Secrets & Prejudice = Keep it secret, you will hurt
twenty-two. bitter truth

Right after the last hour was over I immediately went to the roof, leaving Ananta who seemed to be coming towards me. Wait for Ananta, I want to find out everything myself first. I took a hasty breath, running up the stairs was exhausting as well. My body suddenly felt very weak, especially my legs felt like they would be dislodged just because I ran from the stairs on the first to fifth floor. I closed my feet for a while before walking again to open the door to the roof.

At the door I immediately gave a glance. Looking for something Shinta meant this morning. I did eavesdrop, but it was important that the message was delivered to me. If I was supposed to regret it, I better know the reason now or I'll hate it even more.

I searched around the mat, there was nothing. There were no suspicious things that Shinta might have left behind. This afternoon was cloudy, I looked up at the cold sky. I try to use the Shinta logic that usually always considers everything. If the rain often comes suddenly Shinta is unlikely to put it outside. He is smart and uses logic every time he does something. He must not have let the message or anything get wet in this open place.

He must have put it in a safe place. A place that is closed and remains safe when exposed to rain. Where else if not the place to hide the snack. That place is much safer than a money vault.

I opened the closet, there were only a lot of snacks visible from the outside. Was my guess wrong? if not where else? did anyone else throw it away? Ah, mind! Stop thinking about the bad things!

I took four packs out of frustration, I want to eat first now. Rest before turning the brain again. I just rested for a while, instead of giving up. I took a random snack and took it to the mat to sit there.

I opened one of the packs. But wait, there's a plastic taped to the back of the packaging, I almost tore it up. This thing, is this what he meant by letters? it looks more like a free one buy gift. Unknowingly I smiled, very much Shinta.

I'm looking for a pack that says number one, because the one that just almost ripped it was number three. Immediately I opened the first clue, or is it not a clue? what is makian? I don't know, I don't know.

the first message I took a deep breath before opening it.

'hey, I want to help you figure out Ananta's true feelings, because I suspect that he doesn't really like Ms. Lita. I'm sorry I just realized, I was too focused on mocking you earlier' write Shinta on the first paper. So, my guess was wrong from the start?

I'm looking for a package that says number two

'So these two, or three months I've been pretty close to Ananta. He was so pity. The problem is a lot, it's appropriate that he did not want to approach the person he likes for a long time and instead just watch when the person misunderstood many times, he was indeed a fool' eh, who? what the hell does it mean why I don't even understand.

I took that almost torn wrapper, it should explain something.

'I want to tell you today, if Ananta has to work to help pay his father's debts, he works at my friend's bar but take it easy I'll keep an eye on him so he doesn't get close to the women there, you can count on me for this one'

My eyes are wide reading it. So what I saw that night was a misunderstanding? Shinta... Shall I apologize now? can I apologize?

letter to four.

'After knowing her more, I know why you like her so much. He's like a comfort zone. Where you can tell a lot, he never protests and just listens to everything. You are very lucky to have known him for a long time. He's a guy you can depend on for a lot of things, there's always been. Even if he's too much prestige so don't want to act so sweet blatantly'

wait, the letter ends here? you're kidding me. Shinta, you left after saying this only?. My tears have come down since the third letter. Ever since I realized after this I can't see her anymore. Ever since I found out he wasn't cheating on me, he's been thinking about me in so many ways. Moreover, he was leaving without saying goodbye, and again I'm the reason he had to leave so soon.

Does he hate me after everything? I'm a bad friend, right?

I'm not so tasteful to see a snack that has been messy on the mattress. I'll probably just eat the one I opened earlier. Or, can I just put the rest back in the closet?

When I looked in the closet again, there was a milk box in the corner. What is this one from Shinta too? I picked it up and sure enough, there was a single roll of paper behind it. This must be his last letter.

'Alana, what happened today is not entirely your fault.I was indeed planning on moving out before everything happened. I thank you for being able to make friends with a funny friend like you. I love you, Ananta too, he loves you. Just be careful that your relationship doesn't improve after I say everything. And lastly, good-bye, I have to go and I hope we can still get in touch later. You know my ig right.. You can find me there, I will not change my account even though that one account is a little crowded. See you again' wrote Shinta ended with a smile emoticon.

All right, I know what you mean now. I still have to apologize for misunderstanding. I interpreted everything as I wanted without realizing that I actually knew nothing. Shinta I'm sorry. I rubbed the tears that still seemed to flow on my cheeks. It's sad that I lost a friend this sincere just because of my own stupidity.

As I was sinking into regret suddenly the sound of the door opening shocked me. That guy's standing there scared. He must have been following me since. He's so nosy.

I hurriedly tidied everything up, stuffed the snack and milk into the closet again, not forgetting to take the letter from Shinta and hide it inside the bag. He simply observed my entire movements until I was silent again looking towards him.

"why come here" I asked rather coldly. I didn't expect his arrival to know, and this place should be a secret between me and Shinta alone. But now someone else knows it.

"I'm looking for you" he said nervously.

"i want to say something" he said.