
As if this life had never been on my side, as if the wind was piercing my bones, I took my jacket and I put it on my body, and then I sat quietly by the door,like counting the rain that could not be counted my hands itchy to scroll scroll sosmed and after I scroll trus it was not her I was entertained but the more I was upset for her,and I put down my phone and I brew a cup of tea and I drink slowly,a few hours later my stomach was already kicking ria to ask for a special ration this morning but indeed to go out to buy food really cold through the continuous rain getting heavier, more and more,I stood at the door and immediately I took my cell phone and I went back into my room "ohhh kapuk beach you're good at first stop when I was a kid I don't want you why after adulthood I want you even want to always be here" I said the little word, I said,I tried to chat all my friends but there was no one to reply and I also disturbed my friend who I often call a video call if I was upset but at the end of this he was busy too because I want to get married, but my ex chat arrives.
"active tumben, again where, anyway"
"complicated questions are answered a lot" I replied in his chat.
"your brain"
"why my brain"
"answer that a lot you say"
"just ask not all"
"ea ea deh.udah maem ngak"
"what maem"
"eat "
"ohhhh hahahahahaahaha you got that language from your fiancee yes maem, hahahhahhahahahahahhaah" as I laughed
"whispers your times"
"i'm calling you, say no more noise"
"so"
"bloon chat...."
"ohhhh it yes, aahahahahaahaha"
"hhhh to yuk lake"
"this cold rain"
"bored in a cold cold house"
"well, have a rain shower there, the devil cares for you"
"huh.pedy demon"
"he cares about the devil"
"you're tired of me"
"i'm lazy just like you I'm bored too"
"we're not going out anymore" you said"
"that's the color that I'm lazy just as bored, if again a courtship where ever I'm lazy just as bored if again your same"
"you were good times"
"don't praise me, if I'm later for someone else too"
"nyindir dong, right"
"he dong nyindir"
"the rain has stopped me there yes, but cook dong, I'm hungry"
"can, want in what masakin but later ask for money yes"
"i asked in masakin because I don't have money to eat"
"hohohoho I'm just this idle you ask for more money"
"but you'll be working again"
"ea but not necessarily called"
"i'm cooking, I want to come here"
"come to cook for yourself"
"that's why your cooking is delicious"
"it's a dreadlocks"
"i'll come later I'll go buy fish first then"
"ok, I'm gonna take a shower, let me see you"
"mmm"
as soon as I closed the phone, I saw in front of my contract someone I didn't know and I asked.
"sorry ma'am, who's looking?" I'll lock my contract door because I want to go to the market.
"no deck, I'd like to ask for your flowers here, can the deck"
"oh please ma'am"
"no matter what deck I've seen your flowers for a long time anyway, you've never been home"
"yes ma'am, I've never been home this late"
"it's a pant"
"oia ma'am, I stay mom, I want to go to the market"
"oh it's the deck, thank you"
"he's a brother, a camel, a brother"
"it's deck"
then I gas my bike and I go to the market to buy kitchen supplies, but maybe my ex arrives and the mother is still in front of my contract, and my ex is like upset,in Kirain the mother did not ask for her flowers from me.
"mother said ma'am" said my ex from the top of his motorcycle
"oh mom took this flower, son, so I've asked the same adek"
"oh he's kirain, so if he doesn't get permission he can get angry"
"the grandfather is good"
"he's good ma'am but if it's a mosquito like a tiger heheheheheh"
"no kidding"
"not that you guys have broken up, you're a guy who yesterday said people heard you heard that you were engaged"
"ummmmm she's mom but.."not ready my ex said the mother had advised him.
"daughter, well, she's a good woman, which I see you guys fit in so well, why can you hurt her so"
"that's mom I don't know what I'm doing now all just regret"
"that's my son, time will explain to you both so well that you're looking at his sincere love now,even if you hurt her but she's willing to forgive you when she's actually broken inside and for the rest of her life she'll remember everything you did"
"she's mom, I know that's why I comforted her, so she saw me she could think of leaving me"
"you both hurt each other but you hurt him the most, he now hurts you because his heart now doesn't trust you, but you hurt him already to the root of his roots.
"he's mom"
"yeah, I told you that I met you"
"he's mom"
"okay I'm saying goodbye"
the mother was saying goodbye and no one knew what they were saying, not long ago I still met the mother on the street and the mother said
"dad, your snob has come to your house"
"oh it's mom, thank you mom.
then we walked with each motorbike even though I quickly returned to the contract because my ex was waiting, arriving home.
"ehhh here who is my rented door open yes" said itself when he knew, then he arrived.
"darrrrdorrrrrrrrrr"
"aahahhaahahhahaa surprised me"
"long time coming home from the market, buy anything at all"
taking my groceries out of my hand and putting them on the cooking table.
"oia there was a mother who took flowers"
"oh already know, but the mother was we pepasan kok on the road"
"oh, he told me that"
"oia you're hungry right, here's a fry I bought, eat it"
"thank you, yeah"
"he loh"
not long after that time I was ready to cook and eat and very greedy, while we ate our story and he told me about the mother, who was,and I listened to all the stories and she cried.
"why we cry, we eat again"
"i have been through so much joy and sorrow with you, but God does not allow us to be united"
"mmmmmmmm "I took my breath and I gave him the strength to understand everything.
"well, you may have been created for me to just stop by not forever"
"i was wrong, even though I left you but my heart was only for you"
"be happy with your choice and your parents, I can do anything, I can't do anything but pray for you from afar"
"i'm not happy kiss" while wiping his tears.
"remember this saying well, those who are happy are those who can be at peace with themselves and accept their destiny"
"but you're sicker here"
"i don't do anything sick for the sake of the people I love, you should know even though we separated your parents but the best thing is just that don't cry anymore, but I can do better than you"
"i told you I don't want you to be like other guys kiss"
"you can't do that, you have your own life I do too"
"but I always remember what my mother said"
"whatever the mother says, don't remember it again, take the positivity and live your life"
"why are you so good when I've hurt you this way"
"i don't know, but God only gave me advice that I would forgive the person who hurt me 70x7 times"
"we're just human kisses"
"it's aaaaa...."
"stttttttt the father of the call"
"continue"
"i came home dad want this video call, later different at the rent he became suspicious"
"ohhh ok ok please go I'll settle this all"
"makasi yah, I'll come again"
"i'll be gone, tomorrow"
"ok ok, where are you going"
"brother's house"
"ok ok ntar heart yah"
"well"
"bye" he got on his bike and left in front of me.
After he left I took out the dishes and everything else and I started thinking why he always regretted what he did himself.