Don't Say Love (BOOK 2)
Chapter 13

A boy is seen walking towards a door that is not currently closed. His eyes watched closely the silhouette he was very familiar with seemed to walk to and fro in the room. His footsteps did not sound. Like a cat, his movements are not heard by anyone.

In fact, it is forbidden to sound.

Hugging tightly to the toy car-tobilan in his hand, the boy noticed how the movements of the woman he so longed for. In his little heart, he wanted to hug the woman from behind and indulge with her. But if he did, the world would hate him. That woman would definitely be very angry with him.

"Mrs ..."

Only when those two calls came into effect. The boy was forbidden to call him as he deserved. She would never like it if her lips called out with the word "mother".

The woman also looked. His hand that was originally putting things into the bag was stopped. His face was flat looking at the boy. There was no warmth when he saw a part of him standing in front of him. It happens like a stranger.

"I'm flapping all your clothes. You're going with your father. I want to go abroad." Her speech.

The boy just went silent. I don't know why something in him hurts. Although he was not yet big enough to interpret it, the five-year-old knew something painful inside had perforated him. All of that almost made her cry out roaring, just like she did when she was alone.

Lusi, the name he knew belonged to the mother who had brought him into that world would definitely not be willing to listen to his cries. Only the slurs he'll get. Five years ago he learned how unwanted he was to be near his mother. Even consider her like a mother is illegal. Only his father loved him. Despite living apart, he was somehow so close to his father. A man who enjoys working, once the nanny says it. But, no matter how busy his father works, Arif will still get attention.

It feels close but far away but close.

That's how the little boy began to understand the bond between his parents and himself. He is forced to become an adult and must understand that he will not live like any other normal child. When her mother said that she would be with her father, it felt like a breath of fresh air. He can live his day with his father. And he liked it until a big smile appeared that was realized by the adult woman in front of him until fixated.

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The man was sitting on the sofa deliberately in his room. He watched the woman who had been silent on her bed. Maybe people out there think he's gonna spend a passionate night with this woman. The woman who was deliberately polished to charming like an angel did not actually make her interest rise. Instead, the man silenced her while observing.

From that night, where Jullian took Arnetta to a high-class brothel and then again screwed the woman by force, only the residence he got. The woman moved according to orders. Like a doll, no more yania voices have been heard since that night. Arnetta chose to silence everyone as if he was the only one living in this world.

Jullian massaged his temple. His head hurt a lot considering what happened to the woman as well as him. He should be happy and proud of what he has done to her. For five years he believed that this woman deserved the suffering of her actions.

He cheated on her and also had her mother have a heart attack. That's what makes Jullian hate Arnetta so much. After photos of the woman's hot scene with a man that Lusi showed her, Arnetta seemed to end up beating her up by sending her a photo of their kiss to her mother while they were dating in the amusement park. Jullian did not think through his actions at that time. However, what he thought was appropriate for Arnetta was apparently unable to satisfy his heart. In fact, he felt pain every time he hurt the woman.

The man looked down, noticing the scar on his hand. The now blackened bruise was not caused by the violence that others had given him, but himself who hurt his body. Jullian remembers the first time he raped Arnetta, he couldn't stand it and smashed his hand against the wall until he was injured. No one knows about this. Neither did Aunt Maria who felt she was defending Arnetta long ago.

Jullian kept it alone. Every pain that the woman feels will always be redeemed with pain anyway. He himself did not understand why he did all this. When his heart aches after hurting the woman he once loved, his body will move without orders and begin to print wounds all over his body.

Loving is beautiful, but in Jullian's life the word is inversely proportional. He loved Arnetta and also hollowed out his heart. He was not ready to be hurt, as Arnetta hollowed his heart. Jullian hated to admit that even his little heart still craved the woman all his life.

Slowly, Jullian got up and walked towards Arnetta. The woman did not react at all, even when Jullian had started to sit on the bedside. Her slightly pale face could not be disguised by the thick makeup Jullian had ordered to his servants. To him, he would rather see this kind of Arnetta than have to look at the woman's painful face. It felt like his heart was crumbling dimly without realizing it. To be honest when Arnetta prostrated herself at her feet, Jullian wanted to hug her and kiss her until they lost their breath. But, the painful shadow of five years ago was difficult to obliterate. Moreover, Arnetta had dared to disturb the life of his mother, the woman he respected the most in this world.

BRACKET!

The door opened just as Jullian almost raised his hand to touch Arnetta's face. React only anger rose when he felt disturbed by the noise. But, when he turned his face towards the door behind him, anger was told and replaced by a smile. Who would have guessed that when everyone in this house bowed down to him, there would only be the most disrespectful figure entering into his life. And ever since his birth, Jullian has allowed this figure to act disrespectfully with him.

With a small step, the figure ran towards Jullian and spread out his arms. The boy immediately hugged his favorite man of all time. No one could ever love him like Jullian did to him.

"Dad, I missed you!" Excited with passion.

"Dad misses you so much too, champ."

Jullian infused the fragrant powder that he really liked from Arif. His son whom he loved even though he knew the boy was not his flesh and blood. That love was already out when the nurse first handed it over. Jullian has promised not to involve the boy in his complicated life.

Arif's gaze was shifted to the figure sitting behind the father. The figure of the woman he remembered had met him some time ago.

"Auntie's pretty."

Jullian was stunned to hear the call. For a moment he realized where they were now and Arif had seen Arnetta who was in this room.

"Dad, pretty auntie daydreaming."

The man began to decipher their embrace and also looked at the face of Arnetta who was still looking at the sky of the room with a blank look. Either Arif is aware of his condition or the boy just recognizes him.

"You know him?" Jullian asked and immediately replied a nod of encouragement by Arif. The little bpcah crawled away from the father and pointed his foot to the empty side of Arnetta. He lay down next to the woman and whispered a word,

"Tante, remember me?"

Silent.

Free. No words will come out of that woman's lips. Arnetta just kept quiet without any intention of replying to the question that Arif was asking him. It did not escape Jullian's sight before it was finally cut off because the phone rang. Seeing the caller id, Jullian is forced to leave the two behind. Although heavy, he hopes Arif does not know anything from the mouth of Arnetta that opens to dismantle everything.

The man came out of the room without closing the door. His jaw stiffened as soon as he heard the voice he hated the most. That woman will never stop bothering him and always will. Without further ado, Jullian asked what he wanted in a hostile tone.

"Bothering a busy person, what do you think it's worth to disturb my pleasure, Lusi?"

The woman across there sounded a snort dislike. "I've kept my promise by sending Arif there. Our deal is you're gonna invest half your stake in my dad. Did you forget?"

Jullian sneered cynically. If not money, of course, Lusi would not dare to sassy this to him. "I didn't forget. I'm not that kind of man, my wife."

"I'm just making sure the file signing you have to do tonight in Makassar. I hope that son of a bitch doesn't hold you back."

If only the woman had been in front of him, Jullian would have beaten her to the point of begging for mercy. He would not hesitate to hurt anyone who insulted his child, even if he had to hurt a woman.

"One more time you insult my son, then I'll make sure your mother gets burned in her house with that fucking money!"

There was no word on the other side until Jullian heard their phone connection cut off. Just as Jullian was protecting Arif, Lusi was also doing the same with her mother. There would be nothing she could do but according to if Jullian had dragged her mother-in-law into their conversation.

"I've eaten at home, but if your aunt wants to eat, Arif will also eat."

"Then we go down and you'll eat with me."

Maybe if hearing Arif's voice just made him not as surprised as this. Jullian held his breath when he heard Arnetta's voice chiming in. After almost four days of being silent as a statue, the voice was heard again and when Jullian turned his body, he found Arif sitting in Arnetta's lap who was kissing his son's back head.

He stopped breathing, especially when he saw the woman's gentle smile for his child. A familiar feeling seemed to come back to life in his heart. With the same smile as five years ago, Jullian knew the damn love was still there and could one day rise to what it is today. But, he seemed forbidden to stop this scene and getting late as if he was looking at his son who was chatting with his wife.