
Azka woke up from
sleeping, he was no longer in a state of embracing Nagita. I don't know
I feel like women are different. Or he is the one who has actually been
playing with fire behind his wife. Azka turned her body so as to
on his back, the position that had been lying on his stomach suddenly recumbent and staring
room ceiling. Azka felt pain while remembering the incident
he betrayed his wife. But one position, he loved so much
Nagita, the other side he wants Deana too. The former love
ever made him bend his knees. At the moment, Nagita's attitude is very
changed, the woman who always wakes him up with a kiss. In order to
the first time not doing that.
He got up from the place
sleep and pull the towel that is already hanging. Cleansing
linger in the bathroom and may feel good
to him. Azka was really worried about her own feelings. Can't really
believing in yourself with one feeling. Why all that
happened to her? He should be able to take care of his wife's heart
contain.
A few moments after
baths. He comes out of his room and finds Nagita with his mother
the kitchen is preparing breakfast. Without caring for her mother, she hugged
Nagita from behind. Drown his head on his wife's neck and
rubbed the stomach of his wife who will soon give birth. "Sorry,"
that's all that came out of his mouth. His voice was so dull to remember
last night's events. But what can be done when Deana teases him.
He really can't control his own desires.
Nagita felt it
azka's heavy breathing fell silent. Let hugs
her husband was still tightly gripped. At first glance he saw his mother-in-law only
shakes and smiles. He still appreciates
her in-laws. And let Azka not know what happened
overnight.
"Mas, there's mama,"
"Just a second, baby,"
Azka really isn't
know to position himself like much less when there are two women
in his life that he loved so much.
Without a second thought Nagita let go of Azka's embrace and left her to the dinner table. The man still stood stiff.
Azka was confused
with feeling. Should he let go of Deana and mean it
love Nagita, or should she let go of Nagita, the woman who
it gave him happiness. But there's always Deana
in her heart. When with Deana, he will completely forget
own wife.
He's leaning in the fridge
looking at his wife. The woman seemed to be walking hard with
the growing stomach. Azka took a deep breath. He too
he stepped into the dining room and held his wife's hand. "Mas wants
by the way,"
Nagita looked over, "What the hell, Mas?" the woman could still smile as her heart was already made to break.
Azka looked into his wife's eyes which looked a little puffy. "Come to the room! I'm gonna talk!"
"I'm busy" Nagita brushed Azka's hand off. Things Azka never expected.
"Nagita, your attitude has changed!"
"Your feelings are, Mas,
I never changed at all. It's still like before, it's still so
the wife you always make happy. Still like-" her voice choked.
Azka who heard that fell silent.
"Nagita! what's going on?"
"It's okay, Mom. I've been lazy lately. My stomach hurts a little,"
"Let's go to the doctor, I don't want you to do anything about Nagita!"
"No. Thank you,"
Novi saw his son-in-law
so feeling so sorry. The woman could still hold
self and not saying rude. Just shut up, not saying anything.
It is not even offensive about Azka's lies. Novi stared
his son with a meaningful look. Wish his beloved son
be sensitive to what is happening.
Azka didn't want to
forcing what Nagita does not want, she pulls a chair
and sit down immediately. His wife continues to serve very
good. It was clearly seen in his wife's eyes that the woman
crying out. Azka stared fixedly, but it was as if they had never met
eyes though.
The father came down from
her room. Followed by Naura and her husband. Azka was planning
wanted to go to the office that morning to undo his intention because he did not want to happen
nothing with his wife. But with Nagita's attitude like that, azka
worry more.
Breakfast also began.
Which is usually noisier with their conversations all about work and
daily activities. Everything looks tight. There is nothing more
conversation at all. Azka stared at everything one by one
take turns. It was as if people did not care about his presence.
"Gita, we'll be home in the afternoon,"
The woman looked.
And immediately nodded. Azka really could not understand
that woman's feelings. A little spoiled, even cold.
This time, he did not understand the situation. He just kept quiet
without saying anything.
"Ma, Pa, Brother Naura, Brother Reno, Gita first yes,"
Azka looked at his wife
who didn't greet him that morning. Nagita went straight to her room and
door locking. Behind the door, he leaned his body and
crying out. Who knew that in there he was crying.
Azka was about to move from her seat. But just arrested by Naura. He sat down and continued his breakfast.
"What is it all about?"
"What's the big brother?" Reno.
"meaning?"
"Stop
playing with women's feelings. Does your own brother not understand
too? Already so far brother hurt his own wife, what
what to hide again? Is Brother Azka satisfied with that bitch? Satisfied
fucked the woman without having to think that there was a wife here
the brother who is bearing the fruit of that depraved nature?"
Azka got up from her seat and immediately pulled the collar of Reno's shirt. "Who do you call a bitch a jerk?"
Reno brushes Azka's hand and allows her shirt collar to fall apart.
"Never touch Naura's husband and dirty her with that jerk,"
"Naura, quiet!" said her mother cold.
Azka was upset with
it just went away. He was about to enter his room.
But he heard Nagita sobbing and he sat behind the door. Azka
believe that the woman is behind the door. They
turn one another. Azka sat there while continuing to listen to the sobbing
his wife.
"Darling, Mama should
hows it? Mama's tired, Mama's got to hold on for you. Mama doesn't want to
fighting alone without Papa. But how is it? It hurts, honey.
Mama's sorry I can't stand Papa. Mama's heart hurts, baby.
Hey hotshot, hurry out. After that Mama promised you'd be happyin,
Mama won't take Papa anymore. Honey, Mama's gonna get you
alone. I'm sorry that one day you have to be separated from your Papa because
Mamma. It's for your own good, too, Mama doesn't want you to arrive
why-why. Especially if you are disturbed by a problem that you are not
can face it,"
Azka leaned her head against the door, she lifted her knees and put her right hand.
"Mama promise, after
you were born thinking away from Papa's life. Mama knew Papa never
will fight together. Mama knows maybe Mama can't give you
luxury goods, but Mama promises to meet all your needs. Crackerjack
Mama, you have to fight. For Mama's sake, even though you never
know who your Papa is, at least in the stomach, you already feel
papa's Presence. Mama can't hold on, we got Om Dimas baby.
It was the only family Mama had. Where Mom came home, maybe later
Mama will know him to eyeang. But Mama didn't promise to know Papa."
The voice was not heard for a long time. Azka was silent, her tears suddenly dripped.
"I've come so far
it betrayed you, Nagita. What I do outside as you
feel it here. I know Nagita, you were never happy with me.
But deep down in my heart, I love you, you never know
that, it's just that somehow sometimes I falter, precisely I am
the worst people hurt you. You should know, I love you
you, even though I did not reveal. Sorry, I have to take everything out
on another woman. I have other women, all
just impingement. Even though I love him, you mess up often
my thoughts. When I look for the woman, the fear is always
there, when I was away from the woman, I felt like I was pretending
I love you because my heart and mind are on him. Honest, though,
i'm happy. Our child, how to face the two hearts that must be
I love you at once?" he murmured inwardly and continued to lean behind the door. Azka got up from her seat and just passed by.
"Jaga Nagita, Ma!"
"Azka, where are you going?"
"Go, Ma."
"Azka, never
you meet that woman again! You are not lying enough to Nagita
yesterday on the grounds of meeting a client, instead you met with Deana?
He saw it Azka. Now especially? Not satisfied with you?"
Azka's body was petrified. Now he realized that what happened to Nagita was that all of it had its source.
"Ma, Azka wants to end it all with Deana. Azka will end this relationship, Ma. Nagita I've had enough to suffer,"
Novi saw a son
his beloved cried out to allow. All this time he never
seeing her son cry like that. Even when many Azka's thoughts
I often go home drunk. But at that time, it was Novi
seeing her son shed tears and calling Nagita by name
so soft.
******
Azka arrived at the apartment
Deana. Just when he entered, he found the woman sleeping with the man
others. Azka had always believed in Deana, precisely the woman
betray him just like that.
"Good!"
Deana glared straight at me
surprised to see Azka who came so early. He closed his body
with a blanket while the man over there was still asleep.
"Azka I can clear it,"
"Good, Deana. Cunning woman like you I shouldn't have believed from the beginning,"
"You can be alone with your wife, Azka while I? I'm just your backup, did you forget that?"
"self-conscious, right? If all this time you are just a lustful satisfier. From this very second, don't ever bother my life again, Deana!"
"What's fair to me? Ye
having a wife, you're the same as him. While me? I don't
get close to any guy, you're selfish."
"Don't have to give up your body, too? How much do you need money? What's less than me?"
"Azka, I can explain. Please terrorize,"
"Before you speak, clean up the remaining sperm in your stomach! Or should I go? We broke up, Deana."
"No, I don't take it, Azka."
"just right? I'm the same
my wife, did I ever make you that dirty? That's disgusting
when you see all your bodies are filled with that mark. I'm sick of it, Deana.
Enough already!"
"Azka, stop!" scream Deana.
"Fortunately I always
use safety when making love, right? So I didn't dump my sperm on
the wrong woman. Nagita's lucky, but I'm blind in love.
All this time I hurt my wife, it was you, damn it!"
Azka turned around and slammed the door of the room and just passed by. And he had reason to get away from Deana right then and there.
Azka drives happily when she manages to give up her love. He had to go home, to the woman who was always patient with him.
He arrived home and
ran straight to his room. There, he found the woman
he was looking for a bed. Azka immediately nodded and
apologizing.
"Sorry, i. Nagita, I'm sorry,"
Nagita lowered her head looking at her husband who was hugging her legs. Nagita sat at the end of the bed.
"Mas, what's wrong with you?"
"I'm sorry. Because it hurt your feelings,"
Nagita fell silent, "Let's get up, Mas,"
"I'm sorry already
playing behind your back, I admit, I have another woman.
I didn't know it would be like this, Nagita. I'm sorry,"
Nagita helps Azka stand up. "Sorry Nagita too, Mas. Gita can't yet, give Gita time to believe the same, Mas!"
Azka held both cheeks
Nagita and tried to kiss the woman. But unfortunately Nagita
avert his eyes. Azka understood the reason Nagita refused. He too
kissed his wife's forehead. I don't feel her tears falling back.
He hugged his wife tightly.
"Mas, are you crying?"
"Like this for a second, just,"
Nagita did not return the hug at all.
"Mas, pity darn. Don't hold her tight!"
"Make of what
your liver? You are not talking about painful things. You still can
calm down in such circumstances. What is my heart made of? When I wanted
loving you is being tempted by another woman. Why my heart
looking at other women, when the woman in front of me is
such a perfect woman was sent by God to complete me.
Why am I just realizing all that now? When trust in him
been destroyed. But he's still doing fine." Mumbled.
Sometimes a lot
someone felt fine even though his heart was so hurt. Selecting
a smile hides a cry. They choose to lie to others and
torturing himself to let people know he was okay. Although well
it's just a pretend thing.
"Mas, swimming!"
Azka.
"But Mas, go swimming!"
For the second time Azka nodded.
"I'm sorry, if Gita hasn't
I can trust completely the same. You dare to lie. So Gita
I've got to train you first not to lie,"
"thank you."
"Come, Mas. We have to get down, we're swimming. No one can cry anymore."
"I'm sorry for the
my attitude should also be pretend. So how do I
accept everything? I'm fucking you, you're betraying me. I love you, you
destroy the. I'm so sure of you. You make a mess.
Sometimes what comes does not always settle. What began
it will end badly. It will not end with
blissfully. Sorry if my feelings are starting to fade. Sorry if that feeling is not
can survive. I'll leave, when all you think is fine,
I'm willing to get hurt. For our sake that will end, later." –Nagita.