A SPECK OF LIGHT (Handle of Good-Loving Love)
27. I'm sorry, honey

"What's wrong with you, baby? you ill? or run out of the drama so disconnect only because of trivial things like that? I never even thought about their blessing. Who is living us. I told you, you are the answer to my prayer. You're the cure for my pain."

Adzilla. "Please. Go and never come back. They're right, I don't deserve you." Adzilla got up and went into the room shortly after leaving with the rest he gave to Adzilla.

It hurts more to see when Adzilla takes off their engagement ring.

"I'm sorry, As."

Soldier shakes. "Don't do this, baby. Please." He looked up at the eyes of Adzilla, who had made the river. He grabbed both hands of his heart and then kissed the backs of both hands.

"I-I can't, As." replied Adzilla with a quivering voice holding back the cry. When their gaze met, Adzilla turned her face away. Truly, it cannot be contained that the blooming taste must be forced to die.

"Didn't you love me?" ask Soldier still holding Adzilla's hands.

Adzilla's tears can't be contained anymore. This is really heavy. He cannot but must do for the good of all.

Adzilla sat next to the Soldier. The tears then forced a smile. I don't know where the courage is. Now Adzilla's hand has caressed the black mane of Soldiers.

"I love you, really. But we can't marry you, As. I'm sorry."

The soldier lowered his head to let the clumsy hand caress him. "You don't love me, Zilla."

The soldiers looked over and their gazes met. His heart ached to see the tears of his heart wet the smooth cheeks again.

"Look, I'll give you a week. You may still have doubts about my love. I'm here in a week and I hope your heart is okay. But please, don't cancel our marriage." said Askar decided in the hope that their marriage would continue.

With a smile, Soldier again put their engagement ring to Adzilla's sweet fingers and then do his habit of tucking the tip of his three fingers and then stick it to the forehead of his heart long enough.

"I'm home. Assalamualaikum."

"Waalaikumsalam." muttered Adzilla just silently glued without escorting Soldiers to the front of the house.

...****...

Soldiers drove their motors at high speed. His heart and mind are in chaos. She saw the same wound from Adzilla's eye when she said she wanted to cancel the wedding. But it can also be said Adzilla is not a joke. The woman meant it.

The headband felt unacceptable with Adzilla's unilateral decision to make determined to gain the hearts and trust of Soldiers so that the marriage was not void.

Not just because you have to be ashamed. But the feeling he has must not break in the middle of the road.

Arriving at Hana's house. Soldiers go straight to the bathroom ablution because when it gets right the sound of the adzan reverberating sign is the time of Ashar prayer.

After it was taken peci and sarong without caring Hana noticed her from earlier. Drive the motor to the nearest mosque.

...****...

Sitting pensively on the terrace of the mosque without anyone accompanying. I don't feel excited to sell today. His heart was broken even though he said he gave Adzilla a week to think.

He himself pondered and pervaded how he felt about Adzilla. Love or obsession?

Take a deep breath after knowing the true heart.

"Robbi Hab Lii Mil Ladunka Zaujatan Thoyyibatan Akhtabuhaa Wa Atazawwaj Bihaa Watakuuna Shoohibatan Lii Fid Dini Wad Dun - Ya Wal Aakhiroh."

Meaning: O Lord, give me the best wife by Your side, the wife that I am asking for and marrying, and the wife that is my friend in religious affairs, world affairs and the Hereafter.

...****...

A third of the night in a room of Joseph's father's house. A woman with two children raised her hands with tears.

Begging for mercy and asking for strength to sincerely accept the situation. Saying an apology and praying for someone who has stolen his heart. Stole his attention.

Someone who can raise his life spirit again.

Soldiers.

But circumstances must separate them. Maybe fate wants to play with them.

"O Allah, only to you do I complain and ask. You know how big this feels in my heart. But, I realize. I have to part with her. Make him accept my decision."

With both hands covering her face, Adzilla cried sobbing feeling unable.

"It hurts, As." He hit his chest and it felt very tight.

"Father's son." called Joseph's father on the doorstep made Adzilla turn towards Joseph's father directly wiping his own tears.

Adzilla looked down unable to bear the gaze they met let alone Father Joseph now sitting next to him.

"Why decide if you yourself are tormented like this, son?" asked Joseph's father gently.

"It's Zilla's decision, father."

"And ignore the feelings of the soldiers? ignoring Satria and Sania's feelings?"

Adzilla bowed in not daring to look at Joseph's father or interrupt every sentence that was thrown from the face of Joseph's father.

"It's for the common good, Dad. I'm ready to lose her." said Adzilla softly accompanied by a heartbreaking sobbing.

Joseph's father who could not see it immediately embraced while stroking the back of his only puppet child.

"Sorry Zilla's gonna embarrass me again."

"What's wrong, but please think about your decision again just because of that matter."

Adzilla could only nod. It felt like she was continuing their marriage but every word for her made her sick and it might just be true. He was forced to make a unilateral decision.

After giving peace to Adzilla, Joseph's father came out of the room.

"I love you, As. But I don't want you to be a bad, irresponsible little brother."

"I'm sorry, baby."

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TB

Assalamualaikum says.

Healthy and happy greetings to all of us.

Sorry during this fasting month mom up only once because mom fasts.

Mother is the type of person who has trouble thinking that the stomach is hungry🤭

In addition, the mother again prepared a deadline from the editor of Noveltoon and the mother again prepared a novel for Pak Duda Wido, the first child of Qenan and Nadira, the twins Jafar and Rania, and, Aditya the son of Mr. Duda. And doctor gadhing story 🤣

The framework of his novel already there is only confused which one first wants to publish.

Added to want to be lebaran. The ma'am I've been coming back here and I have to res² the house because it will be in omelin.

Habits mbak I was from the first😬😪 Though 'same² married too.

Not to mention busy buying new clothes for children² and husband. But don't ask me if I've bought new clothes yet? certainly before fasting. 🤣

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