A SPECK OF LIGHT (Handle of Good-Loving Love)
29. Soldiers and Adzilla

The phrase "fool is indeed the above business" is never wrong. Sometimes we laugh at that expression. But actually, that's the truth.

To become a strong and resilient person needs to turn hurt and disappointment into passion. The spirit is based on the sense of proof that you can rise.

When you rise and become a new person, you will be familiar with bad conditions and can find and determine a way out.

"It's painful to breathe because every breath I breathe proves I can't live without you" Adzilla said, looking at a picture of the two on her phone.

A photo where they both shop.

"I thought you healed me. But no, you're destroying me even more, As."

Adzilla rubbed his wet cheek rough because he was still crying when he thought of Soldiers. But the tears kept on shedding. He beat up the chest that felt so tight.

"Mama why?" satria had just entered the room and found Adzilla crying.

Adzilla quickly wiped away her tears and told Satria to sit next to her. "Where is Lithuania, bang?"

"Bobok day with grandpa. Ma, you met papa."

Adzilla flinched directly looking towards Satria. "Papa Bari?" ask Adzilla to be worried.

Satria nodded. "Yes, papa says now have a new mama like brother wants to have a new papi."

Adzilla smiled bitterly without responding. Turns out her ex-husband easily got a replacement for her. And he hopes that his in-laws will no longer interfere with Bari's household affairs.

"Ma, why does Satria have two papa and two mama? satri's friends only have one papa and one mama." asked Satria innocently hoping to find the answer to her curiosity.

Adzilla stroked her first hair before replying because she was composing words as easily and gently as possible for her son to understand.

"Satria and Sania are special children, aren't they? you guys are certainly great and there must be a lot of love for Satria and Sania."

"But papa does not love Satria and adek. Papi new dear."

Adzilla sighed. "But papa also dear brother."

"If it's not possible to be angry, right ma?"

Adzilla just smiled then told Satria to take a nap. Adzilla went to Joseph's father.

"Dad."

"Father behind." cried the father of Joseph and Adzilla followed there.

Adzilla was silent when he saw that Joseph's father and two others were making twins.

"Which party's mayang twin, yeah?" ask Adzilla.

"This is for Andre's wedding. Time doesn't know?"

Adzilla's forehead shrinks. "Just Andre? he did too, father."

"You are, yes, you can do young blood again." he begs the father because he knows Adzilla with his nephew one was always taunting each other.

"When's dad's reception?"

"Two days left."

...****...

Everyone has a different way of dealing with a breakup. For women, heartbreak is synonymous with bad times or times of confiding.

Even so, another case with men. When heartbroken, the majority of men will try to stay tough and not show their sadness.

Not only that, men also tend to be reluctant to vent or share their feelings with others.

"Hi, As." said Mentari directly in reply to the same greeting from him.

"You'd better talk to both of you, yeah. I want to cook in the kitchen."

Soldier sighed and then sat opposite Mentari. Actually he was reluctant but still appreciated Mentari.

"Don't drag on in grief, As." said Mentari made Soldier nod. Until now he did not show sadness in front of his brother and sister-in-law, friends, or to Mentari though. Only Adzilla showed that.

"As, can you accept me?"

The soldier who was daydreaming immediately realized after hearing what Mentari said.

"Ck. You know my answer, Mentari. It's not easy to forget about Adzilla." she said.

"I'll wait until you're completely ready like you waited for Adzilla that time."

Soldier sighed then rose up to step foot into his room. He could not easily replace Adzilla in his heart.

Repeatedly selling without passion. Actually, the change in behavior of Soldier is very visible in the eyes of Reza and his two friends.

Reza can only understand without reprimanding because he himself knows how much indeed the Soldier towards Adzilla was when he was Bari's wife until faithfully accompanied Adzilla in the worst period until the love of his best friend was welcomed.

"Za, you keep my job. I'll go for a minute." said Soldier.

"Where are you? don't be weird you're out there." Reza was worried because only this time the Soldiers looked so pitiful.

Soldiers chuckle still step towards his matic motorbike and then forward the motor to a place that can make his heart calm.

Here, in the middle of the city mosque. Wudhu to perform prayers isya'. There is no place that calms his heart more than this place of worship.

Both hands looked up to beg for forgiveness because they could not shake the love of His creatures.

After praying, Soldier chose to sit on the terrace of the Mosque, open his cell phone looking at Adzilla's social media. Only through this can he find out the activities he is doing because his mobile number has been blocked by Adzilla.

"Satria, Sania. How are you guys?" he muttered when he saw Adzilla's last post a few hours ago.

Long time looking at the photos Adzilla and the two girls then returned to his sales grobak.

...****...

A few days later. During that time also Mentari often met Soldiers and today the woman asked to go together.

Soldiers just keep quiet. Since breaking up and canceling his marriage to Adzilla, Soldier turned into a man who was a little cold and talkative.

The matic motor stops to the destination of Askar and Mentari. There a lot of school friends gathered.

The two went hand in hand without a smile from the lips of the soldiers. Now he feels dejavu where he invites Adzilla to gather with his friends.

Soldiers sat down after shaking hands with their friends. His eyes squinted at the woman who was always hadur in memory and still berahtahtah in his heart.

Adzilla Rahma's.

Observing how the look of the woman's face looks cheerful is very different from her. The two girls also seemed to laugh together.

The soldier clucked into a fool because only he who was so pitiful was so different from Adzilla.

"It turns out I'm the only one who feels so lost to you, baby."

Until their eyes meet. Both are fixated because suddenly the heartbeat is racing faster.

❤️

TB