Secrets & Prejudice = Keep it secret, you will hurt
twenty-one. regrets

Alana's getting frustrated. Now that he knew, he would find the answers to all his questions if he went to the roof to read the messages from Shinta. But now it's time for the morning apple to start. So he had to undo his intentions and turn to the courtyard, where his friend who had been arguing was getting boisterous. But things instantly calmed down once the disciplinary committee appeared to commemorate them.

The purpose of this apple is only one in fact, providing an explanation for the problem that makes a scene one school overnight. They must have made a decision, so we are required to apple early in the morning when now is not Monday.

The morning apple goes with wisdom. The student who was quite crowded now did not dare to speak at all. After talking one school will hear your voice so quiet.

I just noticed when an important announcement was read one-on-one. Until Ananta's problem is finally lifted.

"Last night, we received an anonymous report about our student. And this morning we got clarification from the concerned" said the senior teacher who I know is the chair of the disciplinary committee. The report is definitely mine. The only thing that's making an uproar is one school today. I was amazed, because they handled matters so quickly. But I'm also worried, because their decision could be detrimental to Ananta and Shinta. Something that wasn't included in my previous estimate.

"based on clarification, the photos taken are not the actual situation. The party concerned reported he was there for personal reasons that could not be publicly mentioned. So that because his actions were acknowledged and accounted for, the person in question would get the appropriate punishment for cleaning the school every day after school for one month" this notice was the longest notice I listened to until the end.

This time because I caused the punishment to happen, also because the one concerned was Ananta and Shinta I couldn't help but notice. It's about the people who are important to me. Either in the connotation of hating, or loving but I know they are important.

"and to the students involved." I held my breath hearing it. This is definitely about Shinta. And from his behavior this morning, also his conversation with Ananta. I knew we would be separated.

"He decided to resign from school and will take care of the transfer files as soon as possible" the teacher continued. There was an internal wound that felt slashing. Maybe, deep down I didn't want that to happen. As Shinta said I regretted my own actions, so soon.

After hearing that, I immediately searched for the whereabouts of Ananta. He hasn't been in my sight since.

"i'm behind you" said the cold voice. I turned around in surprise. Since when he was there, I didn't realize it at all.

"Shinta decided to move, also because her parents were pushy for a long time. But he decided to move and follow his parents along with this incident. Maybe, we won't be able to see him again. He also apologized for not having time to say goodbye to you. But he's happy to be friends with you even in such a short time" he said.

This is the first time I've heard Ananta say things in long sentences and serious tones. From this I know, Shinta is also an important person for him. Somehow, obviously they're within the confines of friends like I heard this morning. He didn't even discuss about his punishment for cleaning up the school this one month. It seemed that it was indeed not important to him as he only discussed Shinta when talking to me. This one, is he entertaining me?

I think the apple this morning worked. Because after the show ended, all the kids in my class were silent. They did not discuss it anymore because they realized that Shinta had not entered the class at all since morning. Maybe they feel guilty as well as I do. It was as if I was the one who made her go away and finally I was the one who regretted it myself.

I took classes with a little bit of focus. It was strange when there was no Shinta in her chair. Although we usually rarely talk in class, but his absence still bothers me. There was something that felt lost, and it was definitely Shinta.

I was slightly saved in the break when Diki approached me. I wanted to run away to discuss silly things with her alone, rather than having to look at Ananta guiltily. I still have to keep the agenda of hating Ananta that I've decided. Despite what I heard this morning, my hatred should not be as great as before.

"Hi" Diki greeted awkwardly in front of the classroom door. I immediately got up to approach her, before pulling her towards the cafeteria without saying much. He ordered my favorite meatballs and iced oranges before we talked to each other.

"so, who moved it was your eccentric friend?" ask Diki directly at the point. Well, he must have seen a photo of Ananta and Shinta. I just nod. That's right anyway.

"unfortunately, I think he's a good boy" he said, starting to speculate on what he saw.

"he was a good boy" I corrected him. Shinta is still my friend for now.

"sorry, I forgot that he's your best friend" he said, feeling a little guilty. Then what, if he wasn't my friend he'd still bully her.

"But, after I noticed. In the photo, Ananta wears a strange outfit. It wasn't like a party dress, more like a maid uniform. See, many are wearing the same clothes as him" said Diki innocently pulled out a cellphone to show photos that have been distributed in class groups.

Hearing that, I looked at the photo once more. And, stupidly, I just realized the strangeness now. When things got really bad, I realized.

Is this another possibility that did not come into my previous logic? so they really don't go there to date?

I want school to end now. I have to go to the roof to know all the truth. I can't second-guess anymore, because it will only make me think of things that won't necessarily happen again.

But I have to be very patient. It would be strange if I went there now, especially now that there is Diki who looks like he will follow wherever I go. I'm going there alone. To my hiding place and Shinta that no one else should know. So I have to be normal until the classes are over. Be patient, it's a very difficult thing because I'm getting to know the truth right now.