The Wasted Love
EXCUSE

The first day of work by saying bismillah start a new activity .

thank goodness there were no obstacles whatsoever during the running of the job .

at four o'clock in the afternoon I had gone home 'though tired all day working' but it felt good .

after this I will invite father, mother and wa Arza to find a new place to live .

Mother..(arza called me when I entered the house) (arza hugged me tightly .

mom just came home ..definitely tired all day work ...

he ,, but after seeing you all tired and tired mother disappeared instantly , because of the encouragement of mother's life

this is what makes the days of motherhood so full of vigor .

arza smiled looking at me while walking towards the kitchen ,,,

Rania..already home you son ..mother who was busy in the kitchen suddenly asked to see my arrival .

She just got home.I saw mom so busy cooking in the kitchen .

let me help you,, my loving mother alone cook this much, oh she's Mita where...

That's it, I think Mita's coming with you, since this morning has not come home .

Mita hasn't come home yet, I'm speechless while shaking my head .

ever since living in Doni's house, I've never seen Mita cook or even wash dishes in the kitchen . but I didn't dare to reprimand her .

I pity to see mommy, although I feel tired I still force myself to help mom prepare dinner later .

Ma'am,, there are so many people who want to cook , what kind of event is there tonight...?

I'm so surprised, don't usually cook like this ...

mother also does not know Rania, but this request sir dedi.mom did not feel good to refuse him .

I'm surprised you don't usually ask you to cook something like this, it's an amazing dish .

like a guest came to this house ...

but who...?

after a few hours all the dishes were finished ...

I decided to take a break, that night I didn't eat with them .

ran....Rania...You're asleep...?

looks like someone called me, what's the matter ?

I'm so tired it feels heavy for these eyes to open .

I'm Doni. I want to talk to you for a minute .

I opened the door to room & it turned out that Doni was already standing in front of the door .

what's the matter , there seems to be something important 'I asked Doni who had been smiling at me since .

Uhmmm not so important, it's my dad who wants to talk to you instead of me .

Doni pointed towards his father who was sitting at the dining table.

I approached Mr. Dedi who was talking to my father .

I sat down in front of the two of them and was followed by Doni .

Rania.pak Dedi has good intentions, sir Dedi wants to match you with his son Doni.

Suddenly my heart was pounding at my father's explanation, what did Mr. Dedi mean to call me .

I didn't hear you wrong, I'll be paired with Doni .

I shook my head, hard to believe ...

No Rania,, this is serious ..all to the verdict is in your hands .

I hope your answer does not disappoint Mr. Dedi and also doni.

it was a very difficult decision , my family and I owe a lot of money & even don't count on Doni and his father to our family .

should I be with a young man like Doni .

If I reject it , all will feel disappointed ..but if I accept it , then Mita will be the victim .

actually I don't want this matchmaking to happen again , it reminds me back to my past with Dianra Arda my ex-husband .

My head hurts slowly towards my brain ,

I'm speechless and can't think what to say to Doni and his father .

Rania,,, you're fine ...Doni saw my face that was starting to change .

is this world so narrow , so that there are still men who can love me .

I'm an imperfect woman and a lot to the poor, not worth getting a perfect man like Doni ...

I tried my best to be able to speak in front of them, even though the pain in my head was getting worse .

Think before everything happens ...

not all this time sir dedi and also doni already know our family background .

so is what has happened to me all this time .

I'm not the woman who's supposed to be Doni's life partner .

I'm a widow who has children while Doni , he's a whole and well educated man ' doesn't deserve Doni to live with me .

Doni is too young from me, I don't want to make Doni shy in front of his friends and family later .

it's better that Doni look for a woman comparable to him "hopefully they can understand what I described earlier .

Rania.I've been thinking that far to dare to be frank with your parents .

I don't want to hear your unreasonable excuses .

I've understood all about you, so there's no harm if I like you Rania...

So brave Doni spoke like that in front of his father, I did not think he turned out to have a firm soul in making decisions .

Give me some time to think, I'm really dizzy and can't decide yet what should be my decision later .

what are you thinking again Rania,, Doni started to urge me , it seems like Doni couldn't accept my answer earlier .

what was my answer less clearly in his ear .

I don't want Mita to know about this matchmaking later, Mita will be hostile towards me and away from me .

since Mita loves Doni, I can see from her attitude .

Doni's out there a lot of women that you can make your life's companion ,,,

the perfect woman who can be your life guide .

try to think again Doni.your decision is wrong and very, very wrong .

one more thing .. I don't want Mita to know about this problem .

why indeed...? why can't you know...

Doni was astonished by me .

Because Mita likes you Doni.why you are not aware all this time Mita always pay attention to you .

even Mita gets jealous when you get close to me .

Me and Mita have nothing to do, after all I'm just friends with her .

Doni..then me and mita have the same husband and now I no longer want to love the same man as Mita .

I don't want my enmity and mita to happen just because of a misunderstanding .

So ..what should I do Rania. I don't want anyone else to take your place in my heart....

stop your talk Doni, my head hurts more and more to hear it .

I was really dizzy and ended up unconscious .