Still Wishing He Back?
80. Initial Step

The morning has welcomed a beautiful day, reawakening the fallen asleep human being. Not to be missed by Darren who wants to welcome the morning with a new hope that is better than yesterday.

After struggling with the problem that made him dilemma since last night, to keep him awake until the early morning, but the morning that greeted him bright, with a strong determination after continuing to think about the answer to the problem, he said, right now he wants to wake up from his sleep along with new expectations of his sense of desire.

Hope in his relationship with his son who since the beginning he never knew his existence, also in the continuation of his relationship with Airin in the future.

"I have to make sure first how I feel about him, that way I'll be sure of my decision later."

Darren still doesn't know what he's feeling for Airin right now, despite the desire to get Airin back by his side, but he is also not sure which way will lead to the relationship with the mother of his child. Because his memory has not fully recovered, his heart and feelings still feel obstructed to express it, to make him continue to ask his own feelings.

Although he knew there was a relationship in the past with Airin, did not deny if the distance that had separated him with Airin made him quite unsure of his own feelings like what. Is this because of his curiosity, his curiosity, his sheer attraction to him, or his true feelings of love. That's what Darren wants to make sure with certainty.

"But, I don't want to just take it off either." His words were also reluctant to let go of Airin, although there were still doubts in his heart and feelings.

His curiosity in Airin is so great, even the sense of wanting to have it is also no less great, especially after ensuring the closeness of Airin with a man with familiar, familiar, the soul of his determination was burning and did not want to let go of Airin just like that.

Darren looks so disturbed by the presence of Rendi who came to Airin's house last night, to make him keep his mind on his figure that looks so familiar and close to the Airin family, not in spite of his closeness to the child.

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"From today whenever there's a problem, Arka can't hide the same mama, understand, right?" Said Airin to the Ark he was wearing clothes.

"Yes, Ma." Replied Arka with a small nod.

"Mama's smart son." Airin stroked her son's cheeks gently. "Now that mom's son is handsome, let's have breakfast together." Take her later after changing clothes and combing her hair.

"Yes." Yeah." Arka's smile that then came with Airin.

Now the two were walking towards the dining room for breakfast together. As soon as it arrived, all were seen gathered in the dining room table. Bi Rahma, her mother Bilal and her younger cousin Dava were already preparing to take their own food.

"Well, Arka's up and it's kind of like this, want breakfast, huh?" Said bi Rahma greeting Arka.

"Yes, Arka wants to eat." Reply Arka who has been sitting on a chair assisted by Airin.

"Lho, that's the dress that Rendi bought last night, huh?" Said bi Rahma commenting on the clothes worn by Arka now.

"Yes, bi. I purposely put it on, because Arka looks so fond of Kak Rendi's clothes." Answer Airin.

"Good, your son is cheerful now, better than yesterday. Aunty's so happy to see it." Said bi Rahma was relieved to see Arka who returned cheerful.

"Yes, bi, Airin was also relieved. Was afraid because Arka is not usually like this." Reply Airin who also felt happy to see his son back cheerful as usual, while looking at the face of his son who was busy eating.

"Arka, let's play with Dava. What if we play at the park?" Dava said to Arka.

"You, can you, ma?" Arka looks willing, but previously he asked permission first on Airin who was sitting right next to him.

"By the way, Arka's origin is not naughty and obedient to Dava." Reply Airin permit.

Seeing the expression of his happy face makes others smile to see it, like also feel the same happiness. It felt so peaceful and calm seeing the familiarity of Airin and his family.

....

In a different place, Darren who returned to the office as usual, was surprised by the fact about the proximity of Airin and Rendi who were friends of the same school.

"So, both of them went to school in the same place?" Darren asked Arsen who brought him the report about Rendi that he had asked for earlier.

"Right, but the two just met again after Bu Airin moved to the place he currently lives with his family." Arsen.

"That means they're only close to coming back after Airin moved into his current home, right?"

"Yes, sir." Answer Rendi.

Darren silently listened to Arsen's explanation. He continued to listen to Arsen who again explained about the status of Rendi who is a doctor and about Airin who also knows the Rendi family well.

"So, have they visited each other's homes?"

That fact certainly makes Darren disturbed. Makes her even more uncomfortable and also feel upset unconsciously.

"Take me to the flower shop, ah. no, please just order me one flower at the Airin's Garden florist. Make sure the owner delivers to my office." Pinta Darren on Arsen.

"Good." Although a little surprised by Darren's orders, but Arsen still wants to run the orders from Darren. He wanted to leave in front of Darren.

"Wait the fuck.." Stop it for Arsen who was about to leave.

Arsen who was about to step away, turned back to face Darren with a puzzled look. He also undoes his intention to get out of Darren's room.

"Get me a gift when you get back from the florist, a gift that's suitable for a five-year-old." Said Darren who gave orders to Arsen.

"Well, I'll buy you the gift you asked for." The answer was that this time it really went from Darren's room.

Darren, who is currently alone, is seen trying to set his expression that looks upset. Feeling not in a happy condition, all he did was take a deep breath while leaning his head.

"Why am I so angry?" His voice suddenly became upset by itself.

Angry unconsciously, with feelings without dislike seeing the closeness of Airin with other men, making him more confused in his own heart and feelings

"Is this because she is the mother of my child? or is it purely because of how I feel about her?"

Darren is still confused, whether the current feeling of resentment because he does not like the mother of his child close to other men or precisely this is because of his jealousy that does not like to see his special woman close to other men.

"I have to make sure I feel for her."