Illusions
CHAPTER 6 (Part 3)

...**Black Views**...

Inside my house. My mother and sister have died, leaving me alone.

Their blood ran down the floor of my house, leaving me speechless. The night was so noisy, I felt empty.

"It feels so empty, I feel nothing, like I'm lost"

"Mother.., Tiya.., are they dead?" insider, ask.

Shortly after I pecked, silent. My body feels moving on its own, my feet slowly step. The other side of me seemed to be laughing with deep pain.

Meanwhile, my father was still shocked by the cries and guilt. He threw the knife out of his hand, then hit himself as if he wanted to wake up from his nightmare.

Sometimes he looks at me and yells, sees my mother and sister and yells again. The screams and cries of the night were as gripping as they filled my head, making my entire bloodstream feel my father's cry and pain. I approached my sister who was lying lifeless, looking at her face and my mother's face.

"This is real," stared, "someone please wake me up!" screams, insider. However, I kept hearing the whispers filling my head.

"Hahaha, kill your father too, he has taken your mother and sister" whispered.

Hearing the whisper, making me restless while looking around, holding my head and lips together paled. Then, I heard my sweat droplets falling along with my mother and sister's blood drops.

"Pliss...stopn!" inner, screaming. My hand held my head.

"Hahaha, why? look at him, look at your father," look at my father, "he doesn't want to live anymore either, it's better to end his suffering soon, hahaha"

"Hmff, no, no," hit the head, "no, no, no!" screams, insider. My hand kept hitting my head.

"Well, your blood must be stirring, look at that thick red blood," look at the blood, "your hands must want to do it too, is your heart not turbulent? listen to your heart, it's excited to pump your blood, it wants you to do it"

"Diamm!," closed his ears, "silence, silence, silence, diaaaamm!" screams, insider.

A few minutes later I had a fight with myself. I fell silent again with a blank look. Then, I saw a knife lying not far from my father. I walked slowly, then took the knife.

A smile was engraved clearly on the blade, whereas my eyes looked at it with a look of hatred.

My hand moved, swinging a knife, thrusting it right at my father's neck. My father was surprised, he slowly looked at me. While I just smiled, as if showing a feeling of satisfaction with what I had done.

Blood spurted from my father's mouth and neck, hitting my face after I pulled the knife from his neck, he fell down. Then I stabbed him again so many times.

My face was covered with my father's blood, and so were my little hands and body. I just laughed off, signifying a feeling of satisfaction.

"Hahaha," pierced, "hahahah," satisfied gaze, "hahaha" I laughed, pleased.

"Haha, ha ha ha, haaa. hahaha" I laughed, satisfied to see my father's mouth spewing blood.

"Haaah, hahaha, haaa hahaha, hahaha," a look of resentment, "I Love you dad!" I said, pulling out the knife with a satisfied smile. My father looked at me, slowly closing his eyes.

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Right now, inside the hospital. I was sleeping dreaming of a terrible event that befell my family, then I woke up, shocked to remember it.

The sound of short breathing rang out quickly, I slowly looked at my two palms. A knife filled with fresh red blood filled my hand, and I heard another whisper in my ear.

"Do you recognize me?" the whisper in my left ear makes me look to my left.

"Do you remember me?" whispering in the right ear, I looked to the right with a feeling of uneasiness.

Hearing the whispers, making me very scared, I was incessantly looking around mixed with disturbing emotions continued to haunt. But I didn't see anything either. However, the whisper sounded more and more messed up my head.

"Do you recognize me? do you remember me?"

"Get the fuckk," holds the ear, "out of my life!!" my yelling.

Greysie was surprised to hear me scream. He was scared but also worried about me. Greysie was trying to wake me up, who was deep in my own thoughts.

Flashback, a day ago. I cried until my voice was no longer heard, so heartbreaking, I was filled with feelings of anger, hate, sadness, fear and trauma.

My vision blackened, feeling like the world was spinning. I could no longer control myself which made me faint right then and there.

Greysie was surprised to see me, this incident was unusual for him since he knew me.

Everything was new to him, he felt guilty for not knowing anything about his only friend. Rasya also looked very worried, he seemed to understand my feelings.

Rasya remembered himself first, losing someone he loved because of serial killers, so it became a deep trauma and imprint for him. They panicked and called the doctor.

A few minutes later. The doctor came and checked me out. They still look very worried to me.

"Where's my situation, doc?" ask Greysie.

"The patient looks very tired, he seems to be stressed about something, does the patient have past trauma?" ask doctor. Rasya looked at Greysie with curiosity.

"Em, iy," shaking, "yes, doc" Greysie said.

"The patient should take plenty of rest and eliminate negative thoughts that stress him. I recommend that patients take treatment from a psychiatrist/psychologist" proposed the glasses doctor.

"Yes, yes, thank you, doc" said Greysie, holding back tears.

"Thank you" shook hands, "love, doc" Rasya said.

The doctor out of the room.

"Grey," worried look, "me. I can't, why did Lista get here?" ask Rasya.

"Hmf, hmf, he.." said Greysie, holding back his tears.

Greysie started telling Rasya my past to his knowledge. He also explained the reason we had a big fight earlier, heard the reason we had a fight, Rasya was shocked, and recalled all his suspicions all along.

(Memories Rasya).

"Have you killed anyone?! can't that be the cave?!" accuse me.

"What friend of mine killed that man sir?!" just pissed.

"Hm, huh, temen I didn't kill him, so why take him there sir?!" my kekeh doesn't want to know. Rasya's memory continues.

Rasya came out of the room, he saw me and Greysie talking. However, he overheard my words and hid.

Rasya recalled all my words, he wondered why I always talked about killing someone.

However, even though he suspected me, he still tried to get close to me on the grounds of investigating me. Though that was just an excuse, he couldn't lie to himself if he had liked me the first time he saw me at Greysie's house. Besides being fascinated by me, she also really likes my character who looks like her sister Angeline.

Sometimes Rasya feels guilty to me, but on the one hand he has also suspected us since the beginning of the meeting. Even so he still liked me, the longer he tried to get close to me, the deeper his love for me became.

Inside the hospital. Rasya even daydreamed after hearing the explanation from Greysie.

"Rase?" call Greysie.

"Yeah? uh sorry-sorry, I was missing something" explained Rasya.

"But.. you okay now?" ask Greysie.

"Yes," smiled, "yes, yes, I'm okay" Rasya replied.

"Oky, then." said Greysie, raising both eyebrows.

A few moments later. Rasya said goodbye to Greysie for having to take care of something.

"I went back Grey, wanted to do something about it" said Rasya stood up.

"Yeah, okk, be careful on the road" Greysie said.

"Call me yes, if Lista was human" Pinta Rasya.

"Sure" Greysie replied smiling.

Tomorrow, in the hospital room. Greysie was sitting on a chair while looking at me.

"Raa, are there any secrets you haven't told me?" greysie muttered, then crossed hands.

"When, I just want you to be honest with me, because I'm your best friend, I always wait for you to tell me all your problems, but.." Inner Greysie, he still looks at me.

Greysie began to recall events about two and a half years ago.

Flashback, two and a half years ago. Greysie and his girlfriend Rendi were eating together at a restaurant.

"Ren, I want nanya to?" ask Greysie.

"What is Grey" replied Rendi.

"How are you now the same enemy as Heafen? didn't you guys used to be in office?" ask Greysie.

"No pp, he always wanted to make his own motorcycle gang" replied Rendi.

"Why reason?" ask Greysie again.

"Hm," stop eating, "maybe he's not satisfied with my leadership" replied Rendi.

"When I am the same way, but you are enemies" said Greysie.

"Hm, my problem with Heafen is so it's our business, you don't need to worry" explained Rendi.

"Hm, but beware if you fight again" forbid Greysie.

"Yes, yes, just calm down Grey" said Rendi smiling.

After finishing eating. Rendi drove Greysie to my house, because we always took turns staying at each other's houses.

Greysie stayed with me more than I stayed with him, because I also needed time to be alone, I felt comfortable inside my house even though I was alone. But Greysie could at least stay alone, he always wanted to be together.

In front of my house. The joint bounces on Greysie, and Greysie enters the house.

Just as Greysie wanted to open the door, she heard the sound of an item slamming from inside my room.

"Braa.co.......!"

"How?!" greysie muttered immediately to open the door, she saw me slamming and trampling my tv.

"Fuckk" hitting tv, "fuckk" stepping on tv, "fuckk, fuckk, Fuckkkk!" my yelling.

"FUCKKK!," kicked the tv spot, "You're Fuckk up" hit the wall, "My Family!" yell again.

"Fuck!" yelling while throwing things.

"Fuckkk!" I shouted with tears flowing.

Greysie was surprised to see me like that. He didn't dare to rebuke me, all this time he never saw me angry until like that, usually if I was mad at him, he said, I'd only be quiet for days or even weeks if he didn't take the first step to talk to me again.

Shortly after, after slamming things, I took a bottle of drink from a small cupboard in my room. It was a closet to store my collection.

After taking the drink, without thinking for a long time I immediately drank it. Usually I drink it only if I am really angry, and that night was the second time I drank it.

After drinking, it seemed like I was drunk, I started saying something I shouldn't have said.

"You know whatt?," hiccups, "you kn, ow what's my, biggest se, cret of, this life?" I said speaking indistinctly because I was drunk.

"No. i' don't, what's your biggest secret?" greysie asked, he looked confused.

"Hegh," hiccups, "heh," chuckled, "heh, hahaha, hahahah," I laughed loosely.

"Hahaha, haaaahh, hahaha, haaa," stopped smiling, "aaiiishh," looked at the hate, "fuckkk!" I said, the look on my face was angry with the look of hate.

I slowly brought my face closer to Greysie, then I whispered to her.

"I killed, my own fat," smiled, "her" whispered to Greysie, then laughed.

"Hahahaha, hahaha, aahahah, ha ha ha, hahahah" I laughed with pain.

Greysie rounded his eyes, he was surprised to hear what I said, then he looked at me in surprise with a laugh.

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