ELECTORAL MAN
A Blow

PHARID

This is fucking crazy. But I have to explain everything. About my heart and my true feelings. Honestly, I can't say it. I still have a heart. But I have to do it. My longing for Meylan is getting crazier. My desire to have it again is getting harder and harder.

The more days, the more I'm made to languish. I shouldn't have followed my mother's advice to remarry. Mama hopes that by remarrying, I can move on from Meylan as soon as possible. That was my mom's goal. But that's not my goal.

Many times Mama and Sister Ferin introduced me to some women. Neither the maiden nor the widow, but all that was introduced did not comply with Meylan's conditions. Meylan wants certain conditions if I want to stay back to him.

The conditions Meylan requested were indeed insane. Really not out of thought. She asked me to remarry a woman whose standard of beauty and appearance was far below her. He wanted to test me, is it true that later I can be happy with such a woman? which has always been said Mama, that the ideal wife does not have to be beautiful, but she must be able to serve her role as a wife well. Must obey the husband, must be able to take care of all the needs of the husband, take care of the household, and a series of ideal conditions that are classic in general.

Meylan was very offended at that time with Mama's words. Also with my words. As the only boy, Mama hoped my wife would take good care of me. Can cook for me, can handle household affairs, and so on. I wish it was like that too.

Therefore, I also forbade Meylan from working after we got married. I want Meylan to stay home. But it was hard for Meylan to give up his job as a top model. Catwalk and fashion are her world.

At first I gave him tolerance. I allowed him to keep working. But the more days his schedule is getting crowded, he often goes out of town and even abroad for work.

I started giving him ultimatums. Meylan's insane busyness seemed to make him forget our plan to have children. I asked him to stop working. For all the reasons I put forward, he was finally ready. At that time he was in a state of pain due to fatigue.

I also gave him enough capital to open a boutique. Moreover, Meylan at that time was also pursuing a design course. I hope later, he can sell his own clothes designs. Meylan agrees. He took off his job and slowly began to take care of his buttons.

I'm thrilled. So is mom. Meylan has plenty of time at home. At the end of the week, we could spend some time together.

But unfortunately, it was only for a moment. Meylan was tempted again. The offer for the shoot came again secretly. In addition, he also got a more tempting offer. Become a star of beauty products advertising abroad. Unbeknownst to me, she followed the casting and escaped. He flew to France without my knowledge.

Of course I was angry when I found out. Meylan said he could not turn down the offer because the opportunity would not come twice. He was paid a lot of money after signing the contract. Not to mention its popularity that is back to shine.

Since then, our relationship has deteriorated. We fight often. Until I finally found out and tried to advise Meylan. Meylan did not accept and considered me a complaint.

Meylan was getting tougher with his principles. He felt that I could not understand his wishes. His desire to continue his career despite being married. And his desire to be understood if he is not good at taking care of household chores.

I don't want to get divorced from him. Really am. I still hope he can come to his senses and fix everything again. But you stubborn base. Meylan remained in principle. He's sticking to his decision to divorce me.

I was so scared at that time. After going through a pretty tough process, I finally gave up. I can't force her to drop the divorce. We are officially divorced.

Mama said my decision was right. Meylan is not a good wife, my mother thought. She is not obedient to her husband and stubborn. A good wife is a wife who is willing to devote all her time to her husband and family. So Mama and Brother Ferin also tried to find me some candidates.

Mama's wish, so that I can quickly open a new happier life. But is that really so ? in fact, of all the candidates introduced by Mama, no one can make me sreg. Everything is beautiful and classy.

I don't know why...

Honestly, I'm still very much expecting Meylan. Many times I asked him to. Expressing regret. I also do not understand, why his charm is so strong attached to my heart. Many times I tried to forget it, but I couldn't. I love her too much. I promised to fix everything, if he came back to me, including allowing him to return to his career.

After many times begging and pleading with her, Meylan finally agreed. But on one condition, I have to marry a woman who matches the criteria of Mama. Not so pretty, if you can that innocent appearance, far below the standard of beauty, he said.

What a strange condition. I don't know.. Maybe Meylan really wanted to avenge his heartache for what my mother said at that time, and wanted to test me whether it was true that such a woman could conquer me later.

If I seriously want to go back to her, then I have to run these terms. Once the conditions are met, he will be willing to refer. At first I was very much against this crazy idea. But for the sake of my love for her that was growing, I lost. I had to follow his will.

And finally came this woman. The figure that Bu Endang introduced me to. The figure of an innocent, simple, very ordinary woman. I chose him too, because he seems to be very qualified as Meylan would like.

And this marriage took place. Wedding charade. A marriage that I made as a springboard to regain my true love, Meylan.

I realized this was a fatal act. Because I must have hurt this woman's feelings so badly. I'm sorry Ninis... I'm a fucking guy. This honesty of mine has dealt you a great blow.

But I promise you, I'll compensate you for all this...

Seriate.