Don't Say Love (BOOK 2)
Chapter 20

The two men hugged for quite a while.  Isakan cried as if drowned along with the firmness of the arm that wrapped it tightly.

The woman still drowned her face in the chest of the man who now also drowned his face in the niche of his neck. Both seem to forget that they are both strangers who have a sad past.  They are also a couple who have to separate.  However, every beat that reverberated together the second of time bewitched the two of them to forget everything.  A sense of warmth and comfort brings the two back to the past, that there is love between them.  There is a love that makes them almost together.

Arnetta would admit, that he misses this hug.  The warm and pleasant feeling in Jullian's embrace made him reluctant to open his eyes.  He was too afraid to accept the fact that the man who was hugging him was the man who had raped him and also made him a mistress.

This ripped his heart every time Arnetra was forced to notice it. Jullian is the husband of Lusi, his half-brother.  This man had also crushed himself to pieces.  But, stupidly his heart was always beating fast because of this man. The love that should have been lost today can be felt again. It was so powerful that it bewitched her to keep hugging the man before her.

Jullian, with this soothing masculine scent is able to carry memories of when they dated first.  Thanks to her, Arnetta knew what it was like to fall in love and have a terrible heartbreak.  The man who originally loved her turned into a terrible monster that could tear her heart apart.

Soon after realizing it, Arnetta pushed Jullian's body away from him.  At that moment he saw the surprised face of Jullian, but Arnetta was forced to ignore it.  He didn't want to make the man hate him more. Enough of it he felt heartache.  If Jullian had said from the beginning that he was disgusting, Arnetta wouldn't have changed that.

"Arnetta..."

The sound almost made him stop and look.  But no, he could not be weak on himself.  He had promised not to re-enter Jullian's life.  Let him be here until he gets bored of him.  Arnetta will leave after Jullian expels him.  That way, Arnetta knew when he had to end his heartache.  His heart has a period of strength, if Jullian expels him then that's the time he has to end it all.  He will not escape.

Ignoring the call, Arnetta immediately walked away from the man.  Being close to Jullian even makes her a woman who forgets the past.  It's just the kitchen, the safest place Jullian's never been.  That man will never set foot here.

"You know, that woman was dumped by Master.  He's just like us now.  The waiter!"

The voice instantly sounded as soon as his feet entered the kitchen area.  Arnetta saw three servants in the house gathered in the backyard connected to the kitchen.  He was unaware of his presence.  For that, Arnetta just stayed in place without the intention of continuing his footsteps again.

"I heard he's a mistress.  Several times I cleaned the room Mr. Jullian used to fuck her and she still sleeps there naked" said one of the servants there.

"A bitch!  Already knew Mr. Jullian was married, but still looking for him.  Even now the young master called her mother."

"Bas with a bitch!"

Arnetta's tears are over. His hands were squeezing the collar of his clothes tightly together with the pain that was seeping into his heart.  People should say that about him. Arnetta no longer had any self-respect.  Since then, it has been dirty.  With his dark past, it was natural for others to judge him so.  It felt like the mother's call from Arif for her pum was too precious for this despicable herself.

"If the character is already so, it means the woman does not know herself."

As soon as the sentence came back, Arnetta's tears fell instantly.  She came back crying today.  His heart was broken no longer in two, but it had already broken countless heads.  It's been ruined.  As a woman, she failed in her life.  In fact, her mother chose to leave her rather than live with a disgusting child like her.

Bitches, prostitutes, women don't know themselves.  As they call it.  No wonder why Jullian was disgusted at her.  A woman like her doesn't even deserve to be anywhere in the world.

**

The pair of sharp eyes did not stop to pay attention to the movements of a woman who also followed several other servants who were arranging food at the dinner table this evening.  The woman looked ordinary and seemed to be able to behave naturally.  Not a single bit of his movement seemed awkward to Jullian's eyes.

After taking a bath and refreshing his mind, he wanted to see the woman.  But now, the man just stood in front of the dining table while paying attention to the movements of Arnetta which he thought was confusing.

This morning, after their conversation that ended with his embrace, Arnetta immediately let go and walked towards the kitchen.  The woman did not say a word to Jullian until this second. Although Jullian had given Maria a mandate that Arnetta should not hold any work in this house, in fact the woman was still struggling with the cleaning device.  In fact, the woman also washed clothes.

The man had run out of sense to see it.  He should have easily snapped at the woman and told her to shut up.  But, the Arnetta residence even made her guts shrivel.  The woman acted as if it was natural to do household chores in this house.  Several times Arif also asked the woman to play, but he refused.

"Wait!"

Jullian's heavy voice made the movements of the entire servant, including Arnetta stop.  All eyes were on him who had just been standing in front of the dining table like a foreman watching his subordinates at work.  His gaze also turned to Arnetta who looked pale with a white T-shirt and also shabby material pants that were no longer the same as his clothes this morning.

In Jullian's heart, he lamented why he kept paying attention to whatever the woman was wearing.  Arnetta should have worn shabby clothes, for she was poor.  But, his heart was instead throbbing painfully looking at his state.  Supposedly with the conditions that lived with her, the woman was already enjoying what was available in this house.  However, in fact, Arnetta still wears the shabby clothes like the first time the woman set foot in this house.  Unlike Lusi who enjoys all the Rivai's wealth, Arnetta must become his mistress to collect her mother's medical expenses.

"Jullian, what's wrong?" asked Maria who had just come from the kitchen.

"Don't I tell you that Arnetta is forbidden to do all the work in this house?" he said with a slightly raised tone.

Mary was flabbergasted to hear Jullian's words.  He thought the man was not serious about what he said.  All this time he always thought that his foster children did not let Arnetta calm down in this house.  However, that sharp gaze full of anger showed the opposite.  Glanced at Arnetta who lowered his head while playing the shabby tip of his shirt.  Since the death of her mother, the poor woman has never stopped working.  Arnetta lives like a maid in this house.  In fact, the woman also received the scorn addressed to her by the servants and other workers.

"And where are all the clothes I bought for her?  Didn't you give it?  Has this woman not slept in the guest room as I ordered?" he added that the more angry seeing the condition of the woman.

"I haven't said it yet and all this time Arnetta has been living here doing chores like the rest of the workers. He also did not occupy the guest room.  Arnetta slept with me, sir" she replied to Jullian.

The man clenched his hands, grabbed a glass plate on the table and threw it on the floor.  That loud noise instantly shocked everyone who was there.  In fact, Arif who was on the second floor also directly out of his room.  From above he looked terrified at the anger of his father today.

The screams echoed throughout the house.  None of the servants dared to look at the face of his master, including Mary herself.  The middle-aged woman knew the moment Jullian began to play the role of a real host, not her foster child.

As for Arnetta, the woman tried to hold back her stuffing.  He was scared to death after hearing Jullian's anger.  His body shakes unruffled.  His feet also felt weak.  He could not look into those angry eyes.  He doesn't want to do it.  His heart has been hurt enough today.  Jullian who was disgusted at him would even make himself feel weak and insignificant.

"Answer, Arnetta!" jerk again.

Realizing that there was no intention of the woman to answer him, even to just look at him, Jullian walked over with wide steps towards the woman standing up.  His angry face was able to make all the servants there choose to stay away.  They looked pityfully at the cornered Arnetta, but were beyond help.  Who can, they also need to work with Jullian to support themselves.

When the man was in front of Arnetta, Jullian immediately raised his hand to grip the woman's chin.However, instead of looking up, Arnetta Precisely straightened his body towards Jullian.  The man swiftly caught Arnetta's unconscious body.

Arnetta fainted in her arms and the skin felt by Jullian's hands was extremely hot.  Suddenly, the man immediately patted Arnetta's face to wake up.

"Damn!  Arnetta, Arnetta!  Please call the doctor immediately!"

**

The weak body was lying on his bedroom bed.  Jullian doesn't care about anything anymore.  As soon as he saw the woman's body decaying to him, he immediately brought arnetta into his room. Arif's cry was not ignored.  In his mind, he was afraid that something might happen that would snatch the woman from his side.

Now like a fool, he just stood beside the bed while watching a doctor check the condition of Arnetta who until now has not opened his eyes.

Jullian did not care about the costs he would incur if Arnetta suffered from a severe disease.  He would spend any money as long as the woman remained by his side.  Tonight seeing the woman unconscious, he knew he could no longer lose her.  Arnetta had already returned and it was hard for him to imagine the woman's absence by his side.

Does he still love this woman?

Is five years that have passed not enough or will never be enough to bury his love for this woman?

Arnetta, the deceitful woman who replaced Lusi to meet him during an arranged marriage five years ago. The same woman who had taught him to enjoy life despite the weight.  The woman who had already left him suddenly after breaking her heart and almost killed her own mother.

After everything...

Jullian was still afraid of losing her.  Jullian...  Loving her.

"His temperature is quite high.  I gave him a vitamin injection.  For any other medicine, I can't give it."

The heavy voice of the doctor who had just checked Arnetta's condition immediately resuscitated his daydream.  Jullian clasped in front of his chest.

"meaning?  Shouldn't I be given a fever cure?" ask him in confusion.

The middle-aged male doctor smiled slightly as if Jullian's words sounded funny to him.  He also showed a face full of indecision.  Not everyone can realize it.

"I can't give any medicine to a woman who is pregnant."

What...?

Suddenly all Jullian's views blurred.  He himself forgot how he stood with what kind of look.  The words that the doctor had just spoken threw himself to the deepest point. His gaze was shifted to the body lying limp.  Like a time bomb, his heartbeat was no longer felt.  It was as if time had stopped as he listened to that sentence.

Arnetta's pregnant?

He must have forgotten that. Jullian forgets that every intimate relationship they have is always without safety.  Jullian was conscious when he did it the first time, then forgot about it for the next moment.

The man had already ruined Arnetta's life, once again.

"For the age of the womb, you can check the condition to a specialist obstetrician.  Better as soon as possible, because it is feared that his weakened condition will affect the health of the fetus he contains."

Stupid fuck!

Jullian no longer listened to him.  He was too fixated on this news.  Pleased or angry, he could no longer tell the difference.  However, this time the fault did not lie with the woman. This mistake was on him, Jullian felt he was wrong and caused all these problems.

No, the fetus was not a problem for him, but Arnetta could have been getting away from him.  The jerk who ruined everything.

"Suck!"