Secrets & Prejudice = Keep it secret, you will hurt
Hidden story seventeen POV

I knew Shinta well after we met at the bar. We tell each other about things. He was so good at digging things up that every time I always ended up telling him everything.

Although it's about me and Alana, I guess she knew before I told her.

However after I told him about alana, he started reporting to me about the things that alana did. Moreover, lately he has been avoiding me, so the news from him is the main information I wait for every day. Although sometimes I have to swallow my pride because the information is always accompanied by ridicule. But I still accepted it.

Alana sometimes looks at me cynically while at school. It seems his feelings are still changing. So I can only expect a story from shinta for now.

"Hey.want me to tell Alana where it is now?" ask shinta. I don't understand what it means to smile mockingly like that.

"no" I said. Following Shinta's will will will only make her ridicule me all out. I know, because it happens so often. If it's about Alana often I become her mockery.

"Humm... when he was close to someone, sure not want to know?" said again. If he says it like that how can I ignore. I glanced at him a little before shaking again. I still don't want to lose, so.

"he's in the building where they rehearsal theater. His special information there was Diki as well" he said, whispering slightly in the last sentence.

He looks closer to Diki, or is that just my feeling?

I told him that Diki liked him, but Alana said she didn't like him at the time. Has his feeling changed?.

Seeing him close to other men made me feel uncomfortable. It was strange when I saw him close to someone other than me. The person close to him should be me, not someone else as has always been the case all along.

I feel like I lost the figure of Alana who has always bothered me since childhood. That cheerful smile of hers is no longer for me now. He who is now, like increasingly becoming someone else. Though I think our relationship is fine, in fact even worse.

"you're handsome enough to be the size of a small actor." I stared not like this view. Finally, Alana was close to everyone else. But why am I angry?

Alana took a photo of the staging preparation. I always knew she liked photography, which I didn't know turned out she also liked taking pictures of Diki. Seeing him smile like that was so annoying. Is she that attractive until you look so happy? the longer I stay here the more I get angry. Why would I obey Shinta to approach Alana here. He did not expect my arrival. What is later I even interfere with their fun activities.

after standing for a long time I turned around to get out of the room. I'm standing very far from Alana. He didn't even notice my arrival. I closed the door a little hard to surprise myself because her voice was so loud.

"wah-wah. why the rampage?" shinta looked at me with a look of disdain. He was standing outside since then, definitely waiting to make fun of me like this.

"not your business" I said coldly.

"eat it, if it's near it don't waste it. If you are close to others just confused themselves" he said without caring I have stepped away to stay away from him. Sometimes, the insinuations of that fact are rather painful.

After walking for a long while I finally returned to that gate as well. Leaving Alana with Diki made me uncomfortable until I finally waited for her outside. It's kind of sad, but yeah. From the beginning it was my fault.