Still Wishing He Back?
90. Find you

The day is getting late, and Darren is getting worried about Airin who he has not found yet. With feelings of despair and anxiety, Darren who was getting tired still trying to find the existence of Airin.

"Where are you really." He mumbled very frustratedly.

The ringing of a mobile phone shifted his confused and frustrated eyes to find Airin along the road he went through. The phone from Arsen at least made him a little able to breathe a sigh of relief, because it was like there was a glimmer of hope for his current problem.

"Hello, how's the development? Have you found anything?" He said as soon as the phone lifted.

"I've checked into Miss Airin's house as you ordered, but there is no car belonging to Miss Airin at home, most likely he has not returned home."

Deg, Darren's feelings have become unsettled again due to Arsen's explanation. Given the late days, but he and his subordinates have not yet discovered the existence of Airin. He was getting dizzy because of it.

"Let's see you again, before that try to find information on Airin's family, who knows there is information that we can find the whereabouts of Airin." Darren gave his orders to Arsen.

"Well, I'll do it soon." Answer Arsen.

The phone between the two was eventually cut off. With Darren returning to continue the search and Arsen who also immediately moved according to Darren's orders.

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The night goes on, and Darren continues to search for Airin's whereabouts. No longer concerned about his increasingly chaotic condition, with his increasingly shabby appearance, and also the fatigue that was clearly visible in his facial expression because it continued to move without stopping, he said, moreover, he had also just come from abroad who had not even had time to change his clothes. And now, he had to find Airin who had suddenly left without saying goodbye.

"I'll keep looking for you, and wherever you are I'll find you."

However, it seems that he remains determined to continue looking for Airin and does not want to give up just like that to look for his existence. Because his feelings did not feel calm before seeing Airin found and seen directly by both eyes.

"Why did you suddenly run this way?"

For a moment he also thought of the reason Airin who suddenly left without looking back, especially to leave his son like this. The departure of Airin that he saw right in front of his eyes, made Darren continue to wonder and even feel confused at the same time.

"Is this because you don't want to forgive me anymore?"

Thinking that suddenly made him sad, he could not imagine if later Airin really did not want to forgive him even more if he refused his presence.

"My heart hurts just by thinking about it."

His feelings seemed unable to imagine the worst possible later, and made him realize that apologizing was not enough for him to reconcile the feelings of people who had been disappointed in him.

"How else do I need you to forgive me and accept me again?"

In the car, Darren keeps thinking of ways to get an apology from Airin. He did not stop to keep trying to find a way out of what he had done so far with Airin. It is clear that he does not want to lose Airin, especially until hated by him

"But.., what?" Although trying to remember, but Darren still can not find the answer. It made him more frustrated and upset with himself.

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Remember it slowly began to improve and recover, although it is still vague, but one thing is certain that his memories with Airin he had remembered fully, even though there was something that still stuck in his heart, he said, which is likely to be important in its relationship with Airin.

"What I forgot, ah. shit." Who cannot remember

Ting, suddenly there was a message coming into his phone. A message from Lucas asking for his position and also telling him about his schedule tomorrow, but of course Darren did not reply and chose to ignore it.

"Why hasn't there been any news from Arsen?" He was only focused on the problems he was facing at this time, and put aside for a moment other things that he thought were not so important to him.

He is currently waiting for news from Arsen who he is assigned to look for the whereabouts of Airin. However, just now he was about to call Arsen who never gave him good news, a message from Arsen entered and in it written about the location of Airin.

Seeing the message left his eyes wide open and immediately re-run his car to get to the address given by Arsen.

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...You who ran away from me, so tormented the recesses of my heart. Tearing apart my chaotic feelings from constantly thinking about your whereabouts. I won't let you disappear from my sight even though I know it won't be easy to get an apology from you....

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A relieved feeling of finally knowing the location of Airin, Darren drove his car at high speed to get to where Airin is currently.

"It turns out you went all this way." His mutter that seemed unexpected to Airin who had to leave the city.

Although not too far from where he currently lives, but with him who has to get out of town even with him who is alone driving his car at night, but with him who has to get out of town, it is not ordinary for him to be a woman.

"I'm sure I didn't find you, but you're not here." Said who felt tired of looking for Airin in the city, but it turns out Airin from the beginning was not there.

Not caring about the day that is getting late, by driving his car alone Darren is heading to the place that Airin is visiting at this time with mixed feelings.

"What place is it, and why does Airin have to come there, does it hold any meaning to him that he has to come here at night?" That's what Darren keeps thinking while on his way to where Airin is at the moment.

While Airin, he who left aimlessly ended up landing in an empty house owned by relatives who were still neatly maintained and clean. The scenery that directly stared into the sea, with a cooling breeze was able to reconcile his feelings that were currently in chaos.

He who goes without thinking, feels confused with what he does, especially until he leaves his son. However, due to his seemingly pitiful situation, he instantly vented the sorrow that had accumulated in his heart. It was as if what he had been through all this time was unable to withstand anymore. He also cried in solitude amid the waves of the ocean that continues to sound.