Don't Say Love (BOOK 2)
Chapter 24

A beam of light scattered through the curtain that is not closed perfectly. How she knew that morning had come and brought a new day for her. Last night it was hard to close his eyes. His mind floated along with a shadow of how terrifying the day he had previously lived was. It felt like a dream when his eyes opened forcefully and found the face of the man who always caused pain in his heart. The distance between them is almost non-existent. The man never let himself out of his embrace last night.

Hates.

That's what Arnetta felt. He was eager to see the man feel the same as him, but on the other hand there was a conscience that said to forgive only. Moreover, there was a life that was growing inside him. It's part of him and the person he doesn't like.

Dislike. For a long time he considered what feeling was right for him to name now. Jullian, that man was like a monster to him. With a reunion that seemed to promise hope, it was so easily destroyed. The two hands that were still faithfully coiled on his stomach were also the hands that had ruined his life.

What Arnetta could expect from his life now. No family, no money, and now she's pregnant. The worst he realized that the child growing in his womb was the child of rape. Yes, there is no love when this child is either intentionally or unintentionally presented. From the beginning Arnetta never thought that the incident could be a pregnancy. There was a similar dark past that had happened to her, but not to the point of making her pregnant.

This time God really tested it. Want to not want every time looking at his stomach that already feels stiff, he also wants to cry. This baby is the only family he has right now. He has no one in this world who is blood bound to him. If he asked his father, Arnetta wouldn't take the trouble to remember. He and his late mother were starving, and the man still didn't care.

Really, like a crumble of his heart. His chest felt heavy breathing when recalling the bitterness of his life. Sometimes he was curious and often asked in his heart when God called him. Arnetta felt that his body was quite tired of receiving torture for the sake of torment in his life. And, the torment felt even more real as Jullian destroyed it.

"You awake?"

Arnetta just kept quiet without any intention of pretending to fall asleep again. He saw the man's pair of eagle eyes open little by little. Jullian presented him with a thin, sincere smile and soon landed a kiss on his forehead.

It should have touched him. Arnetta should feel herself warming up to the man's treatment. But somehow he felt nothing. He felt stiff and determined not to feel anything. However, the look in his eyes still flashed with Jullian's pair of eyes.

"Good morning !" Soft sweep.

Now Jullian's baritone voice sounded soft and warm. No mockery or swearing was made for Arnetta, who usually harbored his vicious temper.

Jullian who had just woken up felt how beautiful it was when he saw the face of the woman who had once stopped in his heart. Or maybe, still in his heart. He did not expect the woman to return his greeting. There was enough hope he held for Arnetta to be with him. Jullian won't sue again. As long as she's still willing to live with him, then Jullian won't expect more.

It is not wrong if Arnetta just silently accepted his treatment earlier. The woman has the right to be angry and not accept. Jullian could understand everything, as long as the woman remained by his side.

He pointed one hand towards the woman's stomach. There, precisely his son and Arnetta will grow up. He could not wait for the woman's stomach to grow. Surely, Arnetta would be a thousand times prettier than any pregnant woman in this world. He wants to hold his own baby. The flesh and blood he had been waiting for for for so many years.

During this time Jullian only bestows affection on Arif, who is clearly not his biological child. He loved Arif like his own son. But having her own child was a joy to her. It is indescribable how happy she was when she found out Arnetta was pregnant. She never expected the woman to get pregnant. He also never thought to protect his depraved actions on Arnetta. At that time his mind was too scared when the revenge he had been harboring exploded just like that. And now Jullian won't waste this opportunity again. He will soon be a father. The past that has happened between them and Arnetta is an old sheet that must be closed.

The question immediately touched the feeling of the owner of the stomach. Unknowingly Arnetta who had noticed the smooth movement of Jullian's hand immediately shed tears. Without a sound, the clear liquid just escaped from his two eyes. Arnetta didn't lie when he said he hated the man. However, Jullian's voice clearly showed genuine affection for his son. Which Arnetta never got from anyone, except his mother. Really, he wanted to end it all. Inner tired. I don't know if I should be happy or sad. All made one until it made his chest feel like it was being forcefully broken.

Jullian had not realized that the woman's face was wet, coupled with pain in her chest that made Arnetta want to vomit.

Yeah, that woman really wants to vomit right now.

Without warning, Arnetta jumped out of bed and ran towards the bathroom. One thing that makes him most relieved when opening the door is a closet that is plastered directly open. He also without delaying it again, immediately vomited clear liquid from his mouth. Arnetta doesn't care what's spewed out is the food of the day or night yesterday. Clearly, his stomach was churning as if asking to be let out.

Jullian panicked as soon as he saw Arnetta running towards the bathroom. He immediately ran after her and found her vomiting in the closet. He crouched down beside Arnetta while massaging his nape.

"Is it still nauseous?" Jullian's question sounded so as to see Arnetta wiping her lips with the back of a hand. However, instead of answering, the woman even sobbed violently. Arnetta covered her face with both hands while burying her cries. The roaring sound was getting louder as the emotional spills that had been held back all this time came out in the form of words.

"Please... I'm tired, Jullian. I beg. I'm tired." His complaint.

Jullian didn't understand what tired Arnetta meant. At first he thought that the woman was tired because she had just run out of energy spewing out all her stomach contents. However, his next words almost made his heart explode.

"This child... He's the result of rape. I can't feel it. I didn't know to be happy or sad for his presence. Please, I'm tired."

Arnetta's breathing began to pant, as if what he had just said had drained all his energy. The woman almost fell on the floor, if only Jullian did not hold her tightly.

Just like Arnetta, Jullian was now unable to shed tears. I don't know since when, he's not shy to look whiny. But, the painful feeling that echoed in his chest forced it to be expelled. Realizing that Arnetta and her feelings were the same, Jullian inevitably felt a deep sense of regret.

What Arnetta said was not wrong. Their growing child in the woman's womb was the result of rape and she was the culprit. Jullian raped Arnetta until she became pregnant. Forever, the woman will always remember where the pregnancy came from. And, Jullian knew that he was the one most responsible for everything.

"No! Our son is a child of rape. But, she'll have the highest dignity, because she's my son and you're his mother." His words were all his might, just like Arnetta, Jullian felt his strength instantly drain when saying the sentence. His strength seemed to be drained along with his heart that felt heavy.

"We're getting married, she'll be born as our son, Arnetta."