A SPECK OF LIGHT (Handle of Good-Loving Love)
26. I'm sorry, As

Without feeling the wedding date is soon.Preparation of small receptions have also been prepared. From catering, invitations are just waiting to be spread, souvenirs, Make-Up Artist, wedding clothes, room decorations, and entertainment are all booked.

As per Adzilla's request, the agreement will be carried out in the Mosque and only the Marriage Pillars that have not been prepared because they have to submit documents first to the Religious office.

"As, where are you from?"

Soldiers turned to the source of the voice where Hana was sitting with her hands crossed over her chest.

"From Zilla's house take them to pick up the same uniform." said her lazily because it will discuss the same thing from before.

"Rethink your decision, As. Brother doesn't want you to be sorry. You're the only one you have, deck. Brother wants you to be happy."

It feels like Soldiers snapped or anything can be done to vent their anger after hearing what the brother said.

"What makes you disagree? is it because Adzilla was older and the widow had children? or because my savings were drained just to marry Adzilla's kayak?" cecar Askar felt that his decision was always not appreciated.

"Not so, I'm afraid you're not ready. Marriage is not just happy. There must be sadness, anger, and disappointment." As a sister, Hana wants to see her sister get the best and she feels Soldiers have not understood enough to make a household.

"God willing I am ready, brother. Brother doesn't have to worry. I wish I could be a good husband and father to both Zilla's children and my children." Soldiers continue to suppress his anger because they do not want there to be a commotion between the two because all this time even though they often fight but only because of mutual ridicule or initially joking then become marahan never dissent like this.

"But still my brother does not agree that you marry Adzilla, Soldier. Why don't you understand too? Brother wants you to marry a girl so you can both learn to build a household. Especially you're a man. Must be looking for a narrower one. Brother doesn't want you in the middle of your wedding street looking for snacks out there."

Hana's words made Soldier's blood boil. His hands were clenched in his emotions. Didn't expect if his sister thought so shallow just a matter of naf su alone.

He knows about that. He is also a normal man like any other man. Even very often if the night before bed his dirty mind overshadowed Adzilla's body behind his loose robe it was in front of her must have been her morning underwear was wet.

And for that reason also he wanted to accelerate his marriage with Adzilla.

"I just want Adzilla to be my wife, brother. Please." Please." He looked at Hana asking that her brother understand and accept her decision.

But like he was wrong. Hana was silent with an expressionless face. The soldier sighed and then chose to go into the room. Choose immediately go and look for an atmosphere that will reduce his emotions for the better.

...****...

The next day, Soldier came with Satria because before he went to Joseph's father's house, he picked up the boy first.

Joseph's father was not at home. As usual, the little girl would be scattering her clumsiness. It's become a habit and he's happy about it.

But wait, why is the face of the mother of the two children flat so unlike usual.

"Bapi, come here. The toys you bought Nia's already stacked into a robot."

"Kok Robot?"

"Abang Sat who taught."

So long accompany Satria and Sania play until lunch finally Askar has free time when he just put the two children to sleep.

"Honey." call Soldier as he said a few months ago.

But he wondered why Adzilla looked surprised? is his future wife daydreaming?

"Yes." Yeah."

"I'm hungry."

The soldiers watched Adzilla prepare food for him. He really felt that something was different from his heart.

"Thank you" he said as Adzilla handed him a plate of food. And look, Adzilla just nodded and sat across from her.

What was? is Zilla coming this month so sensitive?

Finished eating he went straight to the bottom of washing the dishes used to eat earlier. After this he will ask Adzilla why it looks different.

"Darling, may I add the guest list?"

"As far as you."

Soldiers frowned feeling Adzilla's answer was different because usually Adzilla will refuse if you want to add invited guests.

"As."

Soldiers don't answer just their gazes meet, now.

"As, why do you want to marry me?"

Adzilla's question really made Soldiers wonder. Why ask about it when it has come so far.

"Honey to know the sound of History Hadith. Imam Bukhari number 4700?" not answering and asking that.

Adzilla.

Soldier smiled and then returned. "HR. Imam Bukhari No. 4700 which has meaning, that the Woman was married for four things, because of her property, because of her offspring, because of her beauty and because of her religion. So choose because of his religion, you will be lucky".

"And I chose you because of your ancestry, beauty, and religion." added Soldier again but still full of question marks in the minds of Soldiers because there is not the slightest smile or shy blush that showed Adzilla when he gave the right answer.

"Well, why are you crying?" Soldiers flinched at seeing Adzilla lowered her head with trembling shoulders. He got up and sat down next to the woman.

"As. I want to cancel our marriage."

Deg

The words made his heart stop working. It was as if time had stopped then and there. He hopes what he hears is wrong.

"Please tell me my hearing is wrong, honey. Is that wrong, right?" He kept convincing in his heart and hoped it was completely wrong.

But Adzilla's head made her heart break. "Why?"

Their eyes met again. He saw Adzilla's eyes the same as his. Full of wounds.

"We're in too much of a hurry. We should have asked for blessing before we go this way. Or find a woman who is worth you. I don't want you to regret choosing me."

"What's wrong with you, baby? you ill? or run out of the drama so disconnect only because of trivial things like that? I never even thought about their blessing. Who is living us. I told you, you are the answer to my prayer. You're the cure for my pain."

Adzilla. "Please. Go and never come back. They're right, I don't deserve you." Adzilla got up and went into the room shortly after leaving with the rest he gave to Adzilla.

It hurts more to see when Adzilla takes off their engagement ring.

"I'm sorry, As."

❤️

TB