Luccane
Chapter 37: Weeping the Purple Rose

Heavy rain that flushed the city of Bandung without stopping since the early hours of this day made me cancel all my activities outside the house including college.

The lecturers also canceled their classes today because many students complained that they could not attend the campus today considering that several highways were also flooded.

If this is so, do not want the lecture schedule, everything must be canceled.

I sat on the bed, alone in the room looking out the window enjoying the distinctive smell of rain that greeted my sense of smell. The loneliness that now envelops me, it feels so painful and creates a sense of emptiness in my heart.

This heart continued to call out Luccane's name regretfully, making me feel even more miserable and worse again and again.

Although I kept trying to wake myself up that I and Luccane would never be able to unite, my heart still called out the name Luccane without feeling tired.

"When should I do this?" I muttered, holding a small figura containing a black and white photo of Luccane.

In the photo Luccane appears to smile thinly but very charming with a short-sleeved white shirt and bow tie that adorns his neckline. Very handsome, it was the photo that I liked the most in my entire life.

Although the photo does not have color, it can still describe how handsome Luccane really well.

This photo I always use to take off my longing for Luccane whenever the longing comes knocking on the door of the heart without permission

Forgetting and letting go is not easy. It was very difficult for me to give up my love and Luccane who would not be able to unite like water and fire.

The love in my mind keeps burning without me being able to control it makes me feel like I'm about to lose my sanity.

I don't know how long I've spent crying after that day.

My eyes appear blackened, a little reddish and swollen because I have cried too often.

"When are you going to cry like that?"

A soft voice that I so longed for now sounded out among the rumbling sounds of rain, making me hurriedly turn around.

And sure enough, a pair of netraku found Luccane standing in the doorway of my room in a black dress typical of the Dutch colonial era. The man smiled, even though his pair of beautiful blue obsidians were wet with tears.

I got up, then ran into Luccane's arms with tears in my eyes trying to release so many longings and burdens that I had been deeply alone.

"Why did you just come now?! Do you know how much I've suffered?!" I was angry in the middle of my crying and my breathing was stingy.

Luccane stretched his arms. "sorry me. There's a lot I have to take care of until I finally know that you intend to close your inner eyes."

I looked into Luccane's eyes with a demanding look. "in that case, explain everything to me without anything you need to cover up."

Luccane nodded resignedly. "alright, then let's listen to my story while sitting down."

I thought, pulling Luccane's hand to sit with me on the bed.

"Did Jansen ever tell you anything when I wasn't around?" luccane asked as soon as we sat down.

"Yes. Jansen said you used black magic to eliminate Jolanda, is that true?"

Luccane looked at me fixedly, grabbed both of my hands gently then.

"I was forced to do it because there was no other choice. I don't want anything bad to happen to you anymore" Luccane added with a worried face.

I understand why Luccane has been willing to go this far, all because he loves me so much.

But doesn't black magic always have a negative effect behind it?

"What did you trade to activate that black magic, Luccane? Doesn't such high-level black magic usually require a collision?" I bombarded Luccane with questions I had been waiting for so long.

Luccane lowered his gaze, his face instantly turning mellow.

"I traded it for my soul, Visha."

Both my eyes were in disbelief.

"What?! You're crazy, huh?! Why are you willing to exchange your soul to activate that black magic?"

Luccane smiled wryly. "what am I keeping my soul for, Visha? after all, I am also dead and I should have left this world."

The reply from Luccane made my cry instantly break again. I was moved and saddened to hear Luccane who had sacrificed so much for me, he was even willing to exchange his soul just to protect me from the Widow.

With a smile so sincere, Luccane tried to wipe away the trail of tears with both of his thumbs.

"You don't have to cry, baby. I'm fine, I did what I was supposed to do for you because I realized there was nothing else I could do but this to prove my love for you" Luccane said softly, bringing my body into its warm embrace.

I was crying all over, tired of constantly accepting this painful reality.

If Luccane had sacrificed his soul to perform the black magic ritual, then I didn't have as much time with him as before.

"This dead me should have been long gone either to heaven or hell. You don't have to cry like this, do you?" Luccane tried to persuade me to stop crying, but my tears still flowed as if I didn't want to stop.

My hands clasped tightly onto the figura containing the photo of Luccane, depicting so much of my love for him.

"I do what I deserve to do, so you have to live well, learn what is right and be the best pass," Luccane whispered softly, tucking a strand of my hair behind my ear.

"Thank you, Luccane. I will study properly until graduation and move on well if we can no longer meet," my great-grandson tried to control my wheezing breath.

"Good, I'm glad to hear that. You have to live well even though I can no longer be by your side. Thank you for loving me so incredibly, Vishabea Lazuardi."

I brushed away the trail of tears with the end of the long-sleeved shirt I was wearing, trying to stay firm.

"Yes, Luccane, while we still have the best time together."

Luccane nodded, showing off a wide smile that was as charming as ever.

Although our togetherness will not last long, but I will spend the time that is still there as well as possible so that no regrets are left behind.

Luccane rubbed the top of my head so gently. "clamp your eyes for a moment, it's been a long time since we went to the flower garden, right?"