A SPECK OF LIGHT (Handle of Good-Loving Love)
32. Let go

After meeting Adzilla and talking also asked Joseph's father for help but to no avail. Soldiers become cold men.

Selling does not say much even when selling still puts a smile. He also spent more time in the mosque reading the Qur'an without anyone knowing.

"Assalamualaikum" said Askar when he had just returned from the mosque to pray Zuhur.

"Getishalight."

Soldiers turned to see Hana and Heri eating lunch and then stepped into the room to store the peci and sarong and then joined in eating together.

Soldiers alike did not open their voices when eating and that made Hana and Heri exhale deeply.

"As." call Heri after the Soldier finished eating to get up and bring the dirty dishes to the kitchen.

"Yes, bang." said Soldier.

"You healthy? why have you seen you rarely eat at home lately?" Indeed, like that Soldier, spent more time in the mosque to forget about meal time.

Soldier smiling. "I ate outside" she answered a little lie.

"May you ask?" asked Heri and nodded to Soldiers.

"Are you really serious about how you feel about your ex-fiance, As?" asked Heri because he had been watching his sister-in-law even though he never commented anything.

The soldier breathed a sigh as soon as he answered. "Any serious thing if Zilla chooses to leave me for what, bang?"

Heri mangosteen. Until now he did not know the cause of the cancellation of the marriage between Soldier and Adzilla.

"May you know why you like Adzilla, whose notabane older woman, the widow, also has children? we are both men. Maybe you can understand you. Do you know that men prefer younger women?"

"Don't equalize people's judgments, bang. I'm really sincere with him. She's a great woman, I learned a lot from her."

"But you have to keep responsibility on Mentari, deck." Hana interrupted the conversation between the men. However, he did not want his sister to be separated from the responsibility for the actions that had taken sanctity from the girls.

Soldier turned towards Hana feeling astonished why Hana's speech was not much different from Adzilla's speech the other day.

"What do I have to account for, brother? I never even started touching Mentari's skin. When Tami's place at that time, she was the one who embraced my arm. Is that what I should be responsible for just because of that embrace? it should be Adzilla who deserves more responsibility for me because I touch her skin so often." After saying that without waiting for an answer from Hana, the Soldier passed away leaving the house. Really, he didn't want to argue with his sister, Hana.

Hana sat down and heard everything the soldiers said. In fact, Mentari's words when they came to Adzilla were not yet trustworthy by him. It was because he knew his sister very well. He also knew how Soldiers clung to a relationship. It was he who taught Soldiers not to be impudent to women.

That is why until now have not been able to believe in Mentari and not persuade Soldiers to be responsible even though Mentari continues to urge him to marry Soldier to the woman.

"What did you mean, deck?" ask Heri.

Hana finally told him everything and did not believe Mentari's words even though he managed to make Soldier and Adzilla canceled marriage.

"Are you crazy, deck? just because of selfishness, you risked the happiness of the Soldier? What is your heart made of? And what makes you unable to accept Zilla as your sister-in-law?" jolt Heri did not understand what his wife was doing.

"I just want Soldiers to get a woman who's worth it, bang."

"Women worth how? women who shamelessly admit to having sex before marriage? did you not hear what the soldiers said? You're selfish, Hana." Heri left Hana just like that.

...***...

This is where Soldier, in the rented house that was supposed to be his residence with Adzila and the two daughters.

The palace that he had prepared as much as possible had to be dashed in the middle of the road. But this rented house has been on lease for the next year.

In the back room there is a bed, wardrobe, and a special decorative table with Adzilla.

"My dream is too high to live with you. But not with you, Zilla." Soldiers closed their eyes feeling tired and not feeling well lately.

...****...

At Joseph's father's house.

Adzilla has just arrived after delivering Satria. Just like before, that was his only activity. Joseph's father really did not allow Adzilla to work because he always said that his father was still able to finance Adzilla to find a mate again.

Adzilla opened a whatsapp message from Soldier two hours ago. The breath felt heavy remembering the name back.

Still love? sure have.

Soldier :

*You want to be happy even if you're not with me, even if I have to be hurt. Honestly, parting with you is God's destiny I least want. However, on the other hand I believe His will is a path that will surely end beautifully, His choice is just right and that we will be equally grateful for one day.

Although it must be a bitter reality first received, must be the first internal wound obtained, and must be the first tears that are dropped.

Anyone will be my substitute. May he be better at everything including loving you, holding tightly to his hand the fiber I once held your hand, hold his body as strong as I have ever held your body, protect her as much as you can as I once protected you*.

I I never regretted us and everything, maybe it was just a story.

Adzilla's tears read the message. The message he had just read broke his heart.

Crushed melting.

"Even this hurts more than holding the inner wound for seven years of living with Bari."

"Finally you let go of your love, our love As. Happy darling. May you be happy with Mentari. Thank you for the wonderful memories you created for me."

"Thank you." Adzilla was crying while holding her phone to her chest. Really, if it was just a matter of blessing Adzilla would try to get that blessing.

But circumstances are different, Soldiers must take responsibility, he thought.

❤️

TB

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