Still Wishing He Back?
26. Still Missing her?

Airin sat quietly on his bed, he kept thinking about Darren. Memories along with Darren used to suddenly reappear in his mind. He is a little flashback with sweet memories that he had done with Darren first.

Unexpectedly, her tears came out while recalling those moments with her. His feeling seemed to no longer be able to stem the sense of longing for the person he had been waiting for and waiting for his presence.

Airin wiped back the tears that had spilled and soaked both cheeks, he then opened the drawer beside his bed, and was about to take out something in it. There were several piles of books in it when he opened the drawer, slowly trying to retrieve one book from several piles of books in his drawer.

The medium-sized brown book looks like a diary, because there were many small scribbles in the book when Airin opened the book. Slowly he tried to open several pages, and he stopped on one page which turned out to be a photo of himself with Darren who was smiling staring at the camera.

Look happy and affectionate if you see the expression shown by Airin and Darren in the photo. Just by staring at a photo of his memories with the person he loves, has made Airin so emotional, because every time he saw Darren's face, his heart and feelings always felt shaken. He sat back on his bed and kept looking at the photo of his memories with Darren. Without her thinking, her tears are now beginning to come back out inundating her eyeballs. He could no longer hide his sadness at the fact that the person he loved and he was waiting for his life had given him such shocking news.

"What should I do now?" He mumbled a little frustrated.

Airin looked back, and he saw his son who was asleep. She looked at him closely while gently stroking his cheek.

"Sorry mom." He said in a soft tone to his sleeping son.

His tears began to trickle as he looked at the face of his sleeping son, his expression as if he felt guilty for the child, because he still could not bring himself to meet his biological father.

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Like a bond of fate between the two, the sadness experienced by Airin at this time, somehow can penetrate Darren who is actually asleep. With his breath puffing, Darren awakens from his sleep when the matter that these few months have always disturbed his sleep has reappeared in his sleep today.

"Damn it, why did that woman's voice have to appear again, anyway?." Umpatnya upset because they have to wake up from sleep. Given that he has insomnia that is quite severe, because Darren is somewhat upset when he has to wake up in this condition, to make his mood becomes not good. He tried to manage his slightly irritated expression, but suddenly he held onto his chest which suddenly became painful again.

"Why else is this?" He said to his chest that felt pain again. Darren quickly tried to take the drinking water next to him and immediately drank it.

He rubbed his lips slightly wet from the water. Now he could breathe a little relieved as his aching chest started to feel light. "Today's really a bad day." His murmured slightly irritated at what he was going through today.

From meeting her extended family and having dinner together, news of her marriage suddenly comes out without her consent, and, then his chest that suddenly became painful and he who had to wake up from his sleep because of the shadows of the voice and the vague face of the woman who appeared in his dream.

"I'm sure it's a female voice, but who is she? Why does he always disturb my sleep?" Gerrutu Darren was a little frustrated when he thought about it, because he had absolutely no picture of any woman who always appeared in his dream, things that have made it difficult for him to sleep for some time and finally make his insomnia become quite severe, he said, and sometimes his head will feel dizzy whenever the shadow of the woman in his dream appears in his mind.

"Or do I have a promise I haven't paid off yet?" Say again. "If yes, then what? And who is he, do I know him so well?" Darren was a little frustrated because he felt deadlocked for the answer he had been looking for all this time.

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Traces as if they can not disappear, the shadow of him is difficult to forget, so the memories when with him are so difficult to get rid of. Although the heart was once injured because it had been dumped and abandoned by him, but the feeling left from the corner of his heart still he could not let go of it.

Maybe that's the picture of Airin's current feelings, despite trying to forget the figure who had abandoned him and did not even expect too much to be reunited with him, he said, but his feelings could not lie when he looked back at the face he so missed.

His heart ached and wanted to run immediately towards the figure he missed so much, but there was an obstacle in front of him that prevented him from doing so. From his attitude that feels different, his true status, his true identity about himself, to the person's relationship with a woman other than himself is a big wall that he is trying to tear down.

"Should I let go and forget it?" Airin was still pensive on his bed. It was obvious how his current expression looked uncertain, when trying to make such a decision.

"But I still don't know why he left me?" He recalls Darren who had been gone more than 5 years from his side and lost contact with him.

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No different from Airin who was feeling depressed and a lot of thoughts, Darren who is currently awake from his sleep, chose to go down to eliminate him because he had awakened from his sleep.

He chose to occupy himself with work, to relieve for a moment his frustration in dealing with the problems that occur to him today.

"Tomorrow I have to go to grandfather's house, I want to solve the problem that was today first." He said that was determined to clean up the things that had disturbed his mind since then. Especially on the thing that had just happened to him, which was about the news of his marriage coming out to the media without his consent.

"Am I trying to find out about that woman, huh?" He said again that became more thoughtful about the woman who always appeared in her sleep.

"But how do I find out about that? I don't know his face or name?" Confused Darren.

"Melbourne, this must still have something to do with it. Right, I have to go back there to find out." Remember later.