Illusions
CHAPTER 6 (Part 1)

Yeri heard footsteps approaching, and Jungkook jerked the door open with flushed cheeks and big, angry eyes. "Why are you shouting so loudly - ah!"

Yeri pulls Jungkook with her shirt before Jungkook can finish his words, and pushes him into her dorm room. Yeri closed the door behind her with her feet and pushed Jungkook's back against the wall right next to the door before kissing him violently.

Jungkook is shocked that Yeri suddenly kissed him. Yeri growled at him when she felt Jungkook's hand on her waist, thinking Jungkook wanted to push her away. However, that didn't happen, and instead, Jungkook lifted her off the ground and changed their roles, so it was Yeri who was pressed against the wall and Jungkook who took the lead.

Yeri wrapped her legs around Jungkook's waist and buried her fingers in his hair, kissing him loudly and vigorously, releasing a sigh from his mouth. Jungkook took his arm out of his hair and placed it on his neck. Then the man clasped his lips between his teeth and bit him, making Yeri emit a snoring-like sound from inside his mouth. He clamped his nails on Jungkook's skin, leaving a small crescent shape around his neck, and Jungkook groaned in pain while enjoying.

They kept making out, Yeri took the lead for a while and then quickly dropped out of the role so Jungkook was in control. Their tongues played with each other and Yeri pressed Jungkook's tongue against his mouth violently, one of his hands going to the back of Jungkook's head, pulling him closer. The kiss was more than passionate and mixed with their anger that flooded their bodies as they let it out through the kiss.

Jungkook ended the kiss with swollen lips, and Yeri licked it so she felt what was left of Jungkook's kiss against her lips. However, that was not enough, so Yeri leaned over her body and, giving a long, wet kiss, pulled Jungkook again. Their mouths cling to each other like animals thirsting for touch, and Jungkook lets him take the lead because he likes it when he's pampered. Yeri kissed her like it was her last kiss with him, and she reciprocated.

Then when they started to run out of breath and let go of each other, Jungkook growled in a low, baritone-pitched voice. "What just happened."

"What happened was that you became a coward," Yeri said among her bully teeth, her body still leaning on Jungkook. "Why did you pretend like you don't remember what happened to the two of us at Suho's party that night? "

Jungkook's face paled and he looked at Yeri as if he was looking at a ghost from his past. Jungkook's swollen lips made him seem very worthy to eat, but the woman held him back.

"Oh, yes," Yeri chuckled with a well-hidden despair. "I know that you're a con man. Why are you suddenly panicking? I thought it was my role in this relationship to be panicked? "

Jungkook rolled his eyes and let Yeri get away from his sling, and Yeri's feet again touched the floor with a loud bang. Jungkook stepped further into his dorm room while ruffling his tangled hair with both hands and the fact that his nap-like self had been corrupted by Yeri's presence.

Yeri followed him into the kitchen.

"Are you going to tell me something?" Yeri asked, putting her hands to her chest and watching Jungkook as she poured water from the tap.

"I don't know what you want to hear from me." Jungkook said, biting his lips after he drank the water in his glass.

"You and I are both unstable, Yeri," Jungkook turned to her and watched her blankly. "You had a fucked up life and I was afraid that it would be the cause of our breakup again. Don't you see that we're both not ready? I know you said, you no longer live with your parents, but is that as far as you want to fix the problem? What if they intervene and you get scared and run away again? I will never be able to act like everything is fine after that. It will destroy me, but I know it will destroy you as well and I have no more power to take this into account. I'll feel empty. I could not be filled again, again and again," her voice broke in the middle of her sentence and she looked like she was holding back her cries. "I won't be able to fight for this relationship anymore because everything in me has been taken away from me, when I first told you that I wanted more from you. What if that time comes, where you can no longer give me what I want? And what if I can't take it? "

Yeri looked at him with eyes that shone in stubbornness and determination. Seeing that his words did not have the effect he wanted on her, Jungkook finished.

"I can't play this game a second time, Yeri. If we take this chance, it will be the only chance I can give and I can't stand the fact that it won't be enough anytime soon. "

"Jungkook," Yeri took a few steps closer until she was right in front of him, looking at him and hoping he was strong enough to cupper her cheeks. "I'm willing to fight this time. I'm willing to forget our past and I want to understand my problem and fight it." Yeri stepped forward and cupped Jungkook's cheeks with her hands. Jungkook looked at him with his pair of clearest eyes, as clear as a bay in the sea. "I'm never sure of anything like I'm sure about you this time. I'm pretty sure we'll be fine. You know why? Because unlike the last time, this time I was willing to fight. "

"What if it's not good enough?" Jungkook whispered in despair.

"I'll make it pretty good," Yeri gave her a small, watery smile, her eyes filled with falling tears. "We're gonna make it pretty good. We've been through a lot together and no one knows if we're going to experience the same thing again, but in this moment we both love each other and that's all that matters. I will swear to you that I will try and make this work to my ability and I know that you will also try it. I know it's scary, okay? I know that you can't believe that I'll never go back to being the cowardly girl I used to be, and I know that it's scary to have a future with a volatile person for unclear reasons. But I have something I never had before, and I want to hold it so firmly and never let go. "

"What's that?"

"You, Jeon Jungkook, you," Yeri leaned her forehead against Jungkook's. "How could I hurt you, when you were so precious to me, Jeon Jungkook. You are the stable ground I need, you are the perfect dice that move me in the right direction, and most importantly you are the person I want to be the best of me. You're the only thing in the world I want, and I'm sorry I haven't seen it in the beginning. I regret letting my wounds and my violent life determine my wrong choices. I'm sorry to have negatively affected you when you were the only thing that ever gave me love and made me understand it. I am so sorry to have scared you that love will not be enough for you to have a relationship with me. Sorry, I once made you feel bad enough for me. I'm here to announce that you'll always be the only thing good enough for me and I promise to be the thing that will be good enough for you. "

"No more lies or wounds?" Jungkook whispered, one of his tender hands took Yeri's hand on his left cheek, and squeezed it gently.

"not anymore. Not anymore, Jeon Jungkook. Not anymore."

Yeri kissed.

And for the first time in years, Yeri realizes that the only rude but loving thing she can accept is Jungkook's kiss and his love.

THE END