The Romance After Marriage
0.4 | B : About Feelings

- Kyra -

"Delvin's..."

"Vin, Delvin!"

My attempt to call him out has not been dashed. People who are heartbroken or in a bad mood will certainly be more likely to shut themselves up, looking for calm. But I hope that Delvin doesn't get too bad.

Oh, no, I'm starting to imagine nothing!!

"Don't you mind your own whirling?!"

That voice!

Instantly, I opened both of my eyes which I had closed for a while. The opening of my eyes was immediately greeted by the face of Delvin who looked at me in wonder while frowning.

Oh, thank God, he's still healthy!

I let out a sigh of relief. Smiled at him. The kind of sweet smile that expresses the joy of my heart.

"A smile again?! Ck," he clucked. I grin.

"Why?" Ask later. "What did you call me?"

"Have you eaten?" Change me who asked him. She shook her head. "If so, I bring you a nutella toast. Your favorite, right?!" I smile with my eyebrows rising.

Then, I also gave him a plate filled with toast that I just made myself a few minutes ago.

Delvin's eyebrows shot up one moment the plate had changed hands on him. "Still anget." Mumbled. Then he looked up to look back at me. "Lo just made it?"

I nodded quickly. "Combined that's why! I'm tired of making it, too,"

Instead of being happy and shouting 'thank you', Delvin instead silently looked at me with a suspicious twitch on his forehead. Full inquiring.

"What?" My toot.

Delvin looked at me straight. "Lo likes me?"

"Huh??"

"Here, take the trouble to make me all toast. You know, my favorite anyway..."

"Oh, ge-er!" Shouted jester. After all, who likes him, anyway?! So cutthroat!

"Continue?" Again Delvin pulled his eyebrows up.

"As a good friend, it's a form of concern for you who are again heartbroken. You know, it's your favorite because we often play together first! Don't you know what, you ever take forcibly stock of my nutella toast in SD?!"

Delvin began to neutralize his eyebrows to get back to where they were. His face turned flat. Then, he sighed. "Oh,"

Really, the response just now made me go half-dead. Ngeselin abis he is loh!

"Thank you, deh. I happen to be hungry too" he said, then started to bite the toast and enjoy it.

"Let's sit down, Vin," I interrupted.

And, without any rebuttal Delvin followed my call, taking my seat on the balcony floor.

Our habit of talking here is like this. Sitting on the floor of each balcony with legs dangling out the iron guardrail.

"Do you want to, lo?" Tawar Delvin while thrusting the toast plate to me.

I'm shaking. "No, I'm full."

Delvin shrugs his shoulders. He enjoyed the toast alone.

After a moment of silence because I was more fun to look at the door of the white-painted balcony tightly closed in front of there while hoping that the figure who lived in front of him came out to appear to just greet me who sitting here waiting for him. While Delvin, I'm sure he's trying to enjoy his simple dinner.

"The door will not open. Ezra was filming two days at the Peak."

I turned to Delvin who was looking at me while chewing bread in his mouth. When I looked at the plate beside him, it turned out that the contents were empty. Wow, he ate it too!

I shook my head in a doldrums. It was then that I suddenly felt jealous of Delvin because Bang Ezra would rather tell Delvin his schedule than me.

"Ezra did not initiative to tell me, I asked him when he accidentally passed yesterday in front." Obviously Delvin, who turned out to make me smile thin as well.

"Lo will continue like this? Endure that one-sided love??" Delvin asked suddenly. "When will you tell Ezra about your feelings?"

I fell silent, staring at the question to me. Even so far it never crossed my mind to express that feeling directly. Really, I was too afraid to hear the answer that was not as expected when I said about the feeling to her.

I smiled when I looked back at him. "Lo don't think about me. Think about your own problems first. Because it's more complicated than me!"

Delvin grunts. As if not hearing what I said to her just now, she instead turned the conversation in another direction.

"Tomorrow to follow Ezra to the top?"

Eh? I didn't hear wrong what Delvin just said, did I??

"Gue again bete. Need some fresh air." Reciprocity.

Instantly, I immediately smiled brightly. Delvin's brilliant idea instantly made my heart scream in excitement. I nodded enthusiastically. "Yes, want, want! How wanting! Ayooo!!"

I didn't mind Delvin's look that looked at me strangely. My heart is so happy to feel.

"Well, did you meet Ezra doang?!" Delvin laughed gruntingly as he shook his head, astonished.

I smiled sweetly at him. "So what time are we?"

***

- Ines

My eyes were unceasingly staring at a single bonsai plant on the table over there. Bonsai loa always reminds me of her. About him I'm hurting now but I don't want to let him go.

How greedy I was that I wanted to keep his heart captivated despite the words parting.

I really am not the one who wants to be separated from him. He who is more than 8 years old is always with me certainly will not be replaced by anyone let alone that in a moment of time.

And when I found out there was a mistake my friend had made, I couldn't stop begrudging myself.

"Nes, you're still beating me up, right?" Binta again voiced the same question either for how many times.

I kept quiet by holding the phone tightly to the side of my ear. My gaze was still empty staring at the bonsai which increasingly cast a shadow of his face more clearly.

"Duh, Nes, I'm really sorry! I didn't know that Delvin was added to Satrio's group. I think he's still left chat. Duhh, Ines, sorry. I'm sorry, I-I-"

"Yes, it's okay. I should have been more careful." My smile grew wide.

Tightly, I felt my heart so heavy at once as I imagined Delvin's hard face when I was angry. I'm sure he must be mad at me. I feel betrayed by the news.

Wanted me to run to him right now, tell him the truth. Reveal what really happened to me until I did. But, how? I'm captive now. I can't go anywhere until that day.

Unknowingly my tears poured down both cheeks. The harsh sound of breathing made my interlocutor in the phone realize my sadness.

"Ines... you cry?" Ask carefully.

I shook my head, trying to shake the fog of sadness away from me, replacing it with a smile that I forced her to attend. Although Binta can't see this smile right now, but she can definitely feel it if I smile here.

"Not really." I said in the tone I made as cheerful as I could.

Binta doesn't know about my true condition. He only knew about my relationship and Delvin was not good because of the loss of our love story. Binta only knows about me who wants to keep Delvin's feelings from the news of the engagement. Binta really doesn't know what's going on!

"Thank you, Nta, for all the info. About Delvin, let it be my business later. Don't worry. Delvin's a grown-up, he's gonna figure it out." I said I was trying to make Binta not worry. Even though what I said just now was a lie.

Clik. Our calls were also interrupted. I put my phone back on the table. Once again I stared at the bonsai loa on the round table.

Delvin, my heart goes back to saying his name in languishing.