The Romance After Marriage
2.3 | A : The Cowardly & the Brave

Kyra -

I stared one by one at the eyes of this family member. No exception Father who seemed to start taking what I was about to talk about this was a serious thing. His smile suddenly disappeared from his face. Now only leaves the curiosity of the eyes that are looking at me fixed.

I'm nervous.

Suddenly all the sentences that had originally been strung together in my small brain collapsed for a moment. The deep scream that appeared on Mom's forehead seemed impatiently waiting for me to make my mind mess up.

I don't know why either. That sentence is a small sentence. A simple sentence that concludes that Delvin and his family will visit this house tomorrow. Butwhy? Why am I suddenly mute?? Rigid tongue. Kelu!

I really can't say anything right now! Then how can I deliver it?!

"Dad?" Kamil broke the silence. Made me unconsciously look at him.

"Adek wants to talk what the hell? Daritadi we're all waiting for you," Dad chimed in, getting impatient.

Lips gasping. I really want to talk but why is my voice gone? I can't talk! Jeezahoo!!

"So not really, Dek? Mom's soap opera hunt is starting again, huh." Now replace the mother who spoke in an impatient tone.

Those impatient faces finally made me laugh so much. My heart is fretting on its own. Looks like I'm gonna give up!

"He he he... It's nothing, Kyra just want to ask tomorrow everything is off right??" Kontan, I condemned my absurd question just now. Huh, why did it suddenly turn that direction anyway?!! I'm a coward!!

"Why ask that? You want to ask us to take a walk, okay?" Tanya Mas Kamil guessed.

I can only grin a horse. Geez, I really condemn this cowardice of mine!

"Yaudah, yuk, we'll have a picnic tomorrow! I am ready for the provision," added Mbak Intan happily. Well, I know, pregnant women this one indeed from yesterday complained of boredom continues. No wonder he's happy he's not playing!

"Haduuh, mother's daughter-in-law, again pregnant big gini want ready what food anyway?" Mom's eyes bulged. "No, Intan is sitting sweet. Let it be, Kyra is all ready. Count the exercises before tomorrow people apply!" Mother said original to speak, but made me stupefied.

If only I were drinking now, I would have been coughing from choking. Maybe I can talk about the proposal, which is tomorrow...

"Smk!" Mas Kamil clapped his hands hard in front of my eyes until it made me scream. "Bring me! Don't be dumb! He was told to cook when,"

If only Kamil knew what I was thinking about. Unfortunately, my brother doesn't know anything.

"Where are you, so you want to go for a walk? If so, tomorrow I buy all the ingredients. You stay cooking. Won't you??" Tawar Mommy while focusing on the flat glass screen that still displays the most mehek-mehek drama series in front of us.

After a moment of silence, I smiled awkwardly. It seems. I can't say it.

I'm sorry, Delvin!!

***

22.01 WIB, that is what is stated on the digital clock on the nightstand on the side of my bed.

I stayed alone in the room while regretting and reflecting on one of the most negative traits I had. A coward!

I rubbed my face rough. I find stupidity too attached to me. The worst is now that I realize!

My anxiety is bigger than that belief. My ego is higher than anything to stunt the courage that had begun to grow.

Basic, Kyra! What is so shame... talk frankly if your own little friend wants to come propose??!!

"Armghhh!!" My screams muffled by the pillow that was covering my entire face. Right, now I'm getting my face down on my sleeping pillow. Intentionally, so that my loud yelling voice is not heard by anyone else outside the room. "Stupid, stupid, bodooohhh!!" I am half dead. Really, I'm pissed at myself!

After feeling my breath run out due to the vague shouting almost without pause, I immediately lifted my face from there. My severed breath began to settle after a few seconds. Even after I cursed at myself like that, that regret has not diminished!

I was silent for a moment. Thinking about what happened before. Even because of my ambiguous actions, now, my whole family thinks I'm asking for a day off with them. Everyone agreed to go during the day after I finished cooking. Tomorrow will be the day Delvin and his family come home. However, when the time is clear they come I do not know...

I smiled thinly. It seems I still have a chance to clean up this mess I've done. Hehe.

Then, with self-confidence that began to flourish, I then took my phone that was not far from my reach on this bed. Played my thumb on the flat screen until a number was connected in the call that brought my phone closer to my ear.

"Tuuut... tuuut... tuuut.." voice calls when connecting. I fell silent, biting my lips while waiting until this call became completely connected. And then after a few seconds...

"Hello?" Start connecting! "Assalamu'alaikum," he continued in a hoarse voice. Makes me squint for a moment.

"Wa'alaikumsalam" I replied.

"Hemm... What's wrong??" He asked a loud voice. Fix, I think he was asleep!

"Vin, are you sleeping?" I asked who felt guilty. A tad.

"Yes, that was sleeping. But it's okay, I haven't brushed my teeth as well so a little grateful because you indirectly ingetin me." He said while laughing.

"What's? Sedikii..it??"

Then, I heard his crisp laughter across the street. "No, a lot of banyaaak bangeet!!" He laughed again. I just grunt hearing it.

"So??" He asked immediately after a long time I hung him with my position on the phone. "What's wrong? What do you wanna talk about? There's no way you want to call me first if you don't want to talk about something important." Apparently, he secretly understood me enough, to the point that the thing I always did accidentally was he memorized it. "So what are you talking about?"

I think now his laughter that had been divorced was completely gone. The situation had started to get serious, as serious as the tone of the question was to me.

"Vin," call me slowly.

"Hum..."

"Gue... i.." Even believing myself that I initially believed to grow fertile suddenly disappeared somewhere. Now I'm worried about Delvin's reaction to knowing the honesty I have. I'm sure he must have directly poked at me. His emotions must have immediately bubbled up because of my true stupidity. Huh!

"Gue.." I bit my inner lips in a fit of anxiety myself. Why can't I just be honest?!!

"Can't you talk about it?" The ideal is slow. My eyes were confused unconsciously.

"Eh?"

"Lo... hasn't told me, has he, Dad? Is it all about tomorrow's plan??" Guess which is one hundred percent right!

I'm speechless. In my heart I was crying with shame. Shame that Delvin must now think I'm a coward.

"Yes?" He began to believe his opinion. Which I obviously embrace in my heart.

Then I heard him take a deep breath. Surprisingly after that he made no comment. Even the lines of mockery or emotion I had predicted he would throw before became an unreal illusion. He said nothing, even his reaction was beyond my expectations. The hard-to-understand fact that Delvin seemed relaxed with my stupidity!!

"Yes, tomorrow let me tell you the same father!" Disconnect after a moment of silence. Kontan, my eyes blinked as if in disbelief. The reaction is why...??

"But Vin, abis dzuhur we and our family are leaving!" Finally there was a little courage until I was able to say it.

"Go? Where are you going?"

"Picnic." Cicitku.

"When's home?"

"Maybe afternoon or evening. I'm not sure either" I shrugged.

"I don't mean sure?" She asked. "Can there be any possibility of staying out??"

I frowned, thinking about whether there was such a possibility in my family's plan. "Mung.kin," I said less sure. "Maybe tomorrow is Saturday..."

He took a deep breath, once again. I grimaced. Is it time for the bomb to explode??

"Judah, sleep gih!" The sudden exclamation obviously confused me. "Gue also wants to continue sleeping" he continued. His voice sounded relaxed in my ears. Light-weight. Just ordinary.

Eh?! Is he still not angry??

"Well, continue tomorrow??" Really, I don't understand his current mindset. Why do I feel like Delvin turned weird tonight? What was the effect of him just waking up??

"Yes, you'll see what tomorrow will be." Answer lightly. "Yaudah. Hye!"

Tuuutt.

In silence tonight, I stared at the sliding door of the balcony of the room in front of me. I'm speechless. Seekur themselves are fruiting uneasiness.

Now, one of my beliefs...

Delvin must be mad!