The Romance After Marriage
1.3 | A : ...What's?!

- Kyra -

I can't sleep.

I took another breath and changed my sleeping position. Glancing to the side, Kanaya had also made a smooth snoring so deeply he. Not wrong, this girl right, all day pacing to and fro. It was natural that he would be very tired.

Once again I breathe. Back, changing my sleeping position from tilted to face Kanaya and then crumbling to face the ceiling that is minimal light. Yeah, because this room's been out of lights since an hour ago. Since we decided to take a break. In this room there is only a dim light from a lamp stand on the side of our bed or precisely on my side.

A few times closed my eyes, trying to find a way to make my eyes tired and sleep. But in the end my eyes opened wide again, just like before.

I really can't sleep now!

Sighing breathlessly, I finally decided to look for the wind outside. It seems that if you sit for a while on the balcony in front of the living room while enjoying the rain-scented night breeze I will be able to treat my insomnia today. Yeah, yeah, great idea!

"Cloth!" I slowly and carefully unlocked the door of this room while watching over Kanaya several times. Afraid that the girl might wake up suddenly because of the noise I made.

Sighing in relief, I smiled knotfully as soon as I managed to get out and back shut the door slowly. Like my original plan, I rushed to the balcony. Opening the door dominated by translucent glass that is now thickly dewed. The cold wind ambushed instantly made my hair brim. Makes me hug my own body, rubbing my arm that has been covered with my yellow sweater.

Ignoring the fact that the air here is so cold that it feels like skin pricking. But I remained persistent in my will to sit on this cold hardwood floor while looking at the star-strewn black sky.

I smiled as I felt the soft caress of the cold gusts of wind that touched the surface of my skin. The sound of crickets and other insects sounded friendly to accompany me who was sitting alone in this place.

Silent for a moment, still in the same position - gazing at the dark mist of the sky that seemed pitch-black. Tetiba, I recalled my troubled thoughts a moment ago. Hah, even though I tried not to think about it anymore, but now it is even more unthinkable due to me who can not sleep!

Imagining the harmony of their relationship in a photo on Instagram made me sigh long. I clenched my feet. Now my gaze is only on a pair of bare feet whose skin looks pale in cold temperatures.

I'm pensive. Then unconsciously said, "Is it time to give up?"

But I realized, what I said just now is a representation of the content of my heart that is difficult for me to remove all this time. Surrender. Stop over. Just getting here, is a sentence I have avoided for over 10 years.

That feeling is deeply rooted. I realized, it would be difficult if I had to pull it out, eliminate it in an instant. But if not, how will my future be? Will I have to continue to be in this whirl of love clapping one hand?? No, I'm even old enough to get married now, I should have made the best decision for my future including leaving my first love and welcoming someone who would love me more!

I breathe heavily. Why is it so hard to think about?

Makes me look up. With a look I looked up at him who was taller than me. My eyes widen. Seriously, I was surprised to see him behind me. Which I don't even know since when he's been standing there with both hands holding two red mugs.

He raised the mugs in both hands higher as if he was affirming what he was holding to me. Then he smiled, "Hot brown?"

I tilted my head slightly with narrowed eyes. "Kok elo haven't slept yet, Delvin?"

Delvin then laughed gruntingly at my comment instead of telling me the answer to his offer. Then, without excuse he sat down next to me after previously handing one of the mug glasses to me. Not immediately answering, he even looked at the sky while sipping the contents of his mug glass. Brown water whose hot smoke billows in the air.

His smile was faint. Without looking at me he said, "The reason must be the same as you have." Again, he laughed gruntingly. And now he starts staring at me. "Because I can't sleep either!"

I laughed a little at it. Whether we have an inner bond or something, but again I find myself always with him when things are troubling my mind. Sometimes, I don't understand why our friendship can be so thick. Though not infrequently we mock each other, but we seem to be able to understand each other's feelings. Even in the past, when in High School until there was a rumor that we are lovers because so often we interact closely with each other.

Uh! I suddenly find it funny to go back to that time, haha. Fortunately the rumor did not last long because it was immediately broken with the facts, namely; Delvin and Ines who turned out to be dating.

Once again, I smiled as I re-imagined the chaos of the whole school at the time, because of the "dream-of-the-minute class" or "the coolest class" or even the "most-wanted snob" it has changed status from single to soldout!

Yes, yes, when Delvin school is so famous and popular! Because in addition to having a face-ekhem-handsome, he is also known as a multitalented student with various achievements. So don't be too surprised!

"What the hell is funny? Why are you smiling so suddenly?!" The thick eyebrows of Delvin are tightly linked. His face was astonished when he looked at me.

I shook my head, still with the same smile on my lips. "No, it just feels funny the will of God is always outside the mind of man."

I see, his eyebrows are getting tight-lipped. I wanted to laugh even more, because his stupid face was so obvious. Haha! I knew that Delvin obviously wouldn't understand what I just said.

"Chocolate is good, please where are you?!" Manya divert.

"In pantry! I don't know who you have either!" He shrugged his shoulders while laughing. "At least if tomorrow there is a nagging, yes, I just change it. Life is so easy, isn't it?!" Said pretend.

I shook my head, burning with an occasional sip of hot chocolate that had now turned warm.