
In the garden, sit down
the figure of the mother and child who was about three and a half years old. A child
small with distinctive brown eyes with very pliable eyelashes, and
her tiny body made anyone anxious to see her. With hair
the cat is two and a shirt and pants up to the thighs cover his body.
Following his move
from abroad, and began living in a residential area with his mother. Child
the little girl is Syakila, the little angel of life to her mother. The only treasure
who owned after leaving the man who was pregnant first. It doesn't
hold him accountable. But leaving just leaves a man
that was because he realized that the heart of the man who had fucked him was no longer
for him, but for his son and wife, that woman was Deana. Which now
she had a daughter who was in an accident,
which is where Azka doesn't use safety when making love to her inside
drunkenness and producing Syakila. Deana's blood rippled, as she recalled
the incident where she left Azka while she was pregnant, there was no news that she
leave it for the man. She went far and even gave birth in Japan
along with his friend who financed him. The friend who financed him lived
there was Atha, a man who loved him very much. But Deana
he chose himself because he wanted to make amends. First he has
destroying one's household, secondly he will make Syakila happy
alone without the intervention of the child's parents.
Deana is accompanying
Syakila plays in the park to introduce the outside world. Because while in
Jjapanese. The boy never came out because he always left it to the owner
the house he rented while there. Although Atha has given me an apartment,
but Deana always tried to finance all the needs of Syakila with
working hard for the child
that's. Several times Atha offered to Deana to become the father of
her child. But the woman continued to refuse because she did not want to one day
Syakila knows whose real father he is. However, Deana's intention back is
because he missed his old place. He still has an apartment
given by Azka, even he also owned a house that he bought with
own savings.
A ball
rolling at Syakila's feet, the boy turned to Deana and looked
a boy was chasing the ball.
“Main yuk, name adek
who?” Deana only smiled when she saw the boy.
“Kila, sister ciapa?”
“Know me Reynand,
call Rey. Would you like to play ball with?”
Instantly the boy
looking towards him. “Ma, can ya?” his permission. Deana smiles, “Bby darling,
play with Rey,”
Deana sat down
the tree in the garden.
Look to familiarity
his daughter with Rey, Deana will try to invite Syakila often
to play in the park to be able to socialize with others. That park
not too crowded because the clock still shows working hours and people
still active. Deana accidentally brought Syakila to that place for her son
can be a little more familiar, because during there he never found a friend
play for his son as he is today. Life there is very
different, and that's what makes Deana want to return to Indonesia soon.
“The eyes of the child are similar
you, Azka. I have never met you again. But I
hoping that we'll never meet again, because I don't want you
knowing that Syakila is your child, maybe it used to be a mistake where
we never care about the feelings of any woman, if it has been binding
with a relationship, then our betrayal will always grow.
And just this time I thought about what it was like to be Nagita while pregnant
you stay for me, but now I'm leaving you, so that you
have a gap to make your child and wife happy. Although I should be the
wounded. We once loved each other, were wrong in taking action
we end up with a huge sin in life. If I
is a time traveler, I want you to stay happy with Nagita, make her
smiling without ever making her cry. Maybe this is what it feels like to share, ah
I was wrong, it's not sharing. This time I was the loser. And Nagita
is the winner of any match between defending you
and leaving you, when choosing to leave you, of course I have
think this a thousand times so that no one is ever disappointed. Maybe you are
also have to understand, Syakila did often ask her Papa. But believe me
Azka, I will never destroy you like I used to, Syakila is
mine. Although he exists because of us, but your son and Nagita are much more
important happiness, Syakila I can still control alone.” Prattling
talking to himself.
Deana sighed
long and looking at the surrounding area, many children were dating in
parkland. He remembered how foolish he had been when he had taken Azka from a man
the woman whose heart is so tender that even Deana is not a hypocrite about kindness
Nagitas. He knew that the woman was very good, still able to give
the opportunity will be, because he knows that Azka came to him because
venting his lust when Nagita left the man
separating Azka from her son.
Syakila ran to
the direction is with sweat pouring, “Mama's son is tired?”
“Iya Ma. Ma wanted
drink,”
“Ya we've been there
yuk! We buy drinks for Kila, yes?”
That little boy
nodding slowly. And Deana was holding him. He never regretted
syakila has been born, even since the presence of the child in her womb,
he is aware of all his past sins. Sins where that time was not
ever imagined by him. But now he is so grateful since his presence
As if her life had changed.
“Kak Reynand mana, mana,
Syakila?”
“Picked up Daddy said transparent at take home.”
Deana smiled and
smirking Syakila's cheeks very fatigued. “Something you meet too baby,
but that doesn't mean he'll know that you're his son, you'll just
meet, I don't know when. Even in a dream, but will meet
anyhow, God is fair dear.” He murmured in his heart.
They both approached
a traveling ice cream salesman. Deana gives me a choice
his son before they returned home. The reason he did not want to go back
her apartment is not wanting to remember her past there along with her
Azka.
“Ma, later ajakin Kila play to Kak Ley house huh?” say the boy
with its distinctive lisp sound. Deana pinches her son's chubby cheeks
eating ice cream. “Pastinya dear, later meet Rey often here
yeah, Mama must be ajakin. Ohya was Kila see her parents Rey's sister?”
“See Ma. Gorgeous, pretty,
tell Daddy Ley's sister said Kila
that's beautiful Ma. Mommy Ley's sister
beautiful, good also Ma,”
“Because Syakila child
Mama is beautiful, Mommy is the same Daddy Kak Rey is right baby. Ohya spend
the ice cream, keep us going home, bobby afternoon huh, baby?”
“Iya Ma.”
*****
At Azka's residence, Rey keeps telling me
Syakila, a friend she had just met in their residential area garden. Nagitas
and Azka only listened to her son who kept on babbling and asking to
keep meeting that little girl. Since the first time I saw him,
Nagita was already very anxious with the boy. Especially when his words
fairly gentle and polite. He also heard that the boy was new
I'm back from Japan and I will
settled in Indonesia. The child is still very foreign to
the association here. Because maybe how to educate her different there until
Nagita was amazed by the little boy.
“Syakila is funny huh
Mas?”
“Terus?”
“Yes nothing, just
tell me anyway. I want to have a girl later if given the same
God,”
“Where we want to be in
kasih Nagita's. We have never tried, every time we want it, there are obstacles. Exceedingly
this boy, who he said he wanted a sister but did not want to be far from Daddy,” replied Azka while tickling
rey's stomach until the boy laughed because he felt very amused on the part
her stomach. Azka herself is still enjoying her moment with Rey
and also Nagita who is getting better and better, even if he used to see her
just don't want to, in contrast to now who might just make himself
always anxious to be next to Nagita. Even romantic moments are often
bullied by Rey, just by hugging, she feels peace, every Rey
home school Azka now busies herself by taking time. Especially Nagita
which he has now forbidden to take care of his cake shop.
“Mommy Rey wants to bob the afternoon,” complained the boy made Azka shake her head
with Rey's spoiled manner.
“Can be bobbed alone no dear?” nagita Pinta
“He deh. But don't
everywhere ya Rey would not want if Mommy same Daddy not at home,”
“Here is dear,
we're both here. But Mommy wants to
will be back to the office again, now Rey bobok there!”
The boy nodded and
straight to his room. The two of them were still sitting in the living room.
“I take a shower first, Mas. Sultry
bang,”
“I'm coming to the room, please,
rest before turning back,”
“You also did
home everything?”
“Can't do that? I don't
want to protest with Rey because there is no more time for him like time
that,”
“Ya already, whatever
you go, Mas.” They both walked towards the room, but before that they
go to Rey's room and it appears that the boy is sleeping very well. They
both went straight into the room. Nagita who immediately passed away left
Azka to the bathroom because she felt her body was very sticky as a result
the heat in the park was accompanying Rey to play. But Nagita did not
ever feel burdened all this time must follow the spoiled behavior of his son and
always fails to enjoy his moment of romance with Azka. He realized no
like before, if first every time Azka wanted to be alone, of course he was direct
fulfilling it. But now it's different, because the boy does have a little
time with Azka first. Nagita now tries to fulfill everything
what Rey wants.
Finish the shower he came out
by wrapping a towel to cover part of his body and dry
her hair. Meanwhile Azka lay on her bed closed
his eyes with his arms.
“You take a shower, Mas.”
“Bent in. I'm going to bed
just a minute,”
Nagita did not respond
again Azka's words. She was focused on drying her hair with a towel before
dry it with a hair dryer. Occasional
Nagita glanced at the mirror looking at Azka's already slumbering state,
sometimes Nagita feels very sorry if Azka keeps trying to
take time for Rey. But what else, because of her husband
stubborn and always do what he wants. Without caring what
what others say, even what Nagita wants is never obeyed
if you ask him to rest.
Her hair
completely dried up, Nagita wore clothes just like that. But when I want
wearing her clothes, Azka suddenly hugged her from behind and it was a shock
making Nagita surprised by the behavior of Azka who was sleeping.
“You deliberately changed
my front shirt keeps naked?”
“You're going to sleep, so
I wear it here, Mas. Why are you awake?”
“Darling, I can't
sleep when you see everything off, want ya?”
“Apaan?”
“That,”
“That's what?”
“Yes,” Azka trying
explain by giving the code with both hands that are still circular
in Nagita's stomach.
Nagita direct
turned around and looked fixedly into Azka's eyes. Both of his hands were placed in
neck Azka. Nagita did not say a word when Azka began to kiss her,
slowly the man pushed him to the edge of the bed.
“It's still daylight,”
“Yes is okay. Rather than
we've always been blocked by Rey, haven't we. I don't want Nagita anymore, come on!”
Nagita blushed in embarrassment, though,
her cheeks blushed red as Azka kissed her. Slowly Nagita's body was laid on
on the bed, Azka used every inch of her body to kiss. Been a long time
she didn't feel her husband's fondness until she felt so awkward
with that mood. Even a few times when Azka wanted to take off the t-shirt
Nagita was wearing earlier, she immediately reacted to hold Azka's hand and shook her head
as if he had not dared to entrust it to Azka. Though they already
husband and wife status, but it always makes Nagita not convinced.
“Why?” Azka seen
despondent.
“You have to promise one
hal, you won't leave me and Rey, especially later if it's me
pregnant. I'm afraid you're gone and I'm beating this whole thing myself again,”
“If I don't
love you, for what I have endured for five years and continue to
fighting for our marriage until this very moment, this is all for your sake and also
Rey,”
“But I'm scared,”
“Fear why?”
“To be exact, I'm not
dreaded. But I'm nervous, shy,”
“Sama, even me
awkward when we're like this. Because it's like we're strangers who will
doing so, it felt very awkward Nagita. I also understand
that's because you never do it again after you give birth, but I
promise to make you comfortable. Not going to hurt especially for that
the same with you,”
Nagita nodded slowly
it was as if it was the first time for him, yet the awkwardness remained
it wasn't lost until Azka kissed her neck and Nagita tried to hold back the feeling
unfortunately when Azka opened the shirt attached to her body. Until when Azka took off
last fabric. Nagita closed her eyes with both hands.
“Why close your eyes?”
“Too,”
“I quit if
you don't want to, Nagita. I don't want to give up my will if that
makes you uncomfortable,”
Nagita starts
plies his face.
“Do! I don't want to
you're tormented again,”
Until finally Azka
completely keeping his promise of touching her with gentleness was different from the one
back then. It's so much softer now.
****
Seeing the Nagita
sleeping next to her, Azka kissed Nagita on the forehead. After fasting for so long
now he can take it all out. “Tetap be a mother to my children,
even if we're given another chance, I want the only woman
it was you who contained it.’
Azka moved from
his bed was about to clean itself from the sweat that was pouring in
his body. He went straight to the bathroom and he kept smiling because
that incident. Now he will not fast again for a long time. Nagita has been
fulfilling his duty to serve Azka.
After the shower, it
immediately dressed neatly. “I'm leaving, thank you dear.”
Azka kissing forehead
Nagita and just leave. He was very happy that day
I convinced Nagita. One needs proof, not just promises
just keep saying.
Azka arrived at one of the
restaurant for lunch. He wanted to have lunch at home, but his wife and
his son is asleep. Eventually, he decided to have lunch
out there. With his age of thirty-four, Azka is now more intelligent
to love his wife does not play woman anymore. Especially because of Rey
always touch it about the time together. Sometimes that makes it
feeling sad because they cannot accompany the growth of the little one.
He just went in
the restaurant and hit someone.
“Sorry,” says woman
that's.
“Deana?”
The woman looked over
and Azka was surprised by what she saw. That was the woman who ever
leaving it for the second time. “You
where to?”
“Sorry, Az. I exist
business,”
“Why you disappeared
that time? I just want to know,”
“Because every time
we make love, you always say Nagita's name. That's what makes you satisfied
with my answer?”
Azka took off her check
towards Deana and immediately nodded. Nagita was right that he shouldn't have been
given the events of the past, he will try to let go of everything. Especially when
deana is the most comfortable home to go home to
as long as Nagita leaves her. Azka looked at the woman away
leave him.
Azka went straight into
restaurant. “I'll try to get everything straight, for your sake Nagita.”