A SPECK OF LIGHT (Handle of Good-Loving Love)
34. In the hospital

Adzilla walked down the corridor of the Hospital with a faint feeling enveloping her heart. After Hana and Heri came to him two days ago, he ventured.

It was really unexpected that the decision to leave Soldier unilaterally made the man he still loved so bad.

"Askar, is this a factor of your young age or because of your crazy love?" ask Adzilla to himself because he still does not believe in the change of soldiers.

Indeed, since the last time Soldier came to persuade himself to reconnect never again Adzilla met the man.

Not missing or not in love anymore. Adzilla learns to accept the destiny laid out for her.

By carrying a challeng containing favorite foods of Soldiers and fruits, he continued to walk to strengthen the heart to treat the heart and physical wounds of Soldiers.

"Why am I so nervous, anyway?" sumpul Adzilla right in front of the Army's ward door.

"Aww.. Pain, woy."

Stinging screeching sound from the inside made Adzilla stick the ear on the door leaf.

"Makanya, it failed marriage that many prayers and najai not even a race. Feel consequences. You think Zilla wants to be like you with a scuff wound and a broken hand?"

"Zilla won't know that you didn't tell him. Can you change the food? it's bland, Za."

"Why are you so chatty? you're sick so eat this. Ak**u surprised look at you, As. You already know that your problem is over. Why not go to Zilla? even a race like this."

"Be quiet, I'm afraid of being rejected again."

Adzilla shook her head at their debate. I even want Adzilla to laugh at that.

"Alright, Zilla. It's time you made amends. Beautiful spirit." Adzilla is encouraging to himself. Knock on the door and say hello.

Hearing the greeting answer from within and allowing to enter, immediately push the door handle.

Try to keep smiling in the midst of nervousness. Choose to sit next to the gurney opposite Reza.

"I-I went out first to get lunch. Brother Zilla can bribe Soldiers right?" Actually Reza was eager to see how his close friend interacted with Adzilla however, the stare of Soldiers gave the code to leave them both then chose to give up.

...****...

Adzilla cleared his throat neutralizing nervousness. It felt very awkward to be near the Soldiers from the long time they had been separated.

He also felt astonished why the soldier was silent even there was no intention to look in his direction.

Is he crashing?

"As."

"Hem?"

"Want to eat? I brought you chicken soup with your favorite sauce." Adzilla tried to keep the Soldiers talking.

He understood that if the Soldier naturally angry with him because his love is not so strong as the love of Soldiers. He should have believed in Soldiers because he could see how Soldiers kept their distance even though one habit of the man that he did not refuse.

Pecking three ends of the fingers and then stick them on his forehead.

"I've eaten." said Soldier flat.

Adzilla sighed. "I'm the one who cooks" he said, making Soldier look at him but still with a flat face.

"A little bit."

Adzilla did not mind the flat gaze of the Soldiers. With enthusiasm he opened the bushel then took the rice and chicken soup along with the sauce.

When Adzilla was about to feed, the Soldier refused and tried to snatch the plate from his hand. Of course he dodged.

"I want to eat alone."

It was like Adzilla was laughing when he saw the face of Soldier who looked so adorable in his eyes.

"Do I have to take a betrothed from another man?" cecar Adzilla kept Soldiers quiet for some time. Can be sure if the man in front of her is thinking about all her words.

Don't we? it was obvious the soldier only realized with wide eyes then looked at him strangely.

But that strange look seemed to intimidate him to the point of making him nervous. "What's up, As?"

"I just realized you're more beautiful, which."

Ah, that man's smile was one that was sorely missed. "Which?"

The soldier looked nodded. "Dear."

"I'll heal if you take care of me. Just be careful if you dare to accept suggestions from others. I'll disrupt your household. If necessary, I will do what you have accused me of."

Adzilla was astonished by the Soldier's words but his hands kept moving to feed the man. "What do you want, As?"

The soldier did not immediately answer but his gaze really intimidated Adzilla.

"I'm gonna rape you, which. Let's get married soon."

"Astaghfirullah, Soldier. Rape endasmu. Just be careful if you intend that." So anxious Adzilla's anxiety on Soldier made him pinch the stomach.

"Aww.. Sick, that." Ringis Soldier made Adzilla feel guilty.

He uncovers the Soldier's clothes to see the wound affected by his pinch. "Askar, are you pranking me? really bad." Adzilla murmured because in the stomach of Soldier no one was hurt and he put the plate on the nightstand because it was finished.

Soldiers laughed and hugged Adzilla's head in hijab with one hand. Adzilla's body was fixated on the man's treatment. It was clear that the heartbeat of the soldiers was so strong.

"As."

"Take this a minute, which. I miss you so much. Even my heartbeat is still the same when it's near you."

Adzilla swallows the salivary violently. "As, I feel uncomfortable." After saying that, the hug came off.

"I'm sorry" said Askar making Adzilla nod.

"Don't be weird anymore, you're making me worry, As. What if the kids know you're like this? enough for me to be dizzy to reason because their papi didn't come again."

"Just worried?"

The look they meet. Adzilla's eyes run into the river. "I'm afraid you're gonna leave me." After saying that, Adzilla sat back down with his head lowered deeply.

Soldiers themselves just silently stroked Adzilla's head wrapped in hijab. "Even after such a complicated matter and you've decided to cut off our relationship, I've never left you."

Adzilla looked up to make Soldier wipe away his tears. "I'm afraid of losing you again" said Adzilla with a sad face.

...****...

Soldiers tried to calm Adzilla, who continued to cry after telling her what happened and the cause of the woman's decision unilaterally.

Really, he is not angry even though it should be natural if done. But Soldiers prefer to advise and make deals.

"Whatever it is, want as small as anything that does not like between us. Talk first to find a solution."

And when Adzilla asked to forgive Hana, this was avoided but because the woman said that she was never angry at her brother so she was forced to forgive.

"As."

"Yes." Yeah." Their gazes met and Adzilla decided to look because he was looking at the blisters on some parts of the hands and feet, then his left hand was in the slim arm.

"Cock just the same hand the leg is hurt? is there no head?"

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