Secrets & Prejudice = Keep it secret, you will hurt
ten changed.

People say that love can change a person. I believe Ananta and I are examples. Ananta turned strong and mature, far beyond his present age, though I think it sucks.

As for me. I want to turn into whoever Ananta likes.

Like other children, I am busy with beautiful photos of Ms. Lita and the mirror. Her big eyes make me envious, her smooth skin makes me hate her, her long straight hair, ah, in a woman's view it's all near perfect. Hmm, hair, at least I can make my hair as beautiful as that too.

“Mother, dab the hair where ya?” ask me that afternoon.

“Dear room drawer, take it yourself yes. Mom is still busy.” Answer the mother from the kitchen. I went into Mom's room without knocking on her door, but she let me in. But I ended up confused when the three drawers I opened did not hold the thing I was looking for.

I opened the drawer to four and found a shabby book. It seems like this has been in store for a long time because the cover is almost broken at the age of eating. Because of the curiosity that could not be pendam again I opened the black cover that the writing of the owner had almost faded.

On the first page I found a picture of Ananta's mother and my young mother taking pictures happily. I smiled, my mother looks beautiful with an old-fashioned hairstyle and clothes that must look tacky when worn now.

Behind it I found writing with ink that began to fade.

‘friendship is a bond that exceeds family, we know. But when we both love the same person. Things are never the same again’.

That sentence led me to a surprising fact. Sentences that seemed to answer my question mark all this time. This must be a secret that mom has been quiet for a long time.

You guys remember, I hate Om Ari because he's always troubling us. But mother's behavior is also just as annoying because she always obeys whatever Ari says. I came to suspect something that was not-nothing when Om Ari left Ananta to our family. Although I'm happy too, because I liked Ananta a long time ago.

Reading the pages of this shabby book one by one made me discover the facts next. The person they were fighting over was definitely Ananta's father. In the end, Ananta's mother gets Om Ari. Then my heartbroken mother was finally able to get back to Ananta's father when her friend was gone. But Alana thinks her mother is back in despair when Ananta's father remarries another woman.

Like her mother, Ananta must also be a persistent person and pursue love until he can. Unlike my mother who relented, it was also like I lost to the beautiful woman who was somehow years older. I put the book back in its place. It is as neat as ever. Well, this is probably a mother's secret that should remain a secret.

I opened the next drawer and finally found what I was looking for. With that thing I straightened my hair and tried different models and hoped it would make me look more beautiful. Although I know, our faces remain unequal, and there is very little chance that Ananta will turn to me because of this. But I still want to try. Can.

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Now at rest, the cafeteria was already full of hungry people. But I carved a smile as I looked at the empty bench in front of Ananta. I approached him with the same enthusiasm. Little wish that she'd realize my appearance had slightly changed to be more beautiful? I'm not sure exactly.

I threw a smile at him, staying afloat even though he only looked at me from the corner of his eyes indifferently.

“Ananta, mom cook lunch for you” I said thrusting neatly arranged provisions in a blue container. My mother was very attentive to know to you who wasn't even her biological child.

“Ananta” call someone who surprises me. He, the person I met in the game, was approaching us. I wanted to hide my face immediately when I saw him smiling innocently.

“Hai,” a short reply, the guy immediately sat on the empty seat next to me. It surprised me a little, because we haven't even met in the real world. He doesn't even know that I'm Mili, and his attitude is like a familiar snob, even though I know he's looking for Ananta instead of me.

“Diki, you said you wanted to meet Mili” said Ananta, my eyes are breaking, predicting what will happen next. Don't do it, or I'll hate you even more.

“She Alana, the real Mili,” she said casually pointing at me with her chin. I keep looking at him hatefully. I was flustered as Diki stared at me with her innocent smile again.

“Ehm, hi Mili” greet Kenta (his name in the game) kindly, his hand outstretched to shake hands with me. But I just became misbehaved and ended up brusquely shaking her hand. I saw him staring in shock as I got out of my seat.

“from now on I hate you! Traitor!” I said to Ananta. Though yesterday he had promised not to tell my identity as a mili to anyone. But he instead broke his promise now, unreliable basis.

I packed my bags, then moved to another table. I ate my food in anger. My eyes were still glaring at Ananta who occasionally turned my head cuefully.

“Do not glare. Your face does not deserve to be angry” said Shinta approached me with an amused smile.

“Huh, I don't understand how men think. They're annoying. Never cared about women's feelings. ” My thoughts unknowingly. Well, Ananta never cared about how I wanted him to keep my secret, or about how I wanted him to appreciate my being who had treated him well.

“But his camera always wants to be close to them kan” said Shinta made me speechless. Shit, he's right and I hate that.

“You always buy Ananta, because you like him too much. He might even take you for granted.” His words satirize with sentences that sound like advice. Well, to me his words are a lot true even though they are always piercing.

“class girl who liked the man, has high standards, a type that is mysterious and difficult to reach. Like Ananta who has a crush on Bu Lita is not you”. It sucks indeed, hearing the right mockery about the heart.

But it made me think again. I agree with his statement. I always failed to get Ananta interested in me. The old way to always be next to him never works, we get further and further away. So, should I try the opposite. Should I stay away. Pulling a distance like Bu Lita that actually makes him interested?. I'm not sure about this but I want to try it. I don't know, I'm pissed at him anyway. The more I stay away the better.

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