Still Wishing He Back?
53. No More Hope

When that hope was finally wiped out, Airin could only let go, as the feeling of being hurt was a little hard for him to accept. Although the hope that he returned was always in his mind, but the reality that hurt his heart made him so aware and no longer expect anything else, for fear of getting hurt even more.

The still-impaired memory and the bitter reality that still felt in the chest, made Airin continue to think about his meeting with Darren in the hospital. As it hurt his feelings for Darren, to continue to think about his attitude that turned out to really not remember him.

"I wish it was just a lie."

His meeting several times with Darren after a long separation, too much to make him surprised to not know how to when faced again with his figure in front of his eyes, and until the end all he can do is continue to cry by harboring his feelings of anger and hurt.

"While we've met several times, it turns out he still can't remember me. Doesn't that mean he's completely forgotten about me?."

Airin endured the pain in her heart when recalling the harsh reality that Darren had given her. The person he once believed in even he made a backrest when he was in the country of people and when he was far from his family, now precisely the person who gave the deepest wound to him.

"Did I have too high expectations for him?" His words were very disappointed in Darren, until he involuntarily shed his tears again.

"Should I forget it?.."

....

In addition, Darren, who kept thinking about meeting Airin in the hospital, could not seem to be silent because he was so curious. After returning from the hospital, he could not turn his memory to Airin who continued to disturb his mind.

"Who is he? Uh.."

His head again felt the pain when trying to remember about Airin. The memory he had forgotten slowly reappeared, although only vaguely appeared and skelibatan alone in his shadow.

"Remember that again.." Darren realized one thing when he again felt pain in his head.

"Did he have anything to do with the memories I'd forgotten?"

After his aching head began to subside a little, he immediately took his mobile phone which happened to be close to him, then try to contact someone through a phone connection while putting on a serious facial expression by giving direction to the person he is currently calling.

"He told me to find out for myself, right? Then I'll do as he wants." He finished the call.

Darren who started to calm down slightly tried to grab a drink and sipped it slowly. Airin's shadow followed her wherever she went, making her unable to forget the face and expression Airin made on her.

"Then she cried when she saw me." He said as he recalled his meeting several times with Airin.

"Ah, come on, this time I'm going to leave this matter to Arsen first." The lid ended his self-deprecation on the figure of Airin.

Slowly he began to step up his legs to return to the room and forget for a moment that disturbed his mind by throwing things that disturbed him under him to investigate the thing that made him so curious.

....

"Mama." Call Arka to Airin in the room.

Hearing the sound of his son entering the room, tears that had come down wet his cheeks, Airin immediately rubbed it and then turned to look at his son.

"Oh, Arka. What's up, honey?" He looked at the face of his son approaching him.

"Mama's really sick, huh?" Arka who is now sitting in the lap of Airin, seen to care for the condition of Airin.

"No, my mom is fine now. Wh why? Is Arka worried about mom?"

Arka nodded small with her innocent and honest expression.

"No, just..."

"What's Only? Disappointed with mom?" Airin looked at her son's face curiously because of his delayed sentence.

"Hehehe no really, just worried about mom." Smile Ark later.

Airin felt moved by the child's attitude, and returned with a gentle smile, hugging the child's body.

"Where was the school? Does Arka enjoy it?"

Suddenly Arka lowered her head in silence and her expression turned moody.

"Why baby, is there anything at school? Is anyone bothering Arka?" Airin asked Arka who suddenly changed her facial expression.

"Arka, answered my mother. What's up, honey?" Ask Airin again, to Arka who is still silent.

However, Arka was still silent and lowered her head. Airin looked worried when she saw the expression of her son.

"Arka, look at me, talk to me about what's going on, I promise I won't be angry with Arka, so Arka can talk now." With a slight crouch, Airin tried to make her son look into her eyes.

"But my mom will be sad." The bowed Ark looked doubtfully at Airin.

Airin looked confusedly at the face of his son who was currently giving a reluctant expression, as if he did not want to say it because he did not want to see it sad if he later heard it.

"Mama's sad? Why can Arka be sure about that? What makes my mom so sad?"

"Arka's going to sleep." Arka walked up to her bed and then laid her body. He refused to answer questions from Airin, making Airin feel confused about the child's unusual attitude.

"What's up? Why is Arka acting like this?"

Airin looked at the back of his son who was behind him. His expression kept asking what was really going on with the child.

"I think I should ask Dava first"

Airin chose to respect the attitude of the child and no longer force him to say the reason. He disembodied the body of his son who was now lying in bed, then hugged him warmly.

"Mama won't force anymore, mama will wait until Arka can say it to mama, so just slow down." Said Airin while hugging his son's body and patting him gently on his tiny back. Arka who was still not asleep turned to face Airin and hugged her body while pushing on her.

Airin smiled with the attitude of his son who suddenly sniffed on his body Eskpresinya tried to calm down in the face of his son's attitude which was a little beyond his usual behavior.

Because of this, my heart always felt uncomfortable in the hospital.

Airin recalled his feelings that were always uncomfortable during the hospital, to continue thinking about the existence and condition of the child during the hospital.

"Hopefully what I'm worried about doesn't happen." He said, hoping nothing serious happens to the child.

Looking back at the body of his son who was now sound asleep, looking at him worried and a little sad because his son did not want to tell him about what happened.

"What makes me sad?" Airin recalled the words of Arka who did not want to tell a story for fear of being sad.