
Azka visits for the second time to where Eva works. Already a few days after Nagita's return he felt a nightmare and also seemed to be pursued with his mistake. Some time after waiting for the woman to finish work, he immediately followed Eva's footsteps which led her into his room.
"So you want to kill it's a baby?"
"My intentions are very round, Va."
"Az, try thinking again! Not that I don't want to help you. Just think again, who knows after this fall God does not love you descendants again. In the sense of *****lo is not normal. You still can't have any more children, not to mention that women can be given a chance to get pregnant," Azka took a deep breath digesting what Eva said. "But you know for yourself. I don't love him,"
"Az, talking about love can be later. Not just because you're pregnant with him. Keep on having reasons not in love. Lo make love using lust love too right? ****** so bad if you say there is no love. That's how you made love to him,"
"Lo doesn't really understand. My position right now is not safe. How are my parents?"
"Risk of your own. Anyway, why can you be so stupid about it, my advice is responsibility,"
"Not going to,"
"As far as lo. I just don't want to do that later on. Az, the person I have helped here is the person who defended his life and willing to abort the womb. Sometimes there are those who defensible content and his mother died so love the child, and you still think to waste your own flesh blood? Bayangin one time you become a father, your son welcomed you home from work. Or it could be if the child is maintained and still wants to live on the power of God. Then she lived with her mother, both again. Without lo, who is the father? There is a heart that you are sick, first the woman may not be married again because of trauma and care for her child well. Second, the child. He does not know who his father is, continue to feel good with your wife someday. Your whole life will be haunted by regrets,"
Azka folded her hands together in front of her chest, "I have no responsibility. Bodo very much he wants to take care, I will move. I don't want my life to be a mess because of that kid and that girl,"
"Think? It makes him suffer. Humming your child, getting pregnant is the most painful time and morning sickness that makes people sometimes limp. Not strong, there are those who suck because of the strong road. His future is ruined because of you. Do you want to be*******for him?"
"Gue's here to ask for a solution. Not a fight,"
"Gue doesn't agree you're pregnant. No matter what, I won't help you, I've changed my mind,"
He snorted in annoyance and went straight out to go home soon.
****
"Daddy, sorry Daddy. Daddy's sick, I beg Daddy, I promise I'll never misbehave Daddy,"
"Can't, you'll make trouble later,"
"Daddy, please Daddy this is very sick. I can't breathe, Daddy if Daddy doesn't love me
same with me, please love Mommy. Mommy's had enough to endure the pain of Daddy."
"Do you know anything about me?"
"Daddy wicked. Daddy's a bad guy, Daddy's affection can't be bought with Daddy's money. If Daddy wants me to go, I go Daddy. I'm picking Mommy."
He woke up for the last time with the same dream. This incident he has often felt. He should not have thought about it, but the nightmare seemed to attack him and did not give him permission to sleep well all night.
"Dear Azka wake up! Open door!"
The sound of her mother's sobbing was able to make Azka immediately come out of her room and immediately meet the woman.
"What the hell is it, Ma?"
"Your sister is suicidal. She hasn't been able to accept her miscarriage and losing her baby, call your sister-in-law to come home!"
"Sir, what are you doing anyway?"
"Son, I can't do the same thing. How did Mas Fatir find another woman again?"
"Don't think no. You can still get pregnant again" she tried to calm her sister down. With all his efforts and managed to calm his sister Azka hugged the woman lovingly. His heart was so sliced when he saw the wound on his sister's arm being scratched. Lost his sister.
A few days after he put his sister to sleep. Azka came out with her mother.
"Az, if you marry and have a wife, please take good care. Mama hope you can have a wife who can really take care of her content. Your sister's depressed over the miscarriage,"
"Why is it like that?"
"When someone miscarriages it hurts. Not only his stomach hurts, his heart will also feel lacerated. Failure because you feel unable to maintain the content will certainly approach,"
"Well, have you ever done anything?"
"Earlier. To get pregnant in you alone mama wait a long time. Papa's starting to change. Mama thought papa would find another woman, but instead papa still made mama. Until you are present, so please never hurt anything else for a crying woman!"
He just nodded and agreed to what his mother said. But out there is a woman who is carrying a baby that she herself does not know whether the woman will really take care of her child or just make things happen.
****
"Gue's getting married, Nagita,"
"What's? Lo seriously? No more dreams, right?" Damar was shocked when he snatched a statement from Azka. All he knew was that it would never be his responsibility to father a baby conceived by Nagita.
"First I was haunted by the same dream of a child who begged me. Second, my sister miscarried. Third, I fear that I will not be able to produce another child when God chastises me for wanting to shed my own flesh and blood, I know that he is present by mistake. But I'll be responsible, at least he's got a father's identity, after responsibility. I'm not sure I can fall in love. Yes, I will take responsibility, after Nagita. I continued to take care of my son, Nagita's education stopped because of that. After the child is born, he will continue to go to college. With the note I took my son,"
"Front of the same, Dimas! Your intentions aren't good,"
"Gue will say. So I'm gonna admit,"
"Lo's never seen, Dimas's mad?"
"Whatever. The important thing is I want that responsibility to be enough,"
"Let's not shallow. Rich but****, handsome but a jerk."
Azka just shrugged her two shoulders marked that she did not care about Damar's words.