answered, stiff as I thought.

"Areally who killed your family, Ra? Milstone family or serial killer anyway? You never told me, I'm still confused today" asked Greysie, curious.

"Em, that.. Anyway they're the cause of my family falling apart. Don't do it again ahh!" obviously, then snapped.

"means.. The serial killer who killed your family? You're saying they're just the cause, so they're not the ones who kill directly, are they?" greysie asked, confirming the truth of his opinion.

"Ckk!" I said, kicking the table in front of me.

Then I immediately stood up while Greysie's hand was trying to hold my hand, I patted violently.

"Always ask about his family. Damn hell" inner Greysie.

"Ra, where are you going? Ahh, you usually if you are angry again gini always say. Don't go anymore, I'm sorry I asked about that, hm?" greysie said, blocking my steps.

Greysie was in front of me while holding both of my arms. But I don't want to see his face.

"How can I help you with this, how to finish all this? Should I involve the police? But... I have to know first the reason why Cara often screams was not clear cake earlier. What is the way of trauma too? Butwhy? I think I'm the only one who goes down a lot because of Papa. Maybe Cara is that too?" inner Greysie, unceasingly asked.

"Ra, calm down hm?" greysie said, encoding with pleading faces.

"Sit down, sit down, Ra. You calm down first. Calm down first" Greysie continued, trying to calm me down.

Then I sat down to his will. Greysie was still standing while looking at me.

"Today Cara always refused if I asked her to nginep or stay at home I just. Is it okay every way in his house he's been so often? Jump to the pool? Huh huh? No, if he's out of breath what was it?" inner Greysie, while his forehead shriveled.

"If I wasn't there for sure Cara, surely Cara. This can't be in the morning, I won't permit Cara alone again from now on. If he wants to go to his house, I better follow him, lest he admit to some crazy thing other than jumping into the pool when I'm not around" Greysie said.

While Greysie was still fighting with himself. Her memory keeps going remembering the moment where she saw me not in bed before.

Flashbacks. Greysie. He saw me not in bed, then went to check the bathroom but I wasn't there.

"Ra?" call Greysie, check around.

Then Greysie took his phone to call me.

Throw, tuut, tuut, tuut... The number you are going to..

"Kok is not in question anyway" Greysie muttered, as his finger pressed the call again.

Throw, tuut, tuut...

Meanwhile, I was walking towards the swimming pool. The sound of phone calls kept ringing in my pants pocket, but I didn't hear it. I just walk like a daydreaming person, not paying attention around. My feet just keep moving.

In the room. Greysie opens the app to see my current location.

After that, Greysie continued to walk in the direction of the Gps.

"Swimming pool? How else to swim now?" greysie murmured, keep walking.

"Rho? Raa?" call Greysie, raise his voice.

In the meantime, I jumped into the pool.

"Raa? Are you swimming now?" ask Greysie, call.

The distance between the swimming pool and Greysie is about 30 meters. But Greysie took a slow step, not knowing that I had long jumped into the pool.

Arrive at the pool. Everything seems quiet, I'm not there. While Greysie's eyes continued to search for my whereabouts.

"Nova?" call Greysie, glance around.

"The location is really here. But there's nothing" Greysie's mind, looking at hers.

"Raa?" have Greysie squint her eyes to look into the pool.

Greysie was like looking at my reflection in the pool.

"Ra?," rounded her eyes, "Ra? Omaygat Ra?!" greysie said, discarding his phone and jumping.

In the pool. Greysie's eyes became more and more rounded in surprise to see that I was unconscious.

Then Greysie swam up to me, she grabbed my hand. Then wrapped his left hand in my stomach area and swam using his right hand.

At the poolside.

"Uhuk, uhuk, huuk, eghh" Greysie coughed as he swallowed the pool water while trying to lift me up.

At present. Greysie woke up from her daydream, still looking at me with a face full of questions.

"Ra, I'm sorry for being such a weak person" Greysie said suddenly which made me look at the source of the voice.

"I.. You know Ra, if I was a child already traumatized because of the horrors of Papa with Mama I fought continuously. Papa also hit me often, often demanding this and that. All of that makes me couldn't stand it, Ra. I was tired, eating it I often hurt myself or also wanted to kill myself. You wouldn't want me to be the source of your weakness?" greysie said with a sad and disappointed look.

"Did you jump into the pool because of me? Because of my talk last night? I'm sorry, again I'm sorry Ra. But you have to understand me too, you know what my life is. How painful I am because of my Papa's actions" Greysie explained, staring please.

While I heard that from the moment I had imagined that the moment I killed my own father, even that became a severe trauma for me, I did not want to accept that.

But Greysie kept asking for something I'd always avoided, which was to kill my own father.

I don't want him to be traumatized like me, but is that my thinking? Or do I just not want to do it anymore because it can make my trauma worse than before?

Sure enough, if I obey Greysie's will. It can make the other me laugh happily, he always wins over me. While I who took pains to get rid of it always could not.

He always wins by his will, do I have to obey him again this time? I became a murderer of my own father, it was because of him. I want revenge and to be a serial killer, it's also because of him. Do I also have to kill my own best friend's father for his victory this time?

How can I let that happen? I really don't like it when he always wins over me.

But on the other hand, Greysie's words were indeed true. He was always tortured because of his father. If I wasn't there to stop him from killing himself, maybe all the bad things would have happened to him.

But fuck myself. I love my best friend more than I do. I'll let it go this time.

"I.. I'm.." I said, stiff.

"Me, would, would... I will permit you Grey, but on condition" I continued, saying.

Hearing my words, Greysie's lips lifted. He began to smile as pleasure surrounded himself.

"Really?" greysie asked, smiling happily and in disbelief.

"Yes, but there are conditions" I replied.

"What's the condition?" greysie asked with an incredible joyful mimic.

"But Grey, after this.. Maybe my trauma will often appear, even though I do not want you to know about it. But I'm sure if I agreed with all of this, I'd probably be the weakest person you'd ever know. Can you stand it when you see me on that cake? I don't want you to admit to anything crazier if you know I'm traumatized, or the reason behind my trauma" my inner self.

Seriate...