The Wasted Love
FINDING A PHOTO OF BIMO

That night my eyes couldn't be closed, like the next few nights I felt something was going to happen out there .

Although my heart kept on being restless, I suddenly remembered that I was investigating who Tania really was .

I headed to Tania's room and looked for something that might be a clue for me, almost desperate to find anything .

But after a long time of thinking, I also remembered there was a place I wanted to look for under Tania's bed , usually someone can hide something secret in the safest place they think 'cause I'm often like that .

Finally I found something neatly stored red envelope, slowly with a nervous feeling I opened the envelope and it turned out to be a photo .

At first I thought it was a photo of his girlfriend Tania that he had been hiding all this time from me and also Bimo , but it turned out that after I took a good look at the photo it turned out to be a photo of my husband Bimo .

My blood is flowing profusely, my heart is beating fast .

why Tania keeps a photo of Bimo, isn't Bimo Tania's own brother .

There was actually any intention of Tania getting into this house ' or else Tania was intent on destroying my household .

" Patience Tania, patience ...

I can't be rash, I have to investigate it to the end .

don't just because of this photo my relationship with Bimo is a mess .

What are the words of the people out there, if I should be a widow for the second time .

After a long time of thinking I finally decided to return the photo I met under Tania's bed, so that Tania would not suspect me that I was investigating her .

From the beginning I had been suspicious of Tania, I had a hunch that Tania had bad intentions towards this family.

I'd better not linger in this room for long, fearing Tania might come home and see it's still here .

Just now I wanted to get out but Tania had already appeared before me .

" Mr Rania what is it here ...?

" Yes that was mbak , want to borrow your charger but meet .

" charger, instead of our phone different yes mbak .

I was so stupid that I couldn't make any other excuses, all this time I didn't know I was using a different phone with him .

" oh he can't forget, yes you must be tired .

Ma'am make it an angel tea or something .

Hopefully Tania didn't ask anything after I switched the conversation .

" No need mbak , I just want a break .

" yes is good ...

Tania's gaze was indeed different Tania was definitely suspecting me .

oh my God why my life is full of endless trials, I should be able to keep this a secret lest Arza's mother and father know this matter .

I just wanted to live a quieter life , but in this calmness and happiness it began to grow new thorns that are ready to stick my toes if I choose the wrong step forward or backward .

But I remembered father's message, that we must not resign and be silent in a state of urgency 'There is a time for us to fight back and restore our spirit .

Right now what I need to investigate again is my husband , does my husband also keep a photo of Tania who is considered to be his sister .

Before my investigation is successful 'I have to mentally prepare me to accept reality .

I was so confused by my thoughts that night, there was no place for me to tell stories and complain .

the bitterness of his life I can only swallow by myself .

I'd love to tell mommy some anxiety, but I'm afraid 'fear of ruining the calmness and happiness you're feeling right now .

The three of them are my encouragement, I don't want them to cry I don't want them to get hurt .

Let this wound be felt by myself .

I stepped foot slowly watching those who were soundly asleep lying on the soft, luxurious mattress that they had never felt before .

I don't want to feel like I'm taking them back to the dark past, even if I have to stand up in a state of injury .

It turns out that luxury does not guarantee happiness, happiness must be maintained with tears .

I love my mommy, I love my dad and I love my son .

they're my strength I don't want them to be fragile I don't want them to be disappointed .

I didn't feel my tears flowing when I noticed them.

My mother's father and my son stand behind me, let me step up against the sharpening thorns .

May I remain strong and always be patient .

I was tired and decided to take a break to recover my strength and spirit, but suddenly my mother's voice called out to me .

" Rania, I haven't slept yet son .

" yes ma'am, here I want to come .

" You did stand here alone .

It seems like mom has been watching me for a long time .

" I can't sleep, I'm here to see that mom's already asleep .

" Lately I've noticed that you can't sleep almost every night 'What's the matter ?

Mother stroked my hair, I saw the look on my worried mother's face thinking of me .

I can't be like this pity mom .

" I'm fine Ms ...?

it's late at night, mom breaks yes I also want to rest in the room .

" Rania, if you need anything just call mom .

I went back to my room so that mom could get back to rest ' despite my intention of wanting to tell me what I felt .

but I don't want to disturb his mind so that his health is disturbed .

I think I can because I'm used to it, because I suffered more .