Still Wishing He Back?
51. Self Identity

Airin, who finally began to calm down, chose to walk with Rendi to go to bi Rahma. With his slow steps, he was still trying to glance at the place left behind by Darren.

"Is there something left there?" Said Rendi who caught Airin looking the other way.

"Ah, no, brother. Just now,.." Suddenly he could not continue his sentence.

"It's nothing, brother." Airin stopped the sentence he was about to say. "Oh yes, did Rendi gapapa leave the hospital like this? There will be patients who need Rendi." Said Airin who felt too holding Rendi back and slightly changed the subject.

"Father, you don't have to worry about that, because I said that I want to go with them for a while and there is also a replacement later if at any time there is a need. There's a lot of doctors here, so you don't have to worry." Reply to Rendi, who tried to calm Airin once again.

"Stay, Airin feels bad about this. Maybe Airin and aunt should just take a taxi home." Airin was still trying to keep Rendi from driving her home because she felt bad and was afraid of being troublesome.

"If you continue here, the longer we go home and Arka also becomes too long waiting for you, let alone bi Rahma who had been waiting for our arrival!"

Rendi tries to ignore Airin's refusal and chooses to walk first. Airin, who saw that, could no longer protest and follow the wishes of Rendi who wanted to take her home. He immediately followed the steps of Rendi who had preceded him first.

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A panicked tone and a worried expression was shown by bi Rahma when she saw the existence of Airin who finally came out of the hospital with Rendi.

"Where have you disappeared to, anyway?" Said bi Rahma patting Airin's arm slowly when approaching him. "Make aunt worry." Continue again with worry.

"Sorry, if Airin has made aunt worried, Airin wanted to follow aunt and had also stopped by the real toilet." Said Airin who felt a little guilty to her aunt who was worried about her condition.

"Oh, I thought you were okay, thank goodness you're okay." Relieved bi Rahma so see the situation and explanation of Airin.

"Well, let's go home, because Dava called aunty, she said Arka kept looking for you." Bi Rahma.

"Oh yeah! What else did Dava say about Arka, bi? Nothing happened to Arka" Suddenly Airin felt worried about the condition of his son.

"She's gapapa, it's just a little fussy because you don't exist." Bi Rahma.

The tone of relief was shown by Airin, because since his arrival in the hospital, he did not stop feeling uncomfortable in his heart, because like something was stuck in his feelings. The thing he was worried about and thought about the first time when he felt that feeling was the figure of his only child, Arka.

"Son, Rendi thank you, for doing this." Said bi Rahma to Rendi who delivered home and had brought Airin back after having disappeared.

"Yes, equally, bi. Rendi did not feel bothered at all, really." Reply Friendly rendi.

After a small incident that approached their home, now the three finally stepped away from the hospital along with Rendi who drove Airin and bi Rahma home.

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From the same place, Darren who is still in the hospital because he is visiting his acquaintance with Lucas, is currently faced with thoughts that continue to disturb him. He could not forget the incident he had just experienced with Airin, who was also a woman who several times he accidentally met it.

Airin...

In his heart, Darren did not stop mentioning the name of the woman he finally knew her name.

"Ah, fuck. It's really annoying." Umpatnya upset at the confusion of himself on the identity of an Airin he met earlier.

"There's a task you have to do..," Darren suddenly fell silent as he looked at Lucas. "Not be." The next thing that finally undoes his intentions immediately so want to say something to Lucas.

"What, why not be? What duty woi?" Said Lucas who protested because Darren did not continue his sentence.

"Whisper, we're going home now." Darren leaves Lucas, who continues to force him to say the words he didn't say.

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Who is Airin really?, what is the true relationship between him and Airin?, did they know each other in the past?, and why were the sad and hurt expressions shown by Airin earlier, and why did the sad and hurt expressions show, as if disappointed in him.

Darren did not stop thinking about the many possibilities that had happened to the relationship between him and Airin in the past, although he currently did not have any picture even considering his identity, he said, because somehow the current figure of Airin is someone he just met with meetings that he accidentally experienced between himself and Airin on various unexpected occasions.

"Now I'm absolutely certain that this isn't just my feeling." Said Darren who removed his self-doubt about Airin who often wore a strange expression in front of him when he met.

From crying at the first meeting, to anger, disappointment and hurt all can be seen from the expression that Airin showed him.

"Who is he? Do I know him too?"

The question kept flowing in his head. From being in the hospital, to going home and getting back to his apartment, the thought always surrounds him.

"He told me to find out for myself." He said as he recalled his chatter with Airin.

"Damn it, I really can't remember it." Darren shouted in frustration.

Suddenly a flurry of memories of his past reappeared in his memory, making his head buzz in pain.

"So is this too." Remember when you remember something similar while you were in the hospital and it happened right in front of Airin.

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The airin that he thought of, had now arrived in front of the house safely. Together with bi Rahma and Rendi who delivered, he entered the house.

"Sir, thank you for bringing Airin home. Sorry once again if it's been a hassle for you." Said Airin felt grateful to Rendi who had brought him home.

"Yes, relax." Reply Rendi calmly.

"Son Rendi wants to stop by first?"

"It does, bi. But it looks like Rendi will have to go back to the hospital, later Rendi will stop by here again." Said Rendi who was rather regretful.

"Oh that way, well then, auntie won't force it. I've brought aunt and Ailirin home." Said bi Rahma did not force and express her sense of imaksihnya because it has been brought home.

"Yes, bi together. Then Rendi pamit first."

"Mama...." A long shout turned the gaze of Airin, bi Rahma and also Rendi herself.