Luccane
Chapter 58: The Harsh Decision

Early in the morning, not even at seven in the morning I had tidied up my appearance preparing to meet someone making Andri look at me questioningly.

"Where are you going with such a neat appearance?" andri asked him as soon as I came out of the room.

I smiled faintly as I fixed my hair ties, "want to go finish what I should have done for a long time, Andri."

Both of Andri's eyebrows swooped suspiciously, looking at me in disbelief after hearing my answer.

"What should you have done for a long time? What's what?" Andri again asked impatiently, making a crackle of laughter escape my lips just like that.

"I want to go see Mr. Sajad, I think it's time I close my inner eyes so that I can be completely detached from all these wounds. My relationship with Luccane was not appropriate for me to continue from the beginning so I think this is the best decision" I replied with a smile, trying to convince my beloved cousin to trust me this time.

Andri smiled in relief, stretching out both of her hands giving me room to strengthen myself a little more through her embrace.

Both of my legs automatically run, into the warm embrace of Andri who has always been able to give me a little relief and calm.

Although hard, inevitably I have to make this decision for my own good.

Although I really love Luccane but I also have to give happiness to myself. It was a hard choice, but there was no other choice I could make.

"I know you're strong, Visha. Take this decision for your own happiness and I will always be by your side at any time" whispered Andri affirmatively trying to calm my heart.

Although tears keep melting from both my eyes, but I will not back down.

The decision that I will take is indeed I have been thinking for a night to not sleep in order to be able to consider everything well.

And yes, finally this final decision I took for the good of me and also Luccane which I hope is now calm in nature, a place that should have long been a place for him to return.

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"So, Neng Visha is already convinced by this decision?" asked Mr. Sajad after I conveyed my intentions and goals that came to see him.

I nodded firmly. "I think it's time, sir I don't want to continue to be burdened because of my forbidden feelings of love."

"Alright then, we can start the procession of ruqyah after the prayer of zhuhur if Neng already feels really sure to do it," final Pak Sajad.

Considering that the prayer time will arrive soon, I immediately went to the ablution room to purify myself from the small hadas. In my heart, my feelings really felt uneasy being enveloped by a feeling of uneasiness.

"Luccane, I'm doing all this for the good of both of us. It's a pity that Vin can't accept the rewards of all his evil deeds" I muttered after finishing washing myself with ablution water.

Although the murder of many victims has been proven by Vin, but the police could not snare the man with a sentence on the grounds of a deadline that had been too long and various other legal reasons that I could not understand.

Too bad, he did not get the proper punishment for what he had done in the past made me very angry.

I stepped into the mosque along with the chanting of the sound of the azan zhuhur who had reverberated.

My hands put up the face in a hurry, while filling the existing shaft to follow the congregational prayer service.

The coolness of the aura inside this house of worship made the worries in my heart subside a little.

I followed the worship solemnly, increasing the gratitude from the heart.

After all my worship clothes, Mr. Sajad came to me with two girls who were like my age.

One of the girls was carrying a large bottle of mineral water, while the other was carrying the holy book of the Qur'an.

"Let's start the ruqyah procession, sister Visha. We will help, my name is Rini and this is my sister is Rika" said Rini, sitting next to me.

I nodded in understanding, following the directions from Rini and Rika. While Mr. Sajad began to read the holy book of the Qur'an so melodious that it made my heart even more relieved.

"Well, now Neng Visha close your eyes. You will immediately begin the process of ruqyah closing your inner eye," said Mr. Sajad gently gave directions to me.

Without answering I closed my eyes, hoping that everything would be fine soon.

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The dark night sky welcomed my return to the Mang Ujang family home this time.

Mang Ujang, Bibi and Andri were waiting for me at the porch with smiles on their faces.

"Did the ruqyah go well?" andri asked shortly after I entered the porch.

I nodded with a sense of dilemma, now that I officially cannot see the astral beings because my inner eyes have been completely closed.

"Alhamdulillah then. Now we go in and have dinner, Neng" said the soft Aunt as she led myself into the house.

I really did not expect now to no longer be able to feel let alone see those from the opposite dimension.

Mang Ujang house that usually looks crowded by invisible entities now only looks like an ordinary old house in my eyes.

"So, Neng Visha closed her inner eyes completely?" asked Mang Ujang while helping Bibi arrange the dishes on the dining table.

"Yes, Mang. Visha thought it was the most appropriate decision to be completely free from their invisible interference" I said, pouring water into my glass.

"Yes already then. Mamang hopes that the next life of Neng Visha can run better" said Mang Ujang.

I hope so too, though my feelings for Luccane will never change.

I still love that handsome ghost youth even though now my inner eyes have been closed perfectly thanks to the help of Mr. Sajad.

With those mixed feelings, I still forced myself to have dinner.

My body felt tired to remember so much energy from my body that was drained due to the ruqyah procession I was living earlier.

"Eat a lot, Visha. Now your energy must be drained almost completely" said Andri sage, bringing a large plate of warm fried chicken to me.

I smiled gratefully, trying to enjoy the delicious food that Auntie had made wholeheartedly.

I don't know what I would be if there was no Mang Ujang family who always gave me this sincere support.

Although with a heavy heart, I have to close my love story with Luccane completely while always praying for all the best for him.