Secrets & Prejudice = Keep it secret, you will hurt
fourteen different people

The 10-second voice I repeated, continuing to ring despite not hearing it anymore. Hey, Ananta. I've never not seen you this long, I've never stayed away from you this long. And now, that miss is explosive.

The thought of a new person is gone for now. You came back at the right time. My heart is still about you Ananta.

I actually never knew what the end of this story would be like. But at the moment. I know for a fact, I still love you.

Diki who was still sitting in front of me felt insignificant anymore. From the beginning, he was just a friend.

"Walking, we go home" I said involuntarily smiling very widely. Diki who saw him smiled. I don't know, he's so innocent like that.

I pulled his sleeve while continuing to walk towards the nearest umun vehicle to rush home. I forgot about the cake I just ate. Ananta is more important now.

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Just today, today I just want to be as ordinary as before we hated each other because of me that day. Today, I want to see you as usual. They can tease each other and scorn each other. It's just that trivial thing that I missed as long as we were far away.

“Hai” said Ananta at the door, very careful as if he did not want to make me angry again. I just nodded. Can't do. After my anger that day, we definitely couldn't behave as usual. Just looking at him makes me awkward. I wasn't in a position to dare apologize after I had stayed away from him that way.

“Ananta, have you arrived?” greet mom breaks the mood. I told her earlier, be a mother cook more than usual. Ananta nodded politely with his sweet smile.

“Ananta, it's been a long time since you stopped by” Ask mom, the only one who can start the conversation. I just looked down, ate more fervently than usual.

“Iya aunty, there are things Ananta should work on.” Answer it calmly. I haven't been following his activities for a long time. So I just listen to whatever he says.

“How is your father? He also rarely tells aunt.” said Mother back to bring up about the annoying man, making me back badmood only.

“Daddy is fine aunt. Since the day's incident, she's become more responsible.” That day? Is there something I don't know?? I've missed a lot of things.

“He found a pretty good job and tried to meet our debts” he said. Ah, I always knew nothing. He must have faced many problems alone again like before. But seeing him smile, I knew he was still fine.

“eat as much as you are, while here.” Mother's speech thrusting a plate containing the last shrimp. But he put it on my plate. I just kept watching. Too quiet, too quiet compared to the usual days.

The situation is different. And what did he do? now you care more about me that way? although many screamed inwardly, I just ate it obediently. I can't make him uncomfortable anymore or he'll stay away from me again.

“no aunt, let me help” bargain Ananta quickly. Soon he took the dishes and took them to the kitchen. I followed, helped him a little. What the fuck. He's really acting sweet now.

“why be such a good ass? Basic sly” I said cynically, the anger was still there even though I dodged it. I'm glad he's here, but I can't just act normal.

“For a long time we did not meet, I am glad you still remain naive” he said still calmly.His expression did not change much, but this time his smile looks more sincere. What really happened while we were away? this behavior is not Ananta at all.

“Yes, I am naive. And you are the righteous one who always makes me look the most sinful.” Saying again. I was shocked myself for saying that slightly harsh sentence. Deep down I don't want to make him angry.

“it looks like you still have to learn more, about how to curry properly. I want to see you more angry. So that I can apologize properly” I silently heard it. All this time I've been giving up on him. And this time he said sorry first. Not really sorry even. But he also asked me to let out all my anger? in seriously? I can be a monster knowing that angry.

“by the way, why are you taking so many extra classes lately. It must have been very difficult” his hands were busy with soap and dishes, but his mouth was more busy talking.

“Let's not meet you.” I answered briefly, his smile expanding. I don't understand, the more I hate her the more Ananta accepts patiently and I get angrier looking at her.

“You've found a girlfriend?” now he's talking about it. He knows what, he never notices me.

“no.” I replied sure. But it's not because you're Ananta. I haven't found the right person yet. I thought it was like lying to myself.

“why? Looks like Diki likes you.” Ah, so he knows? That I've been seeing Diki a lot lately?? How could.

“no” he said that, as if he knew everything. Besides why would it be if Diki likes me. It will not affect what it does for him.

“I know he really likes you” he said again. Enough, this time I was angry.

“CUBILES NO!!” I pushed it hard, until accidentally my hand nudged the faucet until the almost broken thing was completely broken. The water was flowing until some hit me. But Ananta quickly covered my body and closed the faucet. Make her clothes wet.

“Stupid basis. You're almost soaked.” He said slowly, very slowly. He wiped my wet cheeks with his sleeves, very carefully like Ananta normally would. I looked at him straight, for a moment it was slow. He's in wetter condition. Why protect me.

“You... have to change clothes” I said nervously. Immediately leave from before him. I looked at the mirror in my room. The rest of the foam from Ananta's hand stuck to my sleeve. Why is he so sweet I thought. You always make me can't help but think of anyone other than you Ananta.

“change your shirt” I said thrusting dad's shirt. He accepts. And I immediately turned around as she shamelessly changed clothes in front of me. He's still the same Ananta that he used to be, the difference is that Ananta is now, he always makes my heart beat faster all the time.