Luccane
Chapter 35: The Great Doubt

"Sir, can I have a chat for a minute?" call a middle-aged man over to me, making me and Carly keep exchanging confused looks.

"What's up, sir?" I asked confusedly to the middle-aged man who was wearing all-white clothes and a turban on his head.

"Father, look at your dark aura, Neng. You've been in contact with 'figures' huh?"

Hearing that question, I nodded. At that time I was sure that the father was not just anyone because he could even notice the dark aura emanating from me.

"Huh? It's really dark, sir?" I was a little hesitant while looking at the father.

"If the relationship with 'the figure' is probably because I have the ability to see 'them', sir," I added.

The middle-aged man smiled meaningfully, looking at me straight.

"But Neng knows very well, right with what you're talking about?"

I gulped, lest this father know that I am in a relationship with Luccane who is indeed part of 'them' invisible?

"But before that introduce, the name of Mr. Sajad, one of the imams in this mosque."

After introducing each other, Mr. Sajad softly questioned how I could obtain such a dark aura.

"So this is it, sir. I know the 'figure' of Sinyo's men who turned out to be the original owners of the old rented house that I had been living in. He always treated me lovingly, not once did he do anything that harmed me" he said.

Mr. Sajad sighed. "that's exactly the case, neng. did other than 'he' you ever have a close relationship with another man?"

I shook my head slowly hearing a question from Mr. Sajad in response.

All this time after getting to know Luccane, I didn't even have the feeling of being attracted to the other men around me. I never felt a bit of interest in my mind when I saw a man other than Luccane.

What is, I even crave Luccane more when there are other men who try to attract my attention.

Brother Eliezer who was even the most bitter figure trying to attract my attention since I first entered college even now I heard that I was dating another girl from the Faculty of Law.

"You can relate to 'he' because you can see and communicate with them. You see 'he' is trying to keep you from getting in touch with other men by giving rise to this dark aura. If allowed to continue, you can be entangled in danger," said Mr. Sajad who clearly made me want Carly shocked to hear.

However, understandingly, Carly did not ask further about the statement from Mr. Sajad. I'll explain to him later more slowly.

"So what should I do, sir?" I asked worriedly, worrying about myself.

"If you want, we can remove the dark aura by ruqyah as soon as possible" replied Mr. Sajad.

"What do you think, Car?" now I'm asking you Carly, asking her for an opinion.

"It's better you're in ruqyah, Sha. I don't want you to do anything else," Carly said as she patted my shoulder faintly.

I nodded firmly, trying to get rid of all the doubts that were scrambling into my heart.

However, I must be firm and dare to take the best decision for my own life.

"All right then, sir. I want to be in Ruqyah today as well."

Mr. Sajad then invited me and Carly back into the mosque to do ruqyah.

I used the mucus given by Carly, after which Mr. Sajad began to chant the ruqyah verses from the holy book of the Qur'an out loud.

My whole body was in pain as if it were pierced by thousands of daggers, until my tears came out so fast. But I stayed, it was all for myself.

Cold sweat also wetted my body, a sign that there was so much energy that I released in this process.

Suddenly, my head felt very painful and heavy like it was hit by a mountain rock right above the crown of my head.

However, I haven't been able to ask what happened, I lost my consciousness.

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"Lo's okay?" the worried question posed by Carly opened up I was instantly grateful that I was alive today.

"Gue's okay, but my body feels all the pain. What's this, Carly?" I said that I tried to force myself to speak even though my whole body was feeling unusually weak.

From outside the mosque, Mr. Sajad came with a bottle of mineral water in his hand.

"Drink until half yes, Neng," he said later, extending the mineral water to me.

Without asking much, I just chugged the mineral water was helped by Carly.

The mosque that was once peaceful, not many people in it are now crowded by people who seemed to have arrived when I was unconscious.

After believing I had drunk half the mineral water bottle Mr. Sajad gave me, I stopped drinking that water.

"The rest, you drink in the middle of the night until it runs out huh, Neng. Do not forget," said Mr. Sajad reminded.

"Why do I have to drink in the middle of the night, sir?" I still have a weak voice.

"The power of 'them' will be at its peak right at midnight until three in the morning. By drinking the water in the middle of the night, you can weaken the power of 'them' who are trying to influence you" Mr. Sajad explained in detail.

After hearing Mr. Sajad's explanation, I remembered something and wanted to rush to ask Mr. Sajad directly.

"Can you close my eyes?"

Mr. Sajad looked at me in doubt.

"Are you sure you want to close your eyes? isn't there a 'someone' that you still miss?"

Exactly it.

The question from Mr. Sajad seemed to give a hard slap to me.

I still think of Luccane, still miss Luccane and still want Luccane.

It will not be easy for me to forget Luccane who I have loved for a long time, especially during this time he was the one who always accompanied and filled my days.

The good Luccane, the Luccane who always tried to protect me, taught me to do my duty and always faithfully provided the best support for you all along without anyone knowing.

The shadow of Luccane went back into the depths of my heart, awakening to me how much I loved the man who came from a different dimension to me.

This love is so sweet and intoxicating yet so painful, why should I fall in love so deeply with her, a being who can't even promise me a serious relationship?

This difference was too far away and painful for me or Luccane, making my cries unconsciously break on their own, realizing once again that I and Luccane would never be together forever.

I sobbed, feeling this incredible heart-wrenching pain. Carly tried to calm me down, while Mr. Sajad just looked at me pityfully without saying anything.

"Create your heart first, Neng. Later if you are sure you will come here again by yourself to see the father."