The Wasted Love
TANIA'S CRY

*The next day*

At about 06:00 in the morning I saw my husband Bimo not beside me .

Usually Bimo never wakes up too early like this .

" Shop.tok...

" Mommy, mother...?

Arza's voice called me .

" yes Arza .

I saw Arza standing in front of my bedroom door .

" Mrs Arza went to school .

" Lo is not too early, son ...

" He Ma'am there is a repeat today fear of being late .

" But you haven't had breakfast yet, sorry mom oversleep her wake up .

" It's okay Ms. Arza had her breakfast in the school cafeteria .

I feel bad because every morning I always prepare breakfast for Arza to school .

" Yeah, this is pocket money for today use as best as possible yes son, study diligently .

" Ready to Go .

I drove Arza to the front door, just a few steps I heard the sound of someone crying .

" who is crying .

" What ma'am, I said what earlier .

" oh no, yes you have left dear later .

After Arza got into the car I got close to the sound .

" O Lord my husband .

" jelica ...

Bimo calls me, when I choose to go from unpleasant sight .

" Rania wait .

Please don't get me wrong, I'm just calming Tania down .

" Yes Bim, so I avoided it so Tania could tell you the problem ' she was afraid if I still remained here Tania even hid her personal problems .

" That's it Rania, Anywhere else Tania's parents have left me a message to take care of Tania like I'm looking after my own sister .

" It's good if it's like that, I'm sorry .

Even though I knew Tania was a cousin of my own husband, but somehow I was really jealous to see them so close .

" Rania, I hope you're still here .

I don't want to keep any secrets even though about Tania' you as my wife are also entitled to know .

" It's okay Bim, I understand .

Bimo withdrew my hand inviting me to approach Tania and continue the conversation .

" Tania May I sit here again with Rania .

Tania interrupted slowly while looking at me .

" I'm sorry I mbak, if during here I am a lot of trouble mbak Rania and also sister Bimo .

" You don't have to be like that ' 'cause I'm glad you're staying here .

" But I don't think I deserve to stay here ?

While crying Tania hugged me tightly .

" Why are you ?

Why are you crying ...

We're both women, you don't have to be shy or afraid to tell stories with mbak .

You must have heard all your stories ...

Tania still kept crying, while Bimo still continued to stand behind me without speaking a word .

" Tania you have to be calm, I can't understand if you don't want to tell me now .

later if you are a little calm you can tell the story to mbak .

Tania was still crying , I myself was confused what problem happened to Tania so she cried like that .

" Oh yeah, maybe you need some time alone .

Ma'am wants ready for Breakfast , later if it's finished mbak will deliver for you .

Seeing Tania still crying, Bimo and I decided to leave Tania alone .

" Good thanks, you care about Tania .

" Everything ...

" She Tania told you ...?

" mm that's, later you also know Tania has promised to tell you .

Is the matter too complicated so Bimo won't tell me directly .

" Don't talk about Tania keep 'em, make me breakfast .

soon I have a job and go home is also a little night .

" Ok , but you have to take care of your health ' Don't keep working .

" Ok boss...

Sometimes I feel happy, I feel like my life is complete .

Surrounded by people who love me, but sometimes I get scared .

Afraid of losing one of my most beloved children, my parents and my husband .

I want them to always be by my side in joy and sorrow .

My jealousy signifies that I sing to the people I love and love me because I never felt that way before .