Don't Say Love (BOOK 2)
Chapter 46

"I'm sorry, I just want to be like this." Reva said in a soft voice.

Before long, Patrick pulled the woman's hand so that her embrace loosened. He turned around and found the woman looking down on the floor.

"Hi,* it's okay."*

Patrick raised that face and threw a sweet smile at Reva. It felt so beautiful the day he was able to enjoy that hug. He is willing and willing to do anything so that this moment will last forever. The moment he missed. There is a person who makes him miss his home.

Arnetta looked nervously at the floor. He was really afraid that this sudden change in attitude would make Patrick change and stay away from him. What he is, according to Arnetta. He does not want to expect too far. It was well received in this house he felt very grateful.

The man realized that the woman standing before him was thinking hard. He knew that behind this frail body stored many wounds and little hope. Although only one percent, Patrick wants to realize that hope to be real. He wanted Reva to be with him with as many dreams as he could.

"You don't have to be afraid of me." Said Patrick. The man immediately received a questionable gaze from Reva who was now looking at him with her pair of large black eyes that reflected her shadow. "I like you completely. Even if you change, I'll love that change."

Arnetta shook her head weakly. He knew a little after living with this man, Patrick was a very nice and perfect man. There was no gap he could see in the man. Only lack of confidence in his heart is still hampered to this day. He once knew a man who he thought was perfect. There was never any doubt that the figure would love him.

But all that hope disappeared instantly when he learned the fact that the man hated him. The love they felt five years ago was gone. Arnetta had already seen that only his feelings were still longing while the man was not. He was afraid Patrick would change so and even hated him.

"City ..."

Patrick was indeed the woman clingy as if he could swallow it. The man also seemed to have no malicious intent, but Arnetta felt somewhat uneasy with that gaze.

"What's up ?"

The woman nodded weakly. He wanted to enjoy this moment for a while. Too many painful things have passed by him and he is eager to feel that there is a man who can love and accept his presence sincerely in this world.

"thank you. Thank you for liking a woman like me."

Patrick was stunned for a moment. The man did not react and still looked at the woman who was looking at him with hope. However, he immediately pulled the body tightly into his arms. If he could, maybe Reva would be crushed by his embrace.

"I should have said that. If that woman wasn't you, maybe I couldn't love this woman so deeply."

***

Both of them spend all day at home without any activity. Patrick was suddenly unemployed today because he was ditching work and accompanying the woman at home. Occasionally they chatted casually on the back porch as the man's hand stroked Reva's distended stomach which would always respond to the man's hand with a kick.

"He's very active?"

Reva could only giggle amusedly at Patrick's enthusiastic reaction to his son's movements. Even every time the man opened the chatter in front of his large belly, the baby would kick even harder. It was as if he was hearing the voice of a man who loved his mother.

"I'm sure he'll love you very much" Reva said unknowingly.

"Yes, he'll be your favorite after you" she said without stopping rubbing her belly.

Patrick began to feel thoughts about the shadow of how this child would be born. A pair of tiny feet would definitely appear and step on the grass of his terrace, running back and forth nonstop. He also began to imagine if later this child might .. will call him father. But that thought he tepis first. It feels too good if he asks Reva for it. The woman's confidence in him must appear stronger before he will finally captivate her again. He believes that sooner or later, Reva will fall into his arms and Patrick will be patient in waiting for her.

Both were dissolved in happiness throughout the day even though only spent alone with a new activity that is talking to prospective children Reva. Until dinner time, Patrick saw strange movements in the woman.

Since the afternoon, Reva has always looked restless. Occasionally the woman is seen biting her fingernails. In fact, often Reva walks indistinctly around the house.

"What's up, Reva ?"

"Ah, there is nothing." he said as he let out an unpleasant expression. Reva knew that she had been feeling strange since the afternoon. Wanted to cry as he was about to calm his mind, but he knew he could do nothing.

Patrick looked at the woman suspiciously and narrowed his eyes. "Tell me! you're making me even more suspicious."

Arnetta was getting restless but it was inevitable that he wanted it. To hell with the shame, it felt like he wanted to explode and cry if he once again muffled his desire. Yeah, he's cravings. He was eager for the sushi he had seen near their home when he checked it yesterday.

"I want sushi! I want sushi. I know if my request is weird, but I want to cry if I don't eat ith right now. The sushi shop across the street has been haunting me since last night. I can't sleep." said the woman, rubbing her wet eyes.

Suddenly Patrick's laughter exploded. The man felt a great relief when he knew that the woman's strange behavior was caused only by cravings. He thought it was because of something scary.

"Any right? You must think I'm crazy." Arnetta said as she watched Patrick find it hard to stop her laughter.

The man finally tried hard to suppress his laughter. Really he felt funny and relieved, not for the reason of the woman's anxiety. But he was funny with a guess in mind. Even he thought there were bad guys trying to disturb the woman, all day they were just at home.

"No. I thought you were acting weird because you met a bad guy. All right, I'm gonna go to that sushi shop and scold them for making my women and my son nervous like this."

Reva's face was red. He was ashamed of his cravings, but that was the feeling inside him.

"Don't." Tweet slowly.

Patrick chuckled softly and replied, "No way. I'll be gone for a minute."

Patrick cupped the tiny face in his hand. His face looked sulky when he said he would go as far as sushi. Reva, that woman seems to want to follow wherever she goes. Like glue and stamps, Reva almost always follows wherever he goes all day. Ever since this morning's hug she received, she realized that the woman was starting to depend on her. And, he likes it.

"You're going to go long ?" Tanya Arnetta was half sulking.

Deep down, Arnetta never sulked like this to anyone. The world has strengthened him with all the trials and tribulations he has received. He himself was surprised, but did not notice he enjoyed the attention given by Patrick.

Patrick was very pleased with the change. Reva turned into a very open and guarding figure towards him. Since the confession of his feelings yesterday, he felt that this woman had started to open her heart to him. And, today fortunately he had no schedule of practice in the hospital, so he could accompany this woman for a full day. He knows very well that Reva's attitude is affected by hormones mostly, but he doesn't matter. Patrick will try to enjoy all this.

"I'll be gone for a minute. It'll come back before you even think of me." she replied with a sweet smile.

Reva would not want to return that smile with the same thing. He did not deny that his heart was very warm and even like forgetting the pain that had been embedded deep in his heart. If it's like this it won't be hard to love a guy like Patrick. Not only her, but all the women in this world will experience the same thing.

***

"Sushi is special for your wife and child. I'm sorry if we make them nervous" said the sushi shop owner who happened to be serving Patrick's order.

The man received the results of his order with a satisfied smile. He was sure that Reva would cheer happily because the thing that had agitated him since last night was already in his hands.

"Thank you and it looks like I'm going to subscribe if my wife eats this sushi greedily."

Both are laughing. In the neighborhood around his house, Reva learns that Patrick's wife has just returned from her escape. So, he did not hesitate to say that Reva was his wife who was pregnant.

After his order so the man immediately departed back to his home. However, an unusual sight held him back. Patrick once again tried to assert a figure he had not met for a very long time. Since his mother's death, he has no longer been with his mother's family. For years he had forgotten the name of his cousin. However, there was one person that he still remembered until this moment because they had once been so close.

"Jullian ?"