A SPECK OF LIGHT (Handle of Good-Loving Love)
47. Plan to move

Mentari stood beside the mother was looking at the house of people who were crowded with joy

Yes, Mentari and mother were watching Reza and Diana's reception. Tears that flow cannot be prevented. All hope is lost.

Her heart grew stifling when she saw Reza smiling and laughing happily. In elus the still flat stomach.

"Mom, let's go home," invited Mentari directly led by her mother.

Two months ago, once Reza said she was getting engaged, she always avoided him. He did not want to hear the word sorry or be made a mistress again by the man.

Until the engagement passed and so ruined his life again today. Yes, today for the first time she knew that she was pregnant.

"I'm sorry Mentari, ma'am. Mentari has made mother embarrassed and disappointed," her cries increasingly broken when she reached her boarding house.

Before this day Mentari fell ill so that his mother came. But the name of the parents must know if the girl is experiencing what pain.

Mentari's mother immediately took her child to the Midwife. And it is true according to the assumption that Mentari is 8 weeks pregnant.

Arriving at home, Mentari recounts her relationship with Reza. Wanna get angry? that's certain. But back again, no parent will continue to be angry.

"So Reza, your friend at school often takes you home from the village on weekends?" ask Mentari's mother after Mentari finished telling.

"Let's take responsibility,"

Mentari. "She just finished her contract, ma'am."

"Astaghfirullah, son. What about your fate as well as your son?"

The mentari shook her head making the two cry together. Mentari's mother also can not do anything because there is no longer a family of the late father Mentari has not cared since he died when Mentari was 5 years old.

...****...

"You better come with mom back home, dance."

Mentari. "I'm ashamed, Mom."

Long they remained silent. "Alright, we're looking for a rented house near the market."

Mentari looked towards her mother. "Why near the Market, Mom?"

"We're going to sell chicken noodles, keep my dad's business going first. Let our house rent. Money from your BPJS Employment if it has been out in storage for external costs. Pray that your body is normal and normal, son."

The mother and son cried together. Mentari continues to feel regret and is very sure if the regret will last a lifetime.

Who wants a woman to have children but never marry?

That's what the question arises if his mind is clever.

The night continued late, the mother had fallen asleep but not with Mentari. He still sees social media where many of his friends are broadcasting live at Reza and Diana's wedding.

Then in the live broadcast it was directed to Soldiers and Adzilla. He chuckled when he saw Soldiers seem upset because their friends wanted to get to know Adzilla.

"You're a good man, As. That's why God has Adzilla for you."

Why does he talk like that? that's because he felt guilty about the incident where he foiled their marriage. Adzilla was happy to cut ties with Soldiers for accountability.

Because he could not sleep, he also cleaned his clothes because he would move soon.

Nak. Stay healthy in your stomach. Maybe after tonight, we'll never see you again. The living sheet with your father is finished. Stay together, mother. I'm sorry if your presence is a mistake.

The crying broke back. Closing your mouth so you don't make sounds. The shadow of Reza's smile and happy laughter reverberated in his mind.

Have you ever felt a little love for me, Za?

I miss you, Za.

...****...

In the morning, Mentari went to the address given by one of his coworkers where there was a cheap rented house there.

Perhaps true, getting pregnant out of wedlock is much easier than getting pregnant as desired after marriage.

"Be careful, Dance. Do not speed," said Ibu Lia, Mentari's mother.

Mentari. "Hopefully the house is comfortable, ma'am."

"Aamiin, don't you want to see Reza, son? she should know that you're pregnant with her child."

Either way, Lia's mother wants her son to marry the man who has taken away the sanctity of her daughter.

Mentari. "No, Ma. I don't want to destroy people's households and this child will be my nab, right ma'am?"

Mother Lia nodded sadly. "Step, boy. I'll take care of the other stuff before Reza comes looking for you again."

After saying hello, Mentari went to his destination. Indeed, since that night, Reza repeatedly searched for him but he always managed to avoid.

His heart was so sick and disappointed in Reza. And he was so angry at himself for not being able to hate that man.

...****...

Arriving at the rented house. Tour around the house and see the situation in the house accompanied by the owner of the house.

She also had to lie if she was married and her husband moved to Malaysia. So reasoned to be living with his mother.

After checking the electricity and water is good also according to the price, Mentari immediately agreed to rent for a year. The money has also been handed over and will be settled in the afternoon.

Mentari drove his matic motorcycle to the Market looking for a strategic location to dress chicken noodles with his mother.

He stroked his flat stomach that was rumbling. "We're hungry, huh, deck? let's go get breakfast."

With a fluffy smile, Mentari walked down the Market until her eyes accidentally saw Reza and Diana. Reza just stood next to Diana who was picking red onions.

Plus his eyes saw Diana's long hair wet. And he just remembered surely last night they did the wedding night ritual, the first night.

"Look at me, baby. He's been living happily. We should be much happier, yeah."

Mentari tried to neutralize her heartbeats walking past them as she was unable to turn around after her gaze met Reza's eyes.

He could see the shock of Reza but did not want to care anymore. After passing Reza, as soon as possible step away from the man.

Mentari doesn't want to be reunited with Reza. He wants to open a new chapter in his life.

"Start."

Deg

Unexpectedly, Reza was chasing him. Taking a new deep breath turned towards the man by commenting on the smile.

"Oh, yeah."

Her steps took a step back as Reza tried to erode the distance. "What's up, Za?"

"Where have you been? I'm looking for you."

Still with a smile. "I'm coming home. Sorry I couldn't make it to your engagement and wedding last night. I just got here this morning."

"But-but,"

"Mas."

Mentari smiled in horror when she saw Diana coming to call out to Reza and immediately embraced the man's arm.

Selflessly, Mentari ran away regardless of her pregnancy. He can't stop his sadness anymore.

❤️

TB