Secrets & Prejudice = Keep it secret, you will hurt
twenty three. The unwanted man

I stared at Diki who somehow could be in a hiding place that previously only me and Shinta knew. He looked at me nervously, and what did he say? saying anything? I hope it's not something I think about.

"what are you talking about?" I'm just impatient. Actually now that I just want to go home, my heart is already quite tired with regrets that have not subsided. But the way he looks at me, it feels like he's gonna keep me here for a long time.

"in the beginning, I thought you hated me because at the beginning of our meeting you were like avoiding me" he said slowly. Because you're just an acquaintance I know from the game. A place where most are just people who want to play, instead of looking for friends.

"but after that I was a little surprised because suddenly you came up to me first" continued Diki in a slightly louder voice.

ah, sorry. At that time I just needed a friend. But I always made it clear from the beginning that I didn't want this guy to expect more from me, I thought of him as a friend. A good friend.

"After we've been getting closer for a while. I can't hide it anymore. I have to say it." Strange words, please don't tell me. Can someone just take me away from here?

"Alana." call someone else who just came. Oh, that's Ananta. Now even Ananta knows this place. It was definitely Shinta who told him, who else. But, what is he here for now.

He said nothing, just stared intently as he approached where I was standing. He approached in a hurry. What's up now.

"wait, I'm not done talking" said Diki to head off Ananta. What a strange situation is this. I'm going home.

"I have business with Alana" said Ananta, his voice sounded creepy. Is he angry? wait for. Of course he's angry, he must be mad at me.

"I said I wasn't done talking." Now Diki faces towards Ananta, turning her back to me who is still silent do not understand.

Ananta brushed off Diki's shoulder as he continued walking, until suddenly Diki hit him hard. I was surprised, not believing he dared to do it to Ananta who looked sinister. But the next second I was even more shocked when Ananta returned the blow just as hard. These guys, why fight here.

"hey hey, what's the matter with you?" manya panic. I couldn't just watch as the corners of Ananta's lips started to look bloody as their fights still continued by hitting each other randomly. I almost screamed when Diki hit Ananta's face again many times.

"STOP!!" my yelling. These guys are not kids anymore why are they acting like this. Ananta threw his last fist until Diki fell to the ground.

Hearing me shout they finally turned their heads towards me. Ananta seems to be regulating his hunting breath.

Now that they stopped I wanted to treat Ananta's wounds immediately, but a second later I hesitated. From the way she looked at me, I didn't think Ananta knew everything, and I wasn't sure if she would forgive me because I had already complained to the school committee for thinking she was dating Shinta that day.

I can't judge his expression now. I turned my attention to Diki who looked in pain. And my body moved itself to help him stand up. I feel guilty because somehow I got him involved in this fight, it must be my fault again.

I helped Diki to return home, leaving Ananta still glued to the same place. Ananta, I'll be looking for you later. I have to help Diki now.

Arriving at Diki's house, her mother greeted with a shocked look. It was rare for his son to come home with a cut on his face. Sorry, it all happened because he knew me.

"sorry aunt, it's all because of me" I said regretfully.

"didn't you hit Diki?" Ask the middle-aged woman. Worrying just like my mom, I used to when I was a kid.

I shook my head to hear it, I didn't hit him but he was hit because of me.

"in that case you don't have to apologize" she replied. Even her mother was very nice. He helped me get Diki to sit on the living room couch. He checked his son carefully. There must have been a lot of injuries there, he grimaced to see Diki's cheeks that were now starting to bruise. He took out a medicine box that looked almost new. Their families are rarely hurt. I want to help him, because it doesn't feel good to make him battered like this but I'm not helping anything. But the woman brushed my hand away slowly.

"Here let the mother treat. Alana has to go home, now it's afternoon" he continued. Thanks, I have to hurry now.

Diki looked at me with a hard-to-understand look. Yes already. I'll talk to him again tomorrow.

"then I say goodbye to auntie" I said politely before stepping into school again.

I went back to the roof to confirm Ananta's whereabouts. And of course, he was no longer there. He must be mad at me. I have done something evil because of prejudice.

I stared sadly at the now-empty roof of the school. Twilight looks beautiful from here, but now it feels so different when I see it alone. I usually see him with Shinta. He would tease me as a twilight child because I was stirring myself when I saw a tinge of orange in the sky. Those moments, after this really cannot happen again.

I still can't believe our friendship will be over so soon. I did not realize, it turns out that strange and intelligent silly women at the same time that I could also miss.

Already, already. It's time to find Ananta. After losing Shinta, I don't want to lose Ananta either. Either we'll be friends again or whatever I want to stay with Ananta.

I'm back in the bike parking lot. There's an umbrella in my basket. I looked up at the sky again.

"do what. It's not raining today." I said blankly. The umbrella was useless today.

But wait, this umbrella is the umbrella I threw the day I saw Ananta and Bu Lita by the lake. Why is he here again. There's no way Ananta could have picked it up. Make what?

I opened it, the pattern was the same. It's the same umbrella. Does this mean Ananta did take it back? then he put it here too?

I walked slowly as I walked out of the school gate. Still a little dumb and a little bit in disbelief. So, Ananta knew I was following him that day?